Some thoughts;poems-index link page 1 - Page 5

Originally posted by: why6

Misti, this is a very beautiful poem and I will comment on it later.

Originally posted by: Myra.nelly

Misti, simply amazing, i could imagine a simple woman lost in her thoughts at the window pane just as dev use to do...imagening a little dev coming back to her running but when she streches that hand the beautiful image fades away..very beautiful, ur poem its like describing a painting..really emotional and real..

Originally posted by: ushasri

very beutiful misti and if possible for u pls give the os on how dev reacts and breakdown when he find out chaya

Originally posted by: misti73

Another one on Chaya. I am sorry I am trying to write something on Dev but it is Chaya who is coming out in words. I have this image in my mind of Chaya waiting for Dev but I needed something more... so thanks to Hari and her description of Chaya that gave me the complete picture to write this poem.

The Wait...

Sitting by the window pane I have willed my life away

I keep looking at the winding road, and keep my fears at bay

Lingering in the hope that one day you will trace your path to me

You are the one whom my love has sown but whom I could not see

Wonder if you ever think of me when you are one with your thoughts

Or am I of not that significant to you for it to matter naught.

Usually I sit and hum a song to keep my weary heart at bay

But then in a while I realize that it is a lullaby that I am singing all day

It is the same one that I sang to you whilst I first held you in my arm

And I also sang it to an empty cradle, to calm my broken heart as a balm

Do you ever recollect that moment however minute it might have been

Do you have any memories of the one that you are part of, but who has been kept unseen.

At dusk in the meadow by the winding road when the neighboring children are at play

I sometimes see you running around with arms outstretched as a free bird may

My face breaks out in a smile and unknown to me I start to wave

You see me and come exclaiming "Mummy did you see me flying away"

Sometimes I see you falling down and my hands stretch out to break your fall

When it strikes me that that my arms are empty, you are just my hearts recall.

When I see an unknown figure walking up the winding road towards where I live

My heart filled with hope that you have come back to me begins to heave

Although I hold the rods in the window to stop me from running to the door

Still I move in a daze to see whether the unknown figure is the one who is in my core

I always return empty handed, with my eyes dry of tears

And I am back to sitting by the window waiting for you to come near.

(c) MistiB

Originally posted by: why6

Misti, this poem is as beautiful as the previous one. But this one is even more poignant and sad. I love your interpretation of Chaya's character. Thanks Angie. The woman who gave up her son because she had nothing and thought that he would be nothing with her and would be everything with Dada has to be this way. She was not "mahaan" as I find this word very patronizing. She was selfless because she gave up her most precious thing in the mistaken belief that that precious thing would be cherished more with others. Of course it did not happen and Dev only got abuse and a suffocating environment from which Radhika saved him. I don't know whether she really had the choice to think all that...that she has an option. I mean she knew that dada knows of her existence and is hiding her so why should she think that dada will give her son the recognition. Maybe she really did not have any choice. She is alone with no support. Even if she gave him up voluntarily and knew that Dev will not get the recognition but might have thought that even if he does not get the recognition at least he will be looked after much better than she can. In your last post you had written whether she came back to see Dev and saw him being referred to as a servant yet went back...although I have wondered about this before but then I remembered that after Hari got married to Padma she left never too look back. It was an accident that brought her in front of Hari and she got caught up with her emotions. So since she left initially most probably she won't return on her own...either she will meet her son through some other reason or Dev might have to go to look for her.

Chaya has to be waiting for him. You are right that a woman like her wouldn't feel that she has any more rights over him because she gave him up. So she wouldn't come by herself even if she kept track of his news. So she would just have hope that he would be feeling incomplete too and would come for her. Chaya has never been shown to exert her rights..otherwise Hari would have been with her...so thats why I think she might think that since she has given up she does not have the right to walk in and claim Dev.

I love the last two paragraphs where she is imagining him as a kid and yet her arms are empty when her reverie is broken. Then the last paragraph where she constantly keeps on hoping and waiting that he would come and her hopes get broken again and again. Thanks...well the credit for the kid part goes to Hari...She wrote in one of her posts in this thread that Chaya must have remembered Dev while she was watching kids play...I just extended it...becuase this is the image that came in my mind after reading that sentence.

The justice to her and Dev would be when she comes back. Then Dev and Radhika have a baby boy where both Dev and Chaya can relive Dev's childhood through Radhika's relationship with her son. Chaya would be the perfect grandmother where she didn't get to see Dev's childhood but get to see his son's childhood. That would be a balm to her broken heart. Ahh now you are giving me an image😃.

Originally posted by: misti73

Thanks Ushasri for liking it. I will keep your request in mind Ushasri...I am planning to write something on Chaya and Dev's reactions when they finally meet.