OS : Main Ishitha, sirf Ishitha - updated part 22 on pg 43 21.11 - Page 21

Raman : wo sab chahthe hain ki theek ho jao.

Ishitha : aur app. Aap kya chahthe hain.

Raman blurts out : main bhi chahta hoon ki tum theek hojaao. Par theek hone ke baad tum chali gayi to main kya karoonga.

Ishitha is taken aback with that answer.

Part 17

Raman and Ishitha hold each others glance and try to searchfor an assurance of the future that is ahead of them. Raman to lighten thesituation

Raman : Madrasan, tum theek ho jaoogi.. magarmach se bhibach chooki ho. To ye kya cheez hain.

Ishitha and chuckles and says : kuch bhi chalega. Simplesa.. inn tablets ki wajah se bahot heavy feel ho raha hain.

Raman : heavy feel ho raha hain? heavy ho tum.. motikahiki.. akele rahti ho.. koi kamnahin.. phailthi ja rahee ho.

Ishitha pouts and gives him a whack on his arm and movesahead.

Days pass by and Raman is taking care of Ishitha. Slowlyeven ishitha is feeling better but she is not making any move to go closer toanybody. One day Pihu and Ruhi come up.

Raman : arrey!! Kya baath hain. aaj mere dono pari yahaan.

Ruhi : agar hum aapke pari hote to aap hume akele chodke yahaan.

Raman and ishitha are shocked to listen to this

Raman ; nahin bacche. Aise kyu bol rahe ho.

Ruhi : aur nahin to kya papa.. hume bhi aap dono ki zaroorathain. pihu ka homework, mera office itna mushkil hain sab kuch handle karna..haan ghar mein aur log hain par aapka aur ishima ka hona alag hain.

Ishitha has tears in her eyes..

Raman : ruhi, pihu hamesha ishima ne hum sab ka khyaal rakhahain. humne unhein forgranted le liya tha na. par ab main ishima ko theek karnachahthe hoon.

Ruhi : papa hum bhi ishima ko theek dekhna chahthe hain. parhum aapse door bhi nahi reh sakthe. Please hum bhi yahin rahenge. Please papa..please

Raman hugs both of them and looks at ishitha. She has tearsin her eyes and nods her head.

Raman : achcha chalo theek hain. tum dono bhi apna samaanlao.

Once they go down to pack happily. Raman looks at ishithaand says : Madrasan, ye mera idea nahin tha.. chado math mujpe..

Ishitha laughs and says : nahin, main kuch nahin boloongi.

Raman : tho madam.. mere saath ek hi room mein rahogi. Sochlo couch bhi nahin hain. Ruhi aur pihu ek kamra le legi. Aur phir nirvaan bhiguest room mein rehtha hain.

Ishitha blushes and says : haan reh loongi.

Raman smiles and goes down to bhalla house to help pihu andruhi pack. As he enters he hears the entire family congratulating each other.

Raman : kya huwa bhai.. kis baath ki badaai ho rahi hain.

He sees everyone laughing and : hey bhagwan!! Ye sab plantha?

Nirvaan : haan uncle, humne socha treatment mein kuch impactlaathe hain. ab amma pihu aur ruhi ka kaam karegi.. to thodi jud jaayegi. Aurmein bhi rahoonga to aap dono ko ek kamre mein rehna padega. Abhi se keh detahoon.. I need a big treat for all this..

Raman hugs nirvaan and says : thank you so much..

Nirvaan : uncle, meri amma mere liye bahut precious hain. wokush rahe bas..

Raman : haan, bas wo kush rahe to hum sab kush rahenge..

An hour later he goes up to spot ishitha cooking for all ofthem. He was happy that she is slowly getting occupied and she will be able to forget her worries. This will help inthe treatment.

Slowly, ishitha is back to being the ishima that she was.She used to get up in the morning. Make breakfast and lunch pack their food.She used to ensure all the projects and home work is completed. She wasensuring Ramans clothes were ready.

Slowly, even Adi used to come up with Aliya and they woulddiscuss small things. Romi and Mihika also came up with Samyukth. They wouldask her about vaccinations and other things. They were slowly getting Ishithainvolved in everything.

It was the day of her monthly check up. Raman was veryscared to even take her. He was hoping she will get alright.

They went to the clinic and were waiting holding each othershands.

Ishitha : Raman , main bilkul theek hoon. Infact kuch dinonse aaram se so bhi rahi hoon. Aapne dekha na neend bhi achi se puri karthihoon. App chintha math karo meri.. sab theek ho jayega.

Raman : main apne aapko kabhi maaf nahi kar paoongamadrasan. Gussa hone ki wajah theek tha par hamesha iss rishthe main tumne sabkuch saha hain. mere past ki wajah se, mere gusse ki wajah se.. I just hope ki tumtheek ho jao.

Ishitha presses his hand to assure him.

They are called in and Rajeev is happy to see them comingtogether.

Rajeev : ishitha tumhare reports aur counselor ke reports aagaye hain. kaafi improvement hain. main tumhare tablets ke dosage reduce karraha hoon. Par main chahtha hoon ki tum aur koshish karo. Tumhe kush rehna hainishitha. Past ko bhoolna hoga. Tumhe present mein rehna hain. Tumhe bacchon kebaare mein sochna hoga..they are craving for your attention.

Ishitha : samaj sakthi hoon Rajeev. Par jab bhi aage badneki sochthi hoon tab dil gabra jaatha hain. darr lagtha hain. mein phir se sabkuch khona nahi chathi. Agar khona hi hain to main kuch waapis paana hi nahinchahthi hoon.

Raman is shocked at her answer. He holds her hands she justgives a blank look to him.

Rajeev : ishitha, leap of faith ke baare mein suna hain naa.Tumhe wo lena hai baba. Iska aur koisolution nahin hain ishita. Tumhari family ne poori koshish ki hai ki tum theekho jao. Bas yehi kahoonga ki sab bhool jao aur aage bado.

Ishitha nods her head and they both leave after buying themedicines.

Raman is driving the car . He is very disturbed with Ishitha’stalk. She is scared of history repeating itself. She was scared to come back asshe does not want to be blamed again. She is scared of being thrown out again. Hefeels miserable that as a husband he could not make his wife feel secured inhis love, in his home. The feeling of having a home, having children, being awife. Yes he loves her but has never proved his love to her and to the world.

He is lost, he wants her to understand and feel that she ishis world. But he is not sure how to go about it.

Lost in thoughts he drives and they reach home. As ishitha is getting down, Raman holds herwrists. His eyes are downcasted and she can feel that he is about to cry. She quicklysits back in the car and holds his face. He hugs her tightly and she is shocked.She holds him back and says : Raman, kya huwa? Kya ho gaya ? aise ro kyun raheho aap. Please tell me baba. Kya huwa? Kahi lag gayi kya. Kahi dard ho gaya?

Raman takes her hand and keeps it near his heart and says :yahan ishitha, yahan dard ho raha hain.

Awesome update

Glad raman told her the truth and opened up

Continue soon

A beautiful update!!! Ishita was recovering with the love of Raman but she's still indecisive...Ruhi and Pihu starts living with IshRa to uplift the mood of Ishita, it propelled to an extent in Ishita becoming an Ishima..

Thought Raman is obdurate to heal her Madrasan but he is petrified about her well being... Ishita's reports improved considerably but her wounds are still suppurating...

"Once bitten, twice shy" and it happened innumerable times in their lives..Loved the way you showcased the vulnerability of Ishita instead of her Jagat Mata manifestation...

Raman is affected by Ishita's confession... Realization hit him hard, perhaps he took her granted way too many times and now their relationship is in a precarious situation but yes this time he wants to make things right for themselves...

Thank you all for the reviews.

am planning to finish it in 2 more parts.

Originally posted by: varunike

Thank you all for the reviews.

am planning to finish it in 2 more parts.

It's sad to see this story go 😢... One of those stories, I loved the most and extremely close to my heart 👏👏👏... Haven't seen many gripping works on the post 8 months leap..I fell for the way you showcased Ishita in this fiction.. She just wanted to be Ishita, not an Iyer/Bhalla in resonance with your title...

She was vulnerable, scared and exposed without a facade of Jagat Mata..Most importantly, she was hesitant to become a mother to her children again.. She was consumed in the pain inflicted upon by her loved ones... Especially, the fervidness in your narration coupled with the depth of emotions portrayed in the first 6-7 chapters was overwhelming 😭😭😭

In the later parts, Raman realized his mistakes, he was right to a considerable extent in venting out his grief...He wanted to set the things right for themselves and for their love..

It's long you updated this story continue it waiting for it

Please update ur story dear 😊😊😊😊

Lost in thoughts he drives and they reach home. As ishitha is getting down, Raman holds herwrists. His eyes are downcasted and she can feel that he is about to cry. Shequickly sits back in the car and holds his face. He hugs her tightly and she isshocked. She holds him back and says : Raman, kya huwa? Kya ho gaya ? aise rokyun rahe ho aap. Please tell me baba. Kya huwa? Kahi lag gayi kya. Kahi dardho gaya?

Raman takes her hand and keeps it near his heart and says :yahan ishitha, yahan dard ho raha hain.

Part 18

Ishitha is dumstruck with his words. She tries to pull outher hand but he is holding it firmly near his heart and not letting her go.

He is searching for some hope in her eyes. He wants toassure her of his love. He wants her back. He just wants her.. period.

Ishitha : Raman,kya bol rahe ho aap. Ghar chaliye. Baatkarenge.

Raman : haan ishitha, muje ghar jaana hain. mujhe ghar lechalo.

Ishitha is not able to understand what is in his mind. Sheslowly moves to hold his face and cradles it in his hand. She says : chaliye,Raman.. upar chalthe hain aur phir baath karthe hain.

She slowly takes him home and gives him a glass of water todrink. He takes the glass from one hand but holds Ishitha’s hand firmly. Hedrinks the water but is looking into Ishitha’s eyes searching for some hope.Ishitha has no idea what he wants. She decides to talk to him.

Ishitha : Raman, kya huwa? Kab se dekh rahi hoon. Aap pareshannazar aa rahe hain.. kuch to baat hain. bataiyiye mujhe.

Raman holds hers hand tightly and looks into her eyes withall sincerity and says : Ishitha, aisa kya karoon main ki tum mere pyaar parbarosa kar paogi aur dobara mere paas waapis aa jaogi. Main aisa kya karoontumhe yakin dhilane ke liye ki tum meri duniya ho! Kya karoon main tume yeyakin dilane ke liye ki main mar raha hoon tumhare bagair. Tumse bahut pyaarkartha hoon main aur … kya karoon main ishitha tumhari ye insecurity door karneke liye.. main batha nahin paa raha hoon ki tum mere liye kya ho! Main tumekhona nahin chahtha ishitha.. tumhari baatein sunkar darr lag raha hain !! maintumhain jaane nahin de saktha.. I want you.. you are my life ishihta..

Raman :: jab tum Rajeev se apne darr ke baare mein bata rahithi tab mein tut gaya Ishitha.. kaisa pati hoon main.. meri patni jo meri jaanhain usse lagtha hain ki uske paas ghar nahin hain. usse ye darr lagtha hain kikabhi bhi use ghar se nikal diya jaayega. Usse ye lagtha hain ki vo akeli hain.anaath hain. usse kaise bataon ki uske bagair poora ghar anaath ho jaatha hain.usse kaise bataon ki I need her.

Raman :: I love you ishitha, I need you ishitha, tumharibagair mera koi wajood nahin. Tum meri wajood ho, meri saans ho, tum mera gharho.. tumhe ghar se nikalna matlab khud beghar hona hain.

He breaks down crying and howling. Ishitha hugs him but hehugs her tightly and cries. She has a tough time consoling him. After some timehis crying comes down and he looks at her with all his love.

Ishitha :: Raman, please stop crying. Aap jaante hain mainaapko aise nahin dekh sakthi..

Raman :: to ye bhi jaanthi hogi ke main tumse pyaar kartha..mar jaoonga tumhare bagair.

Ishitha ::Raman, main sab samajthi hoon. Main jaanthi hoonki aap aur poora parivar ye chahtha hain ki main waapis aa jaon. Bachche bhiyahin chahthe hain. Sab mujse pyaar karthe hain.

Raman :: to phir problem kya hain. aa jao na Madrasan.

Ishitha :: Raman, main kaise kahoon. Main jaanthi hoon kiaap sab mujse pyaar karthe hain par mera darr jaa hi nahin raha. Jab bhi mainwaapis aane ke baare mein sochthi hoon ek darr sa laga rehtha hain .. ki agardobara ghar se nikal diya to main kya karoongi. Shayad seh nahin paaongi. Marr jaoongi mein.

Ishitha :: main bhi aap se pyaar karthi hoon Raman, aap jaanho meri. Bacchon ke bagair kaise jee rahi hoon ye sirf main jaanthi hoon. Par aaphi kahiye har baar sirf mujhe ghar se nikala jaatha hain. kuch bhi ho jaayeishitha ko dafaa ho jaana hain. Arre, sab ki galthi maaf ki jaathi hain parmeri galti ya nahi phir bhi muje bahaar jaana hain. iss baar to maine golichalaya tha. Par jab param ne mujhe harass kiye, main baahar gayi, jab nidhi newo sab kiya tab bhi main galath thi, jab rinky insecure thi tab bhi main galaththi.. kya Raman, kitna kuch ho gaya. Ye mera pyaar muja barbaad kar raha hain.meri self esteem ko thod raha hain. hamesha apne aap ko saabit karna padthahain, gidgidana padtha hain. hamesha ye ehsaas dilaya jaatha hain ki main baanjhoon, sauteli hoon, manhoos hoon. Tak chooki hoon Raman.. ab aur nahin.. mainkuch nahin kar paa rahi hoon. Apne aap ko sambhaal nahin paa rahi hoon. Apne aapko samjha nahin paa rahi hoon.

Ishitha :: main bhi bohat akeli hoon Raman..mujhe bhi pyaarchahiye.. aap sab ki pyaar. Par kar nahi paa rahi hoon. Kitni baar aayi hoonghar ke darwaze ke saamne par bell bhajane ki himmat nahi juta payi.

Raman wipes his tears , holds her hands tightly looks intoher eyes :: Ishitha, pyaar karti ho mujse? Do you still love me? Mere saathjeena chahthi ho?

Ishitha nods her head with tears in her eyes.

Roman also nods his head with a slight smile and lot ofhappiness in his eyes :: Ishitha, kuch math socho.. bas mere saath ghar chalo. Johoga dekha jayega.. agar waha nahin aana chahthi to hum dono kahin door chalthehain.

Ishitha:: Raman, ye aap kya keh rahen hain.. door kahanjaayenge? Sab log hain yahan

Raman :: par tum nahin ho na mere saath. Sab logon ki apniapni zindagi hain Ishitha, par hamari zindagi ka kya.main tumse door nahin rehsaktha. Agar tum ghar aana chahthi to hum kahin aur ghar basaa sathe hain. parmuje tumhare saath rehna hain. bus..

Ishitha does’nt know what to do.. she is in a fix.. Shelooks at his sincerity. Raman was ready to leave his parents, his kids,everything for her. She just wanted to hug him and believe in his words.Raman issearching for answers in her eyes.

Raman :: theek hain ishitha, ek kaam karthe hain. main aurbacche yahan shift ho jaate hain. waise to ladkiyaan already yahan hain. yetumhara ghar hain. yahan se tume koi nahi nikaal saktha.. haan, tum chahthi hoto hume nikaal sakthi hain. Ishitha gives a slight smile.

Ishitha :: nahin Raman, mera iraada ghr todna nahin hainRaman.

Raman :: jaanta hoon Ishitha. Saari baatein gusse mein boligayi.. main jaanta hoon or rather hum sab jaanthe hain ki tumhari wajah se yeghar ghar jaisa hain. tum kabhi iss ghar ko todogi nahin.. bas tum hi iss gharko jod ke rakh sakthi ho.

Raman :: jab se tum gayi ho sab zinda to hai par koi jeenahin raha hain. Wo madrasan ki lectures nahi mil rahi hai na.. wo oxygen hainghar ka.

Ishitha playfully hits his hand and Raman is happy that sheis smiling. He presses her hand and places a kiss on her forehead. A kiss afterso many months. A kiss that melted Ishitha. A kiss that made Raman alive again.

Ishitha hugs him on impulse and Raman hugs her back tightly.He doesn’t want to let her go this time. He wants her for himself. Ishithaslowly comes out of the hug and tells Raman :: theek hain, Raman. Main waapis aaoongi..par mein iss ghar ko bhi nahi chodungi. Kuch dinon tak mein dono jagah rahoongiand dheere dheere sochungi. Zyaada se zyaada waqt mein ghar mein rahoongi par jabmujhe akela rahna chahthi hoon main yahan aa jayaa karoongi.

Raman nods his head and agrees. :: to chalo, niche jaakemein bolke aata hoon. Ghar ki bahu ki swagat ki tayaariyan Karen.

Awesome and excellent update hope now Raman will slowly remove all Ishita insecurities continue soon

Originally posted by: varunike

Hi all,

i love reading the ss,os ff being published in this forum.. i find them more intense, realistic and entertaining than what is actually being shown.

planning to write my first os this week. This will be based on the current track which i am hating. Not planning a happy ending though..

Though i have stopped watching the serial but i do read reviews and other posts here.

i really felt bad when mrs. iyer also ignored ishitha.. they are showing all the wrong things. i dont know how to relate to this track..

i thought of finishing it one go but looks like i will keep it in 2 parts.

updating part 1.

I am not good at technology so might not have too much of frills. just posting part 1 below

Part 1

It has been 6 months since the birth of the baby and deathof Roshni.. Bhallas have taken the kid and thrown Ishitha out.

Ishitha now lives nearby . Her days begin with going toPihus School to meet her before school. Then she talks to Ruhi over the phoneand once in a while they manage to catch up for lunch. She is now a dedicated pediatric dentist and also goesto the orphanage in the evenings to spend time with children. She searches for Adiin every child.

The kids in the orphanage love Ishitha. They wait for 5 pmevery evening. Ishitha teaches them, plays with them and sometimes cooks forthem also. She makes Aloo Parathas as it is Ramans favourite, sooji ka halwa asit is Adi's favourite. Now it is the favourite dinner for the kids in theorphanage also. She spends the weekends also there telling them stories andcooking.

Though she is smiling for the children she is dead inside. Yesshe killed Adi but it was a spur of the moment. She saved another woman. Yesshe killed her son and how easy was it to throw her out.

The Bhalla house is happy with the little one. Toshiji ishappy that she is now pardadi and her Ghar ka Chirag is there. Ruhi and Pihuare each other's solace. These two angels miss their Ishima but Ishitha hasstrictly told them they can't leave bhalla house and come to her.

Simmi and Param are as usual playing dirty stupid games.Romi wants to adopt a child but everytime Simmi and Param play their cards andthe adoption process gets stalled. Raman is as usual busy with his business. Heonly talks to Ruhi and Pihu and plays with the kid when he is home. Aliya hasnow become the female version of old Raman who is a complete workaholic. She doesnot want to touch the kid.

The iyers have also boycotted ishitha. Kiran is in touchwith ishitha though. With all the happenings Shravan is slowly coming back ontrack. He has understood that Param has been using him. He is trying to mendhis ways.

It is a regular morning in Bhalla house where Raman is downfor his tea. Aliya is already ready to go to work and Ruhi is helping Pihu getready. Toshiji is busy with the kid.Romi is getting ready to get to work. Another typical morning but no one isaware of the shock that is going to happen. A pleasant one though.

The doorbell rings.

Raman Neelu dekh zara kaun hai'

Neelu opens the door and and is completely shocked to seeAdi standing there.

Neelu Adi Baba aap.. Mummyji, bhaiyyaji dekhiye

All of them come running out and is surprised to see Adistanding there shattered, battered with lot of bruises. He was not able tostand properly. He was supported by a few cops.

Toshiji Adi, mera bachha, mera jaan andhar aa jaa'

Raman and everyone is shocked to see Adi. They take a momentto gather themselves when the cops says

Cop Ye aapka beta hai? Ye highway par kisise darr ke bhagraha tha or humari patrolling team ke gadi ke samne aa gaya. Hum isse hospitalle jaana chahthe the but ye zidd kar rahe tha ki jaldi ghar pahunchna hain'.

Aliya was shocked to see Adi in front of her. She could notcomprehend the situation. Her husband who she thought was dead is come back andis standing in front of her.

Raman and Romi came running and held him and made him sit.

Raman Neelu jaldi se chai leke aa. Pehle ek glass paanilao koi.

Mihika comes running with the water

Raman Romi doctor ko phone kar. Jaldi..Adi beta tu aabait jaa. Tu kaha tha itne dino se Pure 15 mahine ho gaye.. kahaan tha tu'

Adi slowly looks at all of them. Aliya slowly walks towardshim not able to believe that he is actually standing in front of her. She hugshim tightly and cries her heart out. Adi is consoling her but crying himself.He is finally home amidst the ones he loves the most. He can see the happinessin his grandparents eyes. His romi chachu and miku chithi are patting him againand again. His dad can't believe this. Ruhi and pihu are just trying to gettheir chance to hug him.

The iyers have also come in hearing the commotion. They aresurprised to see Adi standing alive in front of them. But his eyes aresearching for his Ishima. He can't find her . His daadi runs to pull out thegarland from his photo and wants to light the lamp to thank Matarani.

He finds it strange that his Ishima has not come out. He isdisappointed that she is not around to hug him. He finally manages to murmerIshima kahaan hai? Clinic gayi hai kya? Unko phone karke bhol do. Mujhe unseabhi milna hain..

Raman-tu woh sab chod. Tu pehle ye bataa ki tu 15 mahine sekahaan tha?

Adi 15 nahi papa 20 mahine'

All of them were shocked.

Toshi nahi puttar sirf 15 mahine. Us manhoos ne tume 15mahine pehla goli mari thi'

Adi woh main nahi tha daadi. Woh mera humshakal tha.

All of them were shocked.

Raman- tu kehna kya chatha hain. Kya hua?

Adi Papa jab hum London mein the tab kisi ne Romi chachuko kidnap kiya tha, aur main Roshni ke saath unhe bachane gaya. Wahi merakidnap huya. Actually un logon ne romi chachu ko kidnap issliya kiya tha thakimain unke kabze main aa saku. Roshni unke kabze mein thi. Usko dhamkaya gayatha ki agar who ye sab na kare to uski maa or behen ko maar denge. Unhone merahumshakal ko india bhej diya mere ticket mein.

Mujhe yahan lake band kar diya gaya. Par main unki sabbaatein sun saktha tha. Patha chala ki hume barbaad karne ke liya us insaan koaliya se ladne ko kaha, marne ko kaha or ghar mein bhi battamizi ki. Phir mujhepatha chala is ishima ne usse mar diya. Woh log intezaar kar rahe the sahimauke ka. Badi mushkil se bagg ke aaya hoon.

Raman itna sab kuch ho gaya aur hum samaj hi nahi paye..kaun they woh log Adi.'

Adi aur kaun papa. Suraj, Simmi bua or Param uncle'

Simmi oye, ye kya bakwaas hain. Humne kuch nahi kiya. Aurhum ye kaise maan le ki tu hi Adi hain. Adi ka antim sanskaar to bhai ne khudapne haathon se kiya tha?

Adi koi baat nahi. Aap log dnatest karwa sakthe ho. Mein hi Aditya Bhalla hoon. Aur jaise maine kaha muje sirf band karkerakha tha. Mere aankh aur khaan kule the. Param and Suraj roz milte the. Maineunki saari bathe suni thi. Woh illegal business mein param mila huwa tha. Jabphol kholne wali thi un logon ko mera humshakal mil gaya aur sabko yeh dikhayaki Adi involved that. Yakeen maniye papa maine kuch nahi kiya.

Adi broke down after telling themhis entire hardships. All of them tried to console him. With great difficultyhe gathered himself and asked ishima ko phone kiya kya. Abhi thak nahipahunchi'

All of them were scared notknowing what to tell him

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