Swaron SS ~I love you swayam~ completed

A cold breeze of wind of blew causing her hair to float in air and the moonlight falling on her making her look nothing less than an angel. She sat there leaning against the window, enjoying the cool weather and lost in her own world. Her mind wandering off to some beautiful memories she had carefully, with all her might hidden in the darkest corner of her heart. But it was impossible now; he was making it impossible for her to do it anymore now. He came into her life a ray of light entering right in her heart and lightening up even the brightest corner of her heart and setting those beautiful memories free to wander in her mind, making her feel the beauty of them all over again and cherish them.

"totne nahin dunga tumhare dill ko" she placed her hand upon her stomach as she again felt butterflies in her stomach when she remembered how his touch sent shivers down her spine.

"tum bohat special ho" she closed her eyes as those words in his melodious voice rang in her ears and a silent blush crept upon her cheeks as she remembered the events of that night. The first time she felt that she was special, that someone could love her and that what love was like, what it was like to have someone in your would do anything to make you happy.

"tumhein meri help cahiye hogi" she remembered how she forgot that they were surrounded by so many people and not alone.

All those memories silently made way into her mind just like he had silently not even letting her know when he was there, in her heart, ruling it and controlling her heart beat. She placed her hand on her heart and could feel its pace increase as she thought of him when he carried her in his arms, when they fell in the pool, when they danced together, when they fought, how she would feel a shiver ran down her spine when he would touch her and how she would forget to breath when she would meet his gaze and couldn't look away. She opened her eyes at once and took deep breaths trying to bring her heart beat to normal.

And then the unwanted memory crept in her mind filling her eyes with tears " main ek baat janti hun that I don't want you" tears now ran down her cheeks as the same sensation of pain ran through her. She didn't know why but she felt hollow from inside. Just like she had felt when she had rejected him that day even when she wanted to love him like no one ever loved him. She didn't know why bit whenever she remembered that day she felt broken from inside, whenever she remembered his vulnerable face she felt as if someone had taken the last ray of light from her life and now all that left was darkness. She placed her hands on her mouth as her tears now turned into sobs. She was confused with her own behavior why did it hurt her so much to see him in pain knowing that it is given by no one else but her. She had always tried to find reasons to shove him out of her life but he had always given her reasons to let him rule her life. He had always been there for her even when she had done nothing except insult and hurt him. When she was broken and needed a friend the only person she trusted enough was him and her without telling him that she needed him, he had been there in the crowd of thousands of people when she her eyes were searching no one else but him and he stood there, her pillar of trust, confidence and she danced to tell the world that no one can stop her now. But what did she do to him break his heart even when her own heart broke along with it. His devastated face still haunted her and she could never forget the look of agony on his face given by her. But why can't she? Why does he matter so much to her? She closed her eyes again almost pulling her hair out and said "think about something else Sharon" and then her mind went back to the beautiful memory they just shared today. She could feel her knees going weak when he had blocked her against the wall and only she knew how she controlled her heartbeat when he was gazing at her and she pulled her dupatta from his face. Just when she thought her knees will give away he moved back allowing her go and she ran for her life. but he once again made her heart skip a beat as he grabbed her hand again and pulled her towards himself making her bump in his chest. Then his intense gaze played so many melodies with the strings of her heart. She was scared that he was doing this for the shoes but he moved back again allowing her to go with the shoes and giving her his breath taking smile. The thought of his smile brought a smile on her own face and just then she heart someone whisper in her ears "tum bohat special ho" she opened her eyes and turned her head sideways only to find him starring at her. She starred in his eyes for a second and then quickly moved back shocked at her own behavior as she realized that she was starring at nothing else but thin air.

She stood up wiping the tears from her face and then she saw him laying on her bed winking at her. She slowly moved towards him and sat on the bed beside him. He moved towards her and tucked a lose strand of her hair behind her ear and she closed her feeling the same sensation run inside her body which she felt whenever he touched her. Then she opened her eyes to look at him again but he was not there only the wind which was playing with her hair. She shook her head in disbelief and went towards the bathroom. She opened the tap and though "I am hallucinating now?" then she splashed water on her face and as she opened her eyes she saw his reflection in the mirror as if he was standing right behind her. She didn't dare blink scared that he might vanish again and he gave her a flying kiss. She smiled at him and he smiled back at her and then he was gone. She shook her head once again and hit herself on the head turning around to find him sitting on the window of her bathroom. His arms crossed upon his chest and his intense gaze once again playing havoc on her mind. He gestured her telling her that she looked beautiful and she bushed and lowered her gaze but when she looked up again he was nowhere.

She went towards the window and looked outside there was no one. She questioned herself "what is happening to me? Why does his name bring a smile on face? Why does his pain cuts through my heart? Why does my heart skip a beat when he is with me? Why do I forget the world when I look at him? Why does I trust no one like I trust him?" she closed her eyes and thought "am I in love with swayam?" and then she could feel someone's breath against her cheek. She didn't dare open her eyes scared that it will ruin the moment and then felt his presence once again and opened her eyes saying "yes i do love him"

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