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I've never done this before or felt this way before. Anuj represents ideal masculinity to me and I know to all of us. But what the writing and Gaurav's portrayal (and of course his sexiness, good looks and innate charm) have done in this show is made tangible, made "sakshaat" a hazy idea of positive masculinity, love and romance that I had in my head. Never before has any portrayal of masculinity and romance (ITV, Bollywood, Hollywood, Anywood) transported me with its narrative engagement and sheer beauty. Of course Rupali is amazing and together they are truly MaAn - respectful, beautiful, enduring love. So here is my first attempt at FF.
"Sexy Bholuram"
"Sexy Bholuram"
Anu smiled to herself as she sat at the picture window. When she had mistakenly said her nickname for Anuj (Bholuram) aloud in Devika's presence, Devika had laughed and hugged her tightly
"muhje pata tha. tu ek na ek din uska pyar samjhegi aur khud bhi..."
"arre nahi nahi, devika, aisa kuch nahi hai"
"acha madame, ab devika se jhooth? apna chehra toh dekh - tamatar ki tarah laal ho raha hai. aur tera bholuram buddhu toh hai per bada sexy hai. yaar. Tera SEXY BHOLURAM"
"Devika, bas kar ne"
As she recalled that exchange she looked out at the calm sea. She, Anupama, was headed for a gala tonight at the the Taj Palace hotel in Bombay which Anuj's company had thrown to celebrate his being named among the 100 most influential people list of TIME magazine.
This was perhaps the best day of Anuj's life and he wanted to share it with HER. She had come a long way over the past year since Anuj had entered her life and changed it forever.
She looked at herself in the mirror and realized that she felt beautiful - inside and out - because of one man, who had helped her recognize her talent, goodness, and beauty. He had never asked her to change one thing and yet here she was - transformed with the power of true love and respect that she had been showered with.
She was wearing a black lace sari with subtle twinkling "makesh" work and with a sleeveless black silk blouse cut deep in the back. This together with the blue-grey smoky eyes, subtle make-up, her signature choker (pearls, diamonds and a deep blue stone), diamond studs in her ears and the LOVE she gave and received made her feel sexy for the first time in her life. She twirled in front of the mirror and wondered if this was too much. The saree was sheer, her bellybutton visible, her back exposed due to the chic high chignon she had tied her hair into. She had decided against a bindi today. She FELT bold, sexy and beautiful. She wanted to see that reflected in his eyes too.
Anu to herself " Yeh zyaada ho gaya kya? Main ek maa hoon, koi teenager nahi aur...". But she shushed the usual litany in her head and remembered Devika's words "Anu, tu, main, hum jaisi hazaaron auratein kya individuals nahi hain? Khud se pyaar kar Anu, Anuj ke pyaar pe vishwas kar, thoda jee le meri jaan"
She was just putting the last touches to her look when the doorbell of her hotel suite rang.
Her heart sang and the funny feeling in the pit of her stomach gave her a sensual shock. TODAY was the day!
As she opened the door, Anuj looked at her for a long moment but barely acknowledged her. But Anu couldn't take her eyes off him. He was also in all black - a black shirt open at the collar, and a bespoke black suit. He always looked dashing but today was just...ufff...SEXXXY.
Anu to herself "But Kanhaji aaj thoda mere bholuram ka bholapun kam kar dejo ne"
"Chalien Anu?"
"H.. ha.. haan chaliye"
She was non-plussed. All this effort she had made and Anuj barely noticed her. Where was the "taadna", sexy smile, flirting and then that super-cute embarrassed adjusting of his specks that had become their routine even when she dressed up a little bit. And here she was thinking of herself as one sexy goddess.
Anu in her head: "Anu, thoda kabu meh reh ne... aur aaj Anuj ke liye kitna bada din hai. Theek hai, bahot bahot bahot busy honge"
So she put on her radiant smile and they started to walk out of the opulent suite.
Meanwhile Anuj thinking "Yeh meri Anu hai? Aaj toh main isko ek pal se bhi zyaada dekhoonga toh pata nahi kya keh doonga... ya kya kar doonga" "Kahin Anu ko bura toh nahi laga ki maine compliment bhi nahi diya?"
Anu decided to take the bull by the horns. "Anuj aap toh kya lag rahein ne aaj? Aaj main aapse keh hi dena chahti hoon he main aap se bahot p..." And she looked at him soulfully.
Anuj, his heart in his throat: " Haan Anu bolo na"
" Bol doon?
"Haan, please, please"
"Bol doon?"
Anuj, beyond words, just pleaded with his eyes
"Prabhavit hoon" And she burst out laughing.
Anuj felt an irrational anger, turned on his heels without a word and stalked to the door.
"Arre Anuj, kya hua? Surru surrry surry. Main aapko satana nahi chahti"
"Nahin Anu, I'm sorry. I don't know what happened to me. I'm sorry. Let's go" And a brief apologetic smile.
Anu, a little suprised and upset, tried to lighten the situation.
"Anuj, sahi mein ne, aap aaj jabardast lag rahein hain. Saari ladkiyon se bach kar rahiye ga, nahi toh main bachane aa jaaongi. Aaj main aapki ...woh kya kehtein hain...body..er bodyguard hoon. Chalega?"
Anuj was gobsmacked at her playfulness, her haq jataana. In his mind "Kya Anu bhi. finally ready ...?Bol do Anu Bol do please please please ek baar."
He knew that she loved him. And he knew that she knew that he knew.
But this game of flirting, looka chuppi, while great fun, he wanted to go beyond it. He NEEDED to hear the words, he needed it like a parched man in a desert needs water. Emboldened by her banter, her clear hints and just the magic of the night, Anuj decided to push the envelope.
They were still in the hotel corridor right outside the suite. He turned to her and kind of trapped her between the wall and himself.
"Acha Anupamaji, aur aapka bodygurad kaun hai aaj. Aaj toh sirf main aur sirf main tumhe dekhna ka haq chahta hoon. Wahan per kitne bande aayeingein. Kin kin se ladoonga main?"
Anupama turned beetroot red ""Anuj aap, main Anuj ... main, main maa aur..."
"Anu bas, pata hai. Per tum maa etc. se badhke bhi bahut kuch ho.. You are a woman first and you are the most beautiful woman in the world, you take my breath away"
Anu, looked down, feeling sexy, sensual ,shy and irresistibly attracted, all at the same time. But TODAY was the day. She would not let anything, not even herself stop her from saying and doing what she had wanted to for eons now.
"Mujhe laga aaj kuch zyaada ho gaya. Mujhe laga aapko mere aise dress hona accha nahi laga"
"Anu tum..."
She looked up then and all words died in him: her eyes were wet from the love and light in her heart and soul.
"Anuj, aaj aapke liye bahot bada din hai, Main iski importance samajhti hoon. Lekin aaj mere liye bhi bahot bahot bada din hai. Aaj aapko saari duniya us nazar se dekhegi, us tarah se nawaaze gi jaise main karti hoon"
"Anu... tumhari aakon mein yeh..."
"Nahin Anuj, yeh aasoon nahi hai, yeh mera aap per guroor aur pyar dil se jhalak ker aankhon mein aa gaya hai"
"Anu.... Anu...Kya kaha Anu"
"Haan Anuj, main aap se aur sirf aap se mohabbat karti hoon. Pyar toh bahoton se karte hain hum jindagi main per mohabbat mujhe aap se milne ke baad samajh aaya ki kya hoti hai. Anuj main aaj keh dena chahti hoon ke main aap se mohabbat karti hoon. Aur aap sirf aur sirf mere hain".
Anuj, barely believing his eyes and ears, raised his hand as if in a trance. He didn't even realize when his hand went up to her face, her lips, her eyes. Anu, also trance-like gazed at his beloved face and put her hand on his face. As Anu's hand touched his lips, he was jolted out of his trance. There was no needs for words anymore. Wordlessly, like flies to a flame, and now acutely aware of each other, they continued tracing each other's faces with wonderment and adoration. All the awkwardness melted away. Only the two of them existed in this universe. Seamlessly they gravitated toward each other in a tight embrace. A wordless embrace that lasted for an infinity or was it just a minute. Becoz Anu felt a rush of cold air as Anuj moved away from her. But before she could say anything (not that she was capable of any coherent thought, other than I love you Anuj, I love you Anuj), he led her back to the room, closed the door and brought his lips down to hers for a real kiss. Anuj kissed the woman he had loved all his life and Anu kissed back the man who had shown her what love between a man and woman was, what it could do and how precious it was.
Please leave comments and accordingly will figure if TBC or not.
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