Chapter-6
Feelings
Time heals wounds to some extent and she felt the same. Everyone was suddenly extra careful with her. Her father even took her to a psychiatrist and she felt really good to vent out those frustrations she had. The way the middle aged woman encouraged her it felt nice even though she was paid to do it. Her mother was soft on her trying to make things more easy for her. Akka spent more time trying to cheer her up. Noone tried to remind her regarding her outburst.
Since school was over for that year she really didn’t meet raman for some days and when they finally met at dominos it was awkward. All 7 of them were there. He had tried 2 or 3 times to initiate a conversation but she didn’t pick/reply. It drove him crazy to get used to the fact that she ignored him. On weekends he kept glancing towards the gallery in front of the playground hoping she will magically appear.
“dude, finally I feel like I’m living” ashok took a slice of his Margaretta.
“swear to god it felt like by the time boards will come I will forget everything” mani said and everyone laughed.
He quickly glanced at her, she sat in front opposite side of table facing him. She looked pretty even though her eyes didn’t have any kohl or lips didn’t had any lipstick. It looked like she was all the time studying and forgot to care how she used to look. When she smiled his heart skipped a bit, the first thought that came to his mind may be she will never look at him like this anymore.
“raman, we all are also here” chitra nudged him.
“you’re ogling at her for quite sometime and it’s visible to everyone. Just informing ” Shagun said with her don’t care smug attitude.
He quickly looked down. When they came out he still followed her hoping to have a conversation. He walked slow and his eyes were fixated on her walking form from the back.
Even though she walked ahead she could feel his gaze on her. She turned around and as usual he took a step back from the sudden move.
“want to say something ?” she asked.
“yes… how are you ?” this is the only thing he could ask
“you can see” she said and turned to walk.
“I didn’t mean those words that day.. I’m sorry” he said
She stopped in her tracks and asked “that’s all?”
“as of now ..yeah” he replied
She didn’t say further so he matched her speed and came in front stopping her from walking and asked “what??”
“apology will not take anywhere . it’s like everything is just vague… you still don’t know what you feel about me” she said as her voice cracked and the last about me was a mere whisper.
“i thought you were over me ??” his voice was firm. He only guessed because of her independence.
She didn’t say anything and walked away. Why the hell he can’t for once say Ishita I missed you or something. It keeps happening in movies all the time why not here she thought to herself.
She was seriously frustrated with his slow pace. He stared at her, checked about her with mani or subbu, walked by her side silently (before fight) but won't really come ahead and say hey i like you or something.
The next week they had farewell ceremony. All the boys were dresses formally in a 3 piece and girls in saree.
He wore a white shirt and dark grey blazer and pants with formal black shoe. She wore a sea green coloured saree with a golden border. The blouse was sleeveless and had rectangular cut on back with 3 hooks. To match her look she had a beautiful little heavy golden earrings that danced every time she moved her head. She lookedd ethereal with her open straight hair.
He was smitten, he took quick glances at her standing with in 5 feet with her. There were other girls who looked absolutely pretty but he has his eyes fixated on ishita and he could literally see how many were staring at her.
During the speech giving ceremony she sat with their group of 7 and he purposely sat by her but on the other side someone else ( a guy) was seated. The more she chatted with the other guy the more he felt the building anger with in him. She smiled at the other guy looking something in his phone and it felt like someone just started a fore with in him.
It was time for photo session. Almost 10 guys have already taken pictures with her and there was a line kind of. The case was same for all the girls who looked gorgeous. There were juniors even few others with whom he took pictures formally/politely They had taken their group photo of whole class. Just before the next guy could put his arms around her shoulder he dragged her and made her stand between him and Subbu. The 7 of them were taking group pictures finally even though they had to drag shagun ishita.
They were in the back standing as the photographer asked them to adjust. He was right by her side as his chest touched her back. She whispered to him meeting his eye for a second. “what was that?”
“what” his voice itself said he was mad still he lowered his face a little to hear.
She looked at him again for clarity with a crease on her forehead as they moved positions. He was stuck to her side. They were in center this time.
“stop taking picture with random people. They were all hovering around you .” he said with a hint of his irritation or may be jealousy.
“not random.. I know few of them and few others know me. It's final year... ” She tried to explain as she looked at him intensely forgetting that they are in the middle of a photo shoot.
He met her eyes “but I don’t know any of them” his voice was firm and as if he hold an authority over her. May be he meant you are not allowed because I don’t like it/i don't like it.
“look at the camera” the camera guy said it for the sake of saying as he looked in the lens and glance at the 7 of them realizing how good it looked as among 7 the two people in center stared intensely towards each other.
She didn’t know if her cheeks turned pink as the camera made a sound of clicking a picture.
Extra :
“this is the first time you’ve a straight hair.. it looks good” mani said to shagun.
“how thoughtful of you to notice except ishita’s.” she mocked
“are you obsessed with both ishu and me or something ?” he said as it was really out of his understanding
“well it’s clear as day you’ve a crush on her.” She said this time casually.
“how does it matter to you…. Wait you like me or has a crush on me or her ?” he said like a question.
“really “ she was mad… he mouthed a sorry with a smile.
“not based on your looks but I think you have a very good future and you are quite organized .. so” she looked towards the opposite direction to avoid his reaction or meeting his gaze after her half confession.
“ohhhh…what?.... ??” mani laughed heartily as his mouth formed an o with shock.
She hit him with her purse with a glare before walking away. He stopped laughing at her when she galred and followed her saying “you’re joking … right ?”
Note : i am sorry for being late. I have some online training going on and i was busy watching netflix before the subscription ends. 😅
Hopefully you all are doing well.
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Edited by DivAn_159 - 5 years ago
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