The air was being pushed out of her lungs , which were collapsing ..she could not breath ...she did not want to breathe any longer...
It seemed her life held no meaning ...the nine years with them ..the fifteen years after them..she had done nothing , but ensured they were annihilated ..
The mandap where she had just completed her saat pheras, to be anointed legally and in the eyes of the society as a married woman, seemed spinning around her eyes .
She felt like the lowest scum on the planet .
How could she ...first she was responsible for their lives being cut so cruelly short and now she had even insulted their memory ...
She could see Daadu's eyes again turning icy ..it had taken years for her to melt them..
She saw tears falling from Mansi Chachi's eyes ..Kanta Chachi looked as if she was made of stone ..
Jeevan Chachu was sitting there ...absolutely blank ..with a haunted look in his eyes ...
And PD ... PD was buckling down ...
PD ..she screamed ...as she tried reaching the prostrate almost life less body of her great grand mother...
They came to the hospital.
Mehak saw Kaurna Khanna first . She had come to love Karuna , like her own mother . But today she felt betrayed by Karuna.
Mehak wanted to rage against her, to rant , to vent ..but could not ... for she looked already , broken and defeated ...the creases on her forehead and around her lips were like cracks that appear on land that has not received for many years the soothing bounty of rain , to rejuvenate it ...
Her eyes showed the tiredness that comes with carrying weight for years ...and then when inspite of one's best efforts ..it still crashes over ..creating the most ugly mess all over.
Mehak's eyes travelled to him...His face was ... Impassive. His eyes inscrutable.
Their eyes met ,his remained blank ..hers blazed at first and then they dimmed ,as tears and hundreds of questions filled them.
His eyes travelled to her hands . They were again full of the Chooda .The red and white bangles that gave him the assurance that she was his ... that fact was the reason he was still breathing.
He had staggered a little bit as Mami had tagged him a killer ...he would have fought that ..but Nani his own Nani had agreed to the fact ..he was driving the car that night ..yes ..he knew that ...but Ma said all was ok .
He had killed two human beings , who were the parents of the person he loved the most .
Was he the most doomed person on this earth ??...what had he done that night many years ago?? ... but Ma said all was ok...
He still remembered the exhilaration he felt sitting behind the wheels of that car ..it really made him feel that he was in control of his life ..he could break free of the misery ..that his short life had known so far ..
How could he have gone so out of control...how could he have wreaked havoc in somebody else's life ...
He did not remember the details ..his head was aching badly ..his eyes heavy ...those memories always brought the same feeling, the same ache he felt that day ... ...yet he clearly remembered he was frightened ..sitting in the car ...Nani's voice telling them all it will be ok ..they just needed to get out of there ..his peering through the window ...Nani forbidding him ... asking him to move away
And then Ma had come ..and she said all was ok...
There was an eerie silence in the room . the Sharma's had withdrawn in a shell. They were painfully aware that the "culrprits " were now their relatives . The murderer was their "son-in-law"
They were avoiding saying something , less the vitriol boiling in their hearts might cause a damage that they might regret later .
The Khanna's found it difficult to speak. They could not come up with anything that would not sound shallow or sufficient of an excuse for their "deeds"
He saw Mahek gesturing him outside , the private room . They were lucky they were in Gurgaon ..full of world class hospitals.
He had wanted nothing but the best for PD ..and had insisted on coming to this one ..hardly 10 mins on NH-8 from Leela.
It was the fact that he knew the right strings to pull , ensured , that he had the private room even while PD was in the ICU
They moved out to the waiting lobby , which was mpore or less vacant at this time of the night ... except for few snoozing relatives on inpatients scattered few and far between.
She started without preamble "I think you and M.. , I mean your mother , should go home now .". Her voice sounded hollow.
PD is in ICU , no point in crowding here now ...and you should surrender this room ... We do not need it "
We are going home , only Ravi Chachu and Mohit will stay here "
She turned to leave
And ohh..BTW you may want to talk to your lawyer ...I am going to file a FIR against you tomorrow."
Where are you going to stay tonight ...Mehak ?
He asked quietly .. completely ignoring her last line .
She stiffened .."my home ofcourse ..."
"You mean our home ...in Vasant Kunj ??"
" you know Shaurya ... I still cannot figure out ..should I admire the audacity you have , be surprised by your arrogance and insensitivity or should I just cry over my misfortune of coming across you in my life "
"Why did you not remain hidden in the hole you always were ..why did you come out to bite me and my family and my whole life ..have you not snatched away enough from me "
Her pitch was increasing ...so was the hatred in her eyes ... the tears were now rolling down freely ..she brushed them away with impatience ...
But you know what enough is enough ... I see through you finally ..I must have been the ticket to your freedom ... you made me betray the memory of my parents ..just so that you could go unpunished ..just when I think I have seen the bottom of how low you can go , you prove me wrong ..
I thought you were a successful businessman you turned out to be a petty con-man , I thought you were going to be the love of my life you turned out to be the bane of my life ..reponsibe for snuffing the life out my parents ...
Probably I desrve it ... I should have known better , whenever you have come after me ..it is for a hidden motive ...the deeper the motive ...the more hidden your agenda ...the higher you raise the stakes ...this time you actually paid me 150 crores ..eh...the price for your freedom... and your image ...
How could you ..what kind of a creature you are ...who can sleep with blood on his hands ...
I feel disgusted with my self .. I allowed those hands to touch me ...chee"
She was sobbing uncontrollably by now.
He shoved his hands in his pockets
"Mrs Mehak Khanna ...you are coming with me to Vasant Kunj ... otherwise remember My lawyers tomorrow will be working on two things ...one is my anticipatory bail and two is a case against your Kanta Chachi for conning me in signing my property in your name .. promising me your hand ...and then backing out... You refusing to settle down in matrimony with me .
Remember you made me put a clause , that this property can never be transferred in mine or any other family member of mine's name "
"You cannot do this Shaurya " She looked at him wide eyed ..her disgust had been surpassed by her astonishment ..
"You fully well know baby ".. he moved close to her ..tracing her lips with his fingers ..."what I can or cannot do ...the beast in me just always below a very thin skin ...ready to break out "
Remember when you had bought your baraat to my doorstep forcefully ... you know darling ...I never keep any favours due...
it is my turn to return the compliment...
Go and talk to your .. no sorry ..our family ...tell them you are going to your sasuraal and don't worry darling, we will go to the police station tomorrow together ..so that you can file your F.I.R against me ... I promise"
Now sweetheart ... I need some fresh air...'
He strolled out casually .. unmindful of the dust storm raging outside
She collapsed on a nearby chair ...
She did not realize for how long she had been sitting there ...staring blankly at white wall in front of her ...
The ping of her phone ...broke her melancholic reverie..it was the muscle memory of her fingers , more than her brain ...that dictated her hands to check who it was ...
It was from KK.