*~H.G.O.R.C. #543~*- $~Invites Only~$ - Page 95

2015 main kaha ke pehle sab jo bhe tha galat tha, ''2014 se 2015''

2016 main kaha ke tumhain kho kar mujhe bhe acha ''nahi lag raha''

2017 main kaha ab kabhe baat ''nahi hogi''

2018 main mix batain kin, main confuse ho jata tha ke gussa nikal rahi hai ya mujh pe daya a gayi.

2019 main keh diya ke tum galti they meri life main, jis ko main ne fix kar diya kab ka or main ab tumhare bina os se zeyada khush hoon jitna tumahre sath nahi raha ja sakta tha,

mujhe laga tha meri baat sun kar koi mujhe khushi de degi. or main phir apne dreams pure karon ga, jis main siraf or siraf on keyliye jeena tha or on ko har tarhan ki khushi dena jo mere dreams main tha, meri khushi osi main thi.

magar kisi ne baat tak nahi suni..

mujhe galat fehmi ho gayi thi ke shayed aaj bhe kisi ke dil main kuch hai. shayed aaj bhe kisi ke dil main thora sa ehsaas ya pyaar baki hai...

main apne is dard se kahin tanha rehne geya tha..

main ne wahan ja ke socha kya hai ye life, kab tak ansu he nikalta rahon ga, to main ne socha ke main kuch kar bhe nahi sakta, jab main apne plan ko pura nahi kar saka to main kisi keyliye kuch nahi kar sakon ga jo mere dreams they..

phir socha ke chalo millions nahi to 200K tak to hai na meri okaat, os pe kaam karta hoon or sath sath try karta hoon, 3 se 4 saal main wo manzil bhe wapis mil he jayegi,

to main ne socha chalo khud ki kismat ko or apne pyaar ko 1 last chance de kar dekhon. last time 2016 main manga tha kisi ko... os ke baad nahi,

magar kisi ne wo koshish karne bhe nahi di mujhe... pehle kisi ko problem thi ke eysi batain na karo, phir kisi ko problem thi ke baat he na karo, to eyse halaat main kese karta main ye baat.

main ne hint bhe diya ke ''mere Dad mere sath hain''.. jab kisi ke Parents main se koi 1 bhe sath ho na to bohot himat a jati hai. mera kaam on ko manana tha, or Dad ka on ki family se baat karne ka.... mujhe is baar 2015 se zeyada umeed thi kisi ke maan jane ki..

or mujhe kisi ki family ki utni problem thi he nahi jitni kisi ki khud thi.. or wohi hova. kisi ne baat ko sunna bhe pasand nahi kiya meri...

ye meri life ko 1 chance dene ka last chance tha. mujhe umeed thi ke ye theek ho jayegi ab... magar main bhool geya tha ke mera taluq kis insaan se raha hai...

2015 main surprise tha to kisi ne tab ye halat kar di thi, or abhe 1 special baat karni thi, 1 last try karni thi. or kisi ne baat tak nahi suni meri..

main ne ab haar maan li, 100% haar maan li, main ne itni req ki kisi se ke mujhe 1 din keyliye block na karna.. bohot req ki. magar meri 1 nahi suni kisi ne...

is liye ab khamosh rehna behtar hai mere liye...

ye sab karne ko mere Dad ne mujhe encourage kiya tha.

wo kehte hain na doobte ko tinke ka sahara. same wese he... 3 baar kaha onhon ne 2019 main..

onhon ne kuch din pehle mujhe call ki or kaha ke beta aaj tumhari kheir nahi thi main tumhain dantne laga tha. lekin danta nahi. or main dar geya on ki is baat se ke life main 1st time eysa bole wo..

then onhon ne sidhi baat ki mujh se, main ne on se saaf kaha ke nahi ho sake ga, wo kehne lage tum abhe bhe os kabil ho, log degree le kar bhe utna nahi kama sakte jitna tum abhe ho. to 1 kadam tum barha kar dekho. phir mujhe batana. wo keh rahe they wese sad rehne se kya mil raha hai ager koshish kar loge 1 to kuch nahi jayega,

or main tumhain ''guarantee'' deta hoon 101% ke main apne bete ko khushi doon ga, tum bus apna kaam karo ''phir'' main wahan ata hoon or khud baat karta hoon family se, wo mera kaam hai tumahra nahi. to tum bus apna kaam he karo,

main ne on se phir kaha ke Dad mere dreams pure karne ke piche mera 1 plan bhe tha,

to onhon ne 1 acha idea diya. kaha ke tum abhe jo bhe kar sakte ho karo, wo bhe kam nahi hai 1 saal main 200K plus kamane ke kabil ho, then os ka sath milne pe 3 saa, ya 4 kya 10 saal bhe lag jayein ge to tum phir se kamyab ho sakte ho, jab pehle ho gaye they to abhe bhe ho sakte ho, pehla kaam karo, dosra waqat ke sath ho jayega kiyon ke waqat ko badla nahi ja sakta lekin halaat wese banaye ja sakte hain ke wesa waqat wapis a jaye, or jaldi he tum os ko bhe hasil kar loge or apni khoyi hoi manzil ko bhe..ye on ka he idea tha jis main sachi 1 point tha, jo meri samjh main bhe nahi aya tha, is se acha idea koi nahi de sakta tha shayed mujhe..

magar on ki ye baat mere dimaag main gayi he nahi thi, samjh liya magar dar ki waja se ke nahi. bus yehi socha ke koi maan he nahi sakti..

to main tanha raha on ke he city main, laptop se door, to mere andar se awaaz ayi ke Dad ne itni bhari baat keh di to or kya chahiye ansar tumhain.. magar dar tha ke wo maan nahi saktin, lol

main ne phir on se baat karna start ki, or pehle he din main ne dekha ke wo sahi tarhan se baat nahi kar rahin,

phir dekha ke on ki tone theek nahi hai to abhe baat karna theek nahi, or phir rula diya mujhe, or main ne socha ke mood kharab hoga, theek hota hai to baat karta hoon, magar mujhe onhon ne time he nahi diya.. thora sa time bhe nahi diya.. 1 ansar tha itna kuch karta raha os zalim keyliye or badle main mujhe ye sab mila...

all over..

wo mere jawab ka wait kar rahe they ke main on ko btaon or wo a jayein yahan, magar meri himat he nahi ho rahi thi on se kehne ki, to on ki call ayi thi, main ne utha li, baat nahi hoi, rona a geya... or wo samjh gaye...

mere sath sath on ka bhe dil toot geya, mera kisi ki waja se, or mere Dad ka mere dukh ki waja se... os din se on ki call bhe nahi ayi again. wo jante hain main sad hoon or mujh se baat nahi hogi ab.

main ne har mour pe kisi ko batane ki koshish ki ke sab ho sakta tha.. ya shayed ho sakta hai, magar meri kabhe suni he nahi gayi.

i think sab khatam ho geya hai, mujhe abhe wapis apni andheron ki zindagi main lout jana chahiye, wohi meri jaga hai, jahan main rahon ga or mera ye dard mera sath dega.

shayed on ko laga tha ke dec ki chat kam thi is ko rulane keyeliye to onhon ne os se bhe buri tarhan se baat kar ke mujhe 1 or gift de diya..

yehi wo baat thi future ko le kar jo bohot khas thi or on se karna zaroori thi, magar karne se pehle he main reject ho geya.. 2nd time..

ye jo 2019 main thora sa shararti ho geya tha ye bhe Dad ki waja se tha, mujhe laga tha ke on ko nahi maloom ke main jan se feb tak beemar raha tha or 1 stent bhe dala mujh main, magar on ko kisi ne bata diya tha. to onhon ne 2019 main he ye baat 3 baar kahi mujhe, main ne socha nahi tha ke himat kar paon ga. magar phir bhe jab dimaag main ata tha ke Dad mere sath hain to main zara acha feel karta tha, ye soch kar ke wo mere sath hain to shayed main 1 baar himat kar loon or sab theek ho jayega, or osi umeed ko le kar ke koi maan jayega main zara acha feel karne lag jata tha kuch time. or pehle jesa shararti ho hone ki 1 koshish karta tha,

kisi ne mujhe dec 2015 ke baad unblock kiya, main ne wo mesgs koi 1 week ke baad dekhe, or main dar raha tha ke reply karon? ager kiya to mera bura haal kar degi jo hamesha karti hai, lol magar mujhe laga tha shayed kisi ko thora sa taras a geya hai. shayed thori si dil main jaga ban gayi hai isi liye kiya... main ne tab bhe nahi socha tha ke koi baat karon ga, bus eyse he tanha rehne onhi ke city main chala geya,

or wahan ja ke dil ne kaha ke ab baat kar loon, phir socha mil bhe loon ga.. pehle laga tha ke wo nahi milain gi, phir yaad aya ke onhon ne he 2018 main mujhe kaha tha milne ka..

or itna he nahi meri 1 frined ko mesg bhe kiya tha ke ansar ager mere city main aye to os se kaho mujhe mesg kar sakta hai, to main ne in sab baton ko samne rakh ke mesg kiya or samjhne ki koshish ki ke mood kesa hai, or wo main ne bata diya ke pehle laga sahi nahi, phir laga milne ka to hoga he nahi, , or phir laga ke ye meri baat bhe nahi sunegi to kuch time wait karta hoon jab mood acha hova to keh doon ga, magar.... kismat meri..

2018 main kehti rahin wo ke daro nahi, strong bano or mil lo, main darta raha, or jab himat ki to onhon ne or daara diya mujhe...

onhon ne mujhe har tarhan se daba ke rakha hova hai..

pehle mere sath khel kar dard diya, or ab dard main dekh kar kaha jata hai ye sab bollywood ki acting hai..

baat karon to on ko meri batain faltu lagti hain wo sidhe mu jawab dena pasand nahi kartin,

or ager purani yadain dikhaon to kehti hain ke 1 bhe dikhaya to mujh se bura nahi hoga koi,

or ager kisi or cheez pe baat karon to kaha jata hai mujhe baat he nahi karni,

or agr pucha jaye meri galti kya thi? to jawab he nahi diya jata,

or ager ye puchon ke Ap ko eysa kya hova tha jo eysa kiya? to jawab ata hai tum he galat they meri life main, tumhain nikaal kar main khush hoon...

main kisi bhe tarhan se, koi bhe baat karon to on ko galt dikhta hai os main..

main kuch bhe kahon to meri baat ko mana nahi jata. wo apni he zid puri karti hain. os main beshak main jitna marzi on se kiyon na req karon wo sunti he nahi meri baat.. main on se kehta bhe hoon ke thora sa kheyal karo magar wo or zeyada rulane lag jati hain...

main apni galti maan raha hoon or mujhe pata hai main ne bohot galat kiya.. magar wo apni galti bhe nahi manti, kehti hain jo hova tumhare sath ye tum ne he kiya.. or ager main purani batain dikhane ki koshish karon ke dekho kis ne kiya to wo read he nahi kartin. agey se gussa karti hain..

kehti hain mere sar main dard shoro ho jata hai, or on ki baton se mere dil main...

khud ko mature bolti hain wo, or on ko pata he nahi hai ke mature kehte kis ko hain, mature log eysa to nahi karte, jese wo karti hain, siraf or siraf apni zid? siraf or siraf apna kheyal? kam se kam dosre ki sun kar to dekh lo pehle. or is se zeyada mature or kya hona hai onhon ne jo baat puri bhe nahi hone di or sidha block. mature log eysa karte hain kya..

ager onhon ne kisi ko khuhsi dena nahi seekha to kam se kam baat sun to leni chahiye na,

1 main tha jo on ko khushi dene keyliye kya kya nahi karta raha. or wo khushi to door ki baat meri baat nahi sun saktin.. 1 baar eysa kar ke to dekh leti wo ke kisi ko khuhsi dene se kitni khushi milti hai...

mere sath hote hove wo zeyada perfect or zeyada khush thin,! jesi bhe thi kam se kam dil tha on ke paas.. insaniyat jitni bhe thi hai zaroor thi abhe to wo hai he nahi.. gussa tha tab bhe magar itna nahi.. care thi tab os cheez main to 100% numbers hain on ke, care sab se zeyada thi, or aaj? aj itni care hai ke wo apni he baton se mujhe itna rula detin hain ke main hospital chala jata hoon. 3 saal 5 months main, 1 baar bhe nahi on ke mu se suna ke ansar tumhare dard ka mujhe ehsaas hai.. ya tumhare dard se mujhe thora sa bhe kuch feel ho raha hai... haan 2016 main kaha tha onhon ne ke mujhe dil se tumhara kheyal a raha a raha hai ke main ne tumhari itni buri halat kar di hai, mujhe tumhare dard ka utna he ehsaas hai jitna tumhain hai, lekin kuch he din ke baad onhon ne apni he baat ko galat sabit kar diya tha..

or respect? zara bhe nahi rahi.. mujhe nahi chahiye wo meri respect karain, kam se kam mere jazbaat ki to kar lain, meri feelings ki he kar lain, mujhe beshak kuch bhe samjh lain its ok,

main khud ko 1 bura insaan samjhta hoon, main khud apni he nazron se nazrain nahi mila sakta. magar on ko chahiye na ke kam se kam meri feelings ki to thori si respect kar lain, baat to araam se karna seekh lain, phir mujhe bhe sikha dain ke kese karte hain araam se baat..

jo bhe tha har tarhan se wo pehle he sahi thin ab siraf on ko lagta hai ke wo sahi hain,

on ko itna to soch lena chahiye ke wo khud kya kar rahi hain... mujhe galat jitna bolna hai bol lain no problem, magar meri galti ke piche wo khud ki galtiyon ko kese chupa sakti hain?

wo har baar 1 naya face le kar samne ati hain. or har baar kaha jata hai ye koi alag person hai, to yaar sahi wala kab thi?

2015?2016?2017?2018?2019? kab sahi thi.... abhe 2018 ki batain jo zeyada purani bhe nahi hain, on ko he yaad karon to lagta hai ke ye 2019 main jis se baat hoi ye kon hai?

kya 2018 main bhe drama tha? mujhe kaha geya ke tumhari halat dekh kar mujhe ab realize ho raha hai ke kya hova tumahre sath,! or ye bhe ke main ne bohot galat chezain kin hain tumhare sath tum koi or dhond lo jo tumhare sath loyal ho,. or ab bilkul he kuch or.

khud ka to on ko pata nahi or batain sunayi jati hain mujhe,

wo eysa kar rahi hain mere sath jese kisi ko pehle rulao, or phir kaho zubaan band karo rone ki awaaz bhe na aye, pehle dard diya,, or ab kehti hain ye sab acting hai,

ager acting hai to na dekho ye acting, main jesa bhe hoon mar raha hoon rehne do eyse he.. wo a kar koi achi baat, ya koi eysi baat jo mere dil ko sakoon de wo to kartin he nahi, ultna or sad kar deti hain.

2015 main bhe, meri suni nahi thi or os ki sari suni bhe, care bhe ki or chance bhe diya.. or mujhe 3 saalon main 1 baar bhe nahi.. utla hurt.

''itna bura hoon main''??

on ko bus 1 cheez yaad rakhni chahiye, mere dil main hain is liye wo araam se a kar meri insult kar deti hain, mujhe rula deti hain,

ager dil main na hoti to main on ki wo halat karta ke rone bhe na deta on ko :P unchi awaaz to kya on ko sans lete hove bhe mera naam yaad ata :P or ye baat wo janti hain ke ansar mere pyaar main pagal hai ye kuch bolega nahi, ulta sad ho jayega, is cheez ka fayda utha rahi hain wo ache se,

wo kehti hain ke wo mere bina sab se zeyada khush hain. or kasam se mujhe acha laga ke wo mujhe rula kar, meri zindagi baarbaad kar ke bhe khush hain :) shayed on ko maloom nahi meri har dua isi cheez ki to hoti hai ke wo hamesha khush rahain.. magar wo mere sath bhe to khush reh saktin thin na. jab ke 3 saal pehle sab se zeyada khush mere sath he thin..

lekin main wohi baat karon ga jis se on ko gussa ata hai,! or wo yehi ke main on ko eysi duniya dikhata jis ka onhon ne kabhe socha bhe nahi tha.. onhon ne duniya ko dekha nahi hai, future acha hone ka matlab ye nahi hota ke life main sab perfect he rahe jesa wo soch kar bethin hain, on ko kya pata main ne kya kya soch rakha tha.. on ko movies dekh kar addat ho gayi hai or on ko lagta hai ke real life main kuch hota he nahi..

jese ye kahan main on se door tha, time ka bhe 12 hours ka fark tha , magar abhe main ye nahi kahon ga ke ye LDR hai, nah,!!!! main on ke city main ja sakta hoon, wahan raha bhe, beach pe, whan se on ka ghar kitna door hai, ye wo janti hain ke wo LDR main nahi ata, lol main ne ye kaam jo movies main hota hai jab os ko sach kar dikhaya to main sab kar sakta tha ager sath hota to,!

ye wo nahi kar saktin thin,! maan lo ke wo wesi he hain 2015 jesi jo mujhe kehti thin ke ansar tumhare bina nahi rehna main ne tumahre sath zindagi guzarni hai, kya wo mere paas a saktin thin? lol kabhe nahi :P ye main hoon jis ne is baat ko sach kar dikhaya,! isi tarhan se mera bus 1 he kaam tha, on ki life ko khushi dena or haseen banana, wesa kar ke he mujhe khushi milti, kiyon ke on keyliye kuch karna yehi mera pyaar hai.. wo zara khud dheyan se dekhain to mere sath guzre waqat main wo zeyda achi thin, wo bata diya oper ke tab kesi thin...

ager phir bhe on ko lagta hai ke wo sahi hain, to phir a jayein mere samne :P challenge hai on ko koi 1 baat eysi bata dain jis main wo sahi sabit ho gayin,! jesa kaha tha onhon ne wesa hova, koi 1? main wada karta hoon on ka folder apne mobile, or laptop se delete kar doon ga,

dil se to jayega he nahi meri akhiri sans tak magar laptop or mobile se kar doon ga,! or kabhe nazar bhe nahi aaon ga, on ko ehsaas tak nahi hoga ke ansar naam ka koi mera khilona tha bhe ke nahi, siraf 1 baar bata dain koi 1 baat jo sachi ho gayi on ki, !.

meri bohot si ho gayin, jese ke yahan ana,! on ke city main ana,! on ke itna kareeb ana ke milna hota to on ko mere paas aney main kitna time lagta ye wo janti hain ke beach on ke ghar se kitni door hai, . main is se bhe zeyada kareeb ja sakta hoon,

ager ye pyaar kamyaab nahi hova to 100% on ki waja se nahi hova, mere sath main khud hoon, mera pyaar hai,! or mere DAD hain,! on ko lagta hai on ki family nahi maan sakti kiyon? kisi or duniya se ayi hai on ki family ? :P os se bhe mushkil wale rishte kamyaab hove,! mere he 1 dost ka hova jo mushkil he nahi na mumkin tha, magar hova, on ko btaya bhe bohot baar,!!

2015 tak to mere Dad ko bhe nahi pata tha, mujhe laga tha ke mujhe on ko manana parega, magar abhe to ye os se asaan ho geya tha sab, phr bhe on ka dimaag is taraf aya he nahi, reason? on ko kabhe pyaar tha he nahi... hota to eysa na kartin wo,

or ye batain sach hain, wo dheyan se apna chotta sa dimaag zara use kar lain to smajh ayega on ko,! meri sab batain puri hoi or on ki koi 1 bhe nahi,! is se zeyada or kya karon main akela ke main ne is LDR ko mushkil se asaan bana diya.! mere Dad ki help se.. khud ki soch se.. ager ye main akela kar sakta to kab ka kar chuka hota. kisi ki help bhe nahi chahiye thi, siraf sath, sath ka matlab sath he kuch or nahi chahiye tha,

i m serious. 2015 main mushkil ho sakta tha abhe to asaan tha os se.. on ko kabhe samjh he nahi ayi ke kya ho sakta tha or kya abhe bhe ho sakta tha,! jo main ne kiya wo kam bhe nahi hai, beshak is doori ko he door kiya ye bhe kam nahi, har koi eysa nahi kar sakta wese, wo bhe jab dosri taraf se koi umeed na ho to bhe kar le, ye onko samjhna chahiye tha..