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So after a long long long time we saw the veneer of nonchalance and the brute casualness get wiped off Mr. Bhalla's faceđ. For once, I totally loved what Aalu did to vindicate her Amma's plight...for once, I loved how she sought to hurt Raman exactly the way he had hurt Ishita.
Yes, there's always a little bit of 'taking for granted' the one you love the most, but I want to see Raman fear the very possible consequences of his having done the same all these years, and mostly now (after Ishita came into the picture) ...like he was about to lose a rare third shot at love, after being twisted around by fate the last two times. It was the same woman, his Madrassan...but has the reality of losing her forever sunk in yet? No! Because he assumes she is there, she will always be there. I want him to wake up sleepless in the middle of the night and perspire, thinking about her leaving again...because again, he made her to...and this time she wont turn back to look at him.
The shock on his face, the ready smirk crumbling into bits at the mention of this piece of 'news', the realization that hit square in the chest - that shit, his Madrassan is not gonna remain his Madrassan anymore...oh boy! How I loved that confident swagger and that business-like demeanor get reduced into a puddle of squeaks somewhere deep down in his heart!!
I am not exactly over-the-moon with today's episode. Yes, I may be called cynical by many because I'm prolly still unwilling to wholeheartedly accept the molly-coddling crap the CVs are offering to us right now, as a way to appease our frayed nerves and diminishing patienceđł but...I absolutely thrilled by this whole Mani-Ishita angle playing on Raman's mind as of now.
In fact, I would LOVE it if the Iyers and the Bhallas in COLLUSION pretend Mani-Ishita wedding is happening and 'give their aashirvaad' and make plans to fly to Australia instead of being there for Puttar's wedding with Shagun. đđ Lying is mean, yes, but right now, it's needed to jolt Puttar outta his senses...
It's so weird naa? Men realize the worth of their women only when there's a danger to their 'territory'. And as much as I hate to admit it, Ishita Iyer was uncharted territory for every man on this planet TILL NOW, except for Raman Bhalla. With the possibility that Mani and Ishita might get married, he would lose hold over the heart, body and soul of this one woman forever. And more than the fact that he had never loved anybody like he loved her, its crushing to acknowledge the fact that no woman had ever loved him the way she loved him. Who in his right mind would want to let go of a love like that??!
It was good till she was single, unavailable to every other man except him (if and when he wanted, that is) ...it was okay till she could feel the pain and hurt pierce through her like a dagger...as long as he was gallivanting with another woman...but it was SO NOT OKAY if she too wanted to move on, if she too wanted to love and be loved by a man other than Mr. Bhalla.
Maybe I am an idealist or whatever, but judging Raman's words and actions all these past weeks and his reaction today, it is clear that first and foremost his ego has been hurt. Let's face it - he is a man of boundless love, most of which is suppressed beneath double the amount of ego. So yes, today his ego was hurt.
And so frazzled and unable to think clearly, he leaves for the party...drinks like a fish, snaps at the mere mention of 'shaadi', hurls a few of his trademark one-liner taunts at the waiter, the bartender, one of the guests simply because they are either married or about to get married or are discussing about wedding functions at that grand, grand venue.
I admit, those few moments were kinda funny in a very dry way.đ
And so the minute Ishita walks with Mani, it starts dancing in his head again - the thought of Ishita-Mani's wedding. He even tries to taunt Ishita, saying she is copying him by deciding to marry Mani. To make him jealous. "Tum Mani se shaadi karne jaa rahi ho, toh yaahan kya kar rahi ho? Apni nazar doosre mardon pe kyun dali hui ho" or something like that he quips.
Of course, since nothing of the sort is happening, Ishita is super confused and takes it to be an extremely drunk Raman's figment of imaginationđ
But the point remains - Raman is jealous. He is so jealous he cant keep still, think calmly, be his usual confident lover-boy selfđđ
Say what he may, this thought will plague him for days on end now...in fact, the same man who a few days ago publicly burnt his and Ishita's couple pictures out in the corridor, actually spared a few minutes poring over old pictures of Ishita and him, carefully snuggled in a antique-looking box. His eyes even got moist.
Maybe this is just the starting...maybe this will lead to more...it has to..
but I dont want it to be a renewed desire for Ishita fueled by jealousy, or a competitive drive, or simply because the 'shikar' was being claimed by a tiger belonging to a diff territory. That's so MCP. Yes, the jealousy may be used an element to ignite his latent feelings for Madrassan, but it should merely skim the surface...his feelings should go way beyond that.
Yes, yes, I am probably very idealistic in this sense, but I am yet to see Raman feel the STING, THE PINCH, THE PAIN of losing Ishita FOREVER WITH/WITHOUT the presence/absence of Mani. That Ishita still cares for Raman and only thinks of his well-being is not hidden from anyone...but I am yet to see Raman be a little selfless, objective, and really extend that same trust, respect and compassion his wife does him.
I dont want Raman to want Ishita back in his life, simply because another man has his eye on her...I want Raman to want his wife simply because deep down, under all those accusations, taunts, harshness, etc etc and etc...he wants only her...like, he has his eye on herđ and it would be such a shame if he lost her to some one who did all the things he never cared doing.
Yes, there's always a little bit of 'taking for granted' the one you love the most, but I want to see Raman fear the very possible consequences of his having done the same all these years, and mostly now (after Ishita came into the picture) ...like he was about to lose a rare third shot at love, after being twisted around by fate the last two times. It was the same woman, his Madrassan...but has the reality of losing her forever sunk in yet? No! Because he assumes she is there, she will always be there. I want him to wake up sleepless in the middle of the night and perspire, thinking about her leaving again...because again, he made her to...and this time she wont turn back to look at him.
Independent of the fact that there is a man waiting on the sidelines for Ishita, I wanna see Raman yearn for Ishita like he would die without her. Whether or not she chose to live with another man, he simply cant do without her. I want him to think - there can never be anyone like her and he would be a fool if he let her go again. That he is lost without her. The day he realizes he needs her in that same basic way a human being needs oxygen to survive, I'll know he is truly, deeply, madly in love.đ
P.S. Shagun has started showing her 'tevar' since yest episode...so nothing new as to why she prefers clinging on to Raman like a leech than pick up the shreds of the remainder of her self-respectđ so predictable. She wants ghar, gaadi, parivar, Raman and kids, even if Raman, kids and parivaar (necessarily in that order) dont want her.
P.S. I think all the bashing that came Mihir's way changed him into a sensible man overnight with a voice of his own. So it was good, with him trying to show the mirror to Shagun and hinting at the futility of marrying Raman Bhai. I hope he pulls the same act with Raman as well.
P.S. Ruhi has again started acting like a teen bitch and it's getting on my nervesđĄ
P.S. Ishita always looks cute in her drunk acts. Alwaysđ I am looking forward to tomorrow's drunk jalwađđ
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