PART 1
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Nafrato Me Mili Tu Mujhe Iss Tarah...
Dil Ye Sabhal Na Saka...
"Aaah!" He groaned loudly clutching his head frustratingly.
"No...No...You can't be affected by her tears. NO Dam It!"
Picking up flower vase he flunked it towards wall breaking it into pieces.
The images of her crumbled on road crying hysterically cursing him were making him restless.
From the time he came back from Mukherji Mansion he wasn't at peace. His mind kept him reminding of her state that was because of him.
He was responsible for her state. Instead of feeling happy over his success of finally breaking her spirit, her courage the feeling overpowering his senses was of guilt. He was feeling guilty.
The great Arjun Rawte who had stopped feeling anything except sheer hatred after losing his best friend because of his so-called family, after years was feeling something. For a mere girl who was his target whom he was using for taking revenge from those who were reason of his agony.
He was like burning fire who knew only one thing...that is TO BURN... burn everything coming in your way until you consume it or it consumes you!
After Roshni he was only breathing for making Karan and his bade papa's life hell.
He wanted them on their knees, defeated, helpless, the way he was in past without any fault. Only mistake he did that he loved someone extremely. He loved her so much that he forgot difference between right and wrong.
He loved her so much that he became blind in his anger to hurt an innocent life. He dragged someone who had nothing to do with this and punished her for others deeds.
"You wanted this Arjun. Now you cannot back out." His mind reasoned.
"But she is not at fault, why you are making her suffer?" His heart asked.
"I was also not at fault also, still I suffered and I'm still." His mind said.
"That does not mean you will punish others for it." His heart said to him.
"STOP! Just stop it!" He screamed loudly.
"I know by doing all this to her I'm not going to get my happiness back but I'll get peace. Peace that's what I want for my restless heart."
His voice boomed in empty apartment that belongs to him. No one was there to hear his voice.
Picking up bottle from drink counter he drank whole bottle in a one stroke to stop sound of her cries ringing in his ears, the images of her lifeless, pale face, her accusing eyes haunting him and the battle his mind and his still sane heart was having at the moment.
He drank and drank until his mind went black and he could feel nothing but the numbness, only numbness clouding his senses.
His eyelids felt too heavy to keep open. Still he was trying to keep them open. He picked his 5th bottle to finish by trembling hand. The alcohol had affected his system leading him to drowsiness, before it could reach his lips he collapsed on floor with the bottle breaking into pieces besides his unconscious body.
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Edited by muktai - 9 years ago
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