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Hi Guys,
Just finished watching all the episodes. I really liked the story so far. And I could relate to so many things, for I was 8 years old in 1990. This serial has been a trip down the memory lane. There are so many things I want to share and write. Right now I want to talk about Sameer. I will talk about Naina too, and so many other things in future (hopefully!!!)
I can understand Sameer. I was that angry, confused kid then. My mom left my dad in 1992, when I was 10 years old because he was physically and emotionally abusive. It was big deal back then. We were in a small town with population of less than 30k. Everyone had a say in my mom's story. Everyone advised against her leaving her husband. She was supposed to adjust and compromise on her physical and emotional well being and that of her children because it is against society's norms. So, as much as I remember those days fondly, I also realize that as a woman, I am far better off today than 30 years back. Yes, there are things that need to change even now. But, it is still better than what it was. What they have shown of Naina and her situation is true, sometimes even worse.
Anyways, I am going in a different tangent. Back to Sameer.
He is angry at world, and with his mother. I was too, for a long time. We really do not know what is going on with his mom and step father. He might be abusing her emotionally. He is her second husband and that is itself a big deal back then. It is easy to manipulate such a woman who has no where else to go. But, as much as I can understand her dilemma, it is not right for her not understand her first son. She does not understand him and love him the way he wants her to.
Parents are our first super heroes. They are our protectors, care givers, our safety net. Sameer has lost his father. All he has is his mother who should give me that emotional bond, support and protection. He does not know why his mother wont love him. He thought if he does as well as his half brother does in school, she will love him again. All his efforts was wasted and he faced humiliation as a thief in front of his mother. Surely she will not love him again. Again and again he is faces with the thought that he is not loved by own mother. Right now he is lost. He is drowning in self hatred. Surely there is something wrong with him because even his mother does not love him. He does not hate the world, he hates himself. He agrees with the world who thinks he is a bad person.
I felt abandoned too, because my mom was not available for me. As a single parent she was working full time to put food on the table. But try telling that to a 10 year old kid.
It will take lot of effort and will to come out of this state of mind. Not sure how much we will see on screen. But trust me, it is very difficult for such a person to accept that he is someone worthy of love, that the person who loves him will not leave him in the middle, to gain self worth and be confident in your self. Some experiences imprints on your mind and have a huge impact on your life.
And why did he not stay back with Naina after yesterday's confrontation? Because he does not believe in himself, that he just a kid who made a mistake. He believes himself to be unworthy of any kind of love and thus there is no redemption for him. So why try?
But he will come around and he will turn his life around. Because I did and because it is a serial and if this does not happen, they will lose viewers😃..
Love
Kshithi
PS: The whole raksha bandhan sequence is true... We did plan to tie rakhis to the most notorious and naughty boys. Once I tied rakhi to my classmate and he was really sweet. He gave me 50 paisa. Trust me, we could buy lot of things for half a rupee in those days.
PPS: My first crush was when I was in 7th std. His name was Srihari. I got his name for secret santa and I was floating on the clouds for a long time. When I got to know he had got my name, I was in heaven. 😆
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Part 3: Page 5
Part 4: Page 7
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