Hi Guys, I am really sorry I am writing all this but i am just frustrated with the ongoing track, I think Ishita should take a stand to knock some senses in Raman. This is my first story, so please forgive me if you find it unsuitable. No offence please.
Consider it to be a continuation of today's 1st scene between IshRa
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Ishita: (self-talk) Raman why don't you understand that you are hurting me to the core. I can't explain it to you how it feels when a part of you is no more in you. I can't explain you my pent up desire that came with this news, but Raman it's not possible for me to allow another woman to carry our child, the symbol of our love. It's not that easy for me to accept the fact.
Raman: (self-talk) Ishita I know that you are upset with the loss of this baby, but you can show it to me if not others, I can see the pain and I will do anything to remove this pain of yours. I will do anything to make you happy, and I know what is it that will bring your beautiful genuine smile, Our Child.
Later in the evening in IshRa's Bedroom
Raman: Ishita I want to talk to you.
Ishita: Ya, tell me Raman.
Raman: Ok Ishita, Please listen to me once, before you react. Ishita I know you are not fine, I know we have lost our child, but Ishita we do have chance to have our own child through surrogacy, you know a part of you and me. I want to have our child that will have half you and half me within itself. And it's not that I am asking you to do something illegal, it's legal and trusted. I know what you are feeling Ishita, I can feel that emptiness of yours. So, why not try this. We can have our dream fulfilled, as well as the family would also be happy.
Ishita was listening to all this very patiently. As soon as Raman completes, she takes a deep breath closes her eyes and starts.
Ishita: Raman, are you done with your explanation. Now please listen to me very carefully. I know we both have been craving for our child. We have dreamt a lot of how to give this child the best future, but Raman we already have two kids who love me more than anything. I know how it feels when people call you barren, but Raman you only told me lot of times before that I am not barren, I have a child i.e. Ruhi, and now I have Aditya too. If you think that people would be calling me barren again after my miscarriage, when I was about to get rid of all this, how does it matter Raman. Why it is affecting you this much. Earlier also people called me the same, you were the one who consoled me. Now, doing all this to shut others mouth is not what needs to be done. It wasn't in our fate Raman.
As far as Surrogacy is concerned, Raman I can't allow another women to carry a child of ours, the symbol of our eternal love. I know the child would be ours, with our blood and genes but Raman you know how it feels that I am not capable of carrying my own child. You don't know how you are making me feel. This is the first time after our marriage, you are making me feel incomplete, and with your demand for our child through Surrogacy, its more than enough I could handle Raman.
Raman: Ishita try to understand, I don't want to make you feel this, I just want to make you feel the happiness of having your own child, no matter how it comes to this world.
Ishita: Raman are you out of your mind. You are so much obsessed with our child that you are not thinking before speaking. Knock some senses in yourself Raman before you speak. If you remember something Raman, the day you gifted my reports on our anniversary back few months, you wanted to make me feel the experience of carrying a child within me. You wanted me to experience those beautiful nine months that each women crave for. But Raman how will surrogacy remove the tag of being barren, as you say you don't like people calling me barren. It won't help Raman. The only thing would be we will have a child of our genes and blood. That's it.
And Raman, if you are forgetting something then let me remind you. Few days back after Dr. Manoj told that I can conceive a baby, but I can't carry the child; we got back to the fact that we can't have a child of ours, that time you weren't having these type of ideas. You only consoled me that if we are together we don't need anything. Where that thought does went now Raman. Why are you behaving like this that our life will fell apart if we don't have our child? It was a miracle Raman that we found that I was pregnant. But Raman, we weren't having any hopes. So, why it is affecting you so much now. People speaks whatever they want. We can't stop them from muttering around, but the only thing that matters to me is what you think about this and how my family thinks regarding all this.
Raman: Ishita why are you so stubborn sometimes, why can't you agree to this procedure, just for me because I want to have our child at any cost, and I will get that.
Ishita: If that's the case Raman then I am sorry to say but you are hurting me beyond realization, if you were having such crave for more children you shouldn't have married me. I never wanted to do this but Raman your decision made me feel that I am not capable of giving any happiness to a man that he craves for. You are hurting me more than Subbu Raman. He left me after he got to know that I can't give him children, but you are hell bent on forcing me to have our child, no matter how. [Crying] You don't know how it feels Raman and I guess you will never feel. If you would have, you would have never forced me into all this. I think its high time Raman that you realize what you want. A Wife or a Child.
Ishita shatters and falls on the ground weeping.
Raman: [After hearing all this Raman comes back into some senses. He goes near Ishita and sits down] I am really sorry Ishita, I didn't realize how I am making you feel with this demand of mine. I never thought how it would be for you to allow another women carrying our baby, and I was being adamant with my decision to make you mother. I forgot what the real reason behind having our own child was. [Crying] I am really sorry Ishita, I thought that I can ease your pain by having our child through surrogacy, but I ended up hurting you. I too am helpless Ishita, I am feeling guilty for not being able to save our child and apart from this the only reason for all this loss was my past. I can't ever forgive myself. You know that I love you so much that I can't dream of even hurting you or you getting hurt by someone. I was just trying to lessen our pain, but see what I have done. I made you suffer this much. I don't want anyone to hurt you and see in pretext to that I forgot everything. I am really sorry.
Saying this he hugs Ishita tightly crying vigorously
Ishita: I love you too Raman, I know what you have been going through carrying this guilt but it wasn't your fault, it was destiny. Raman if I wouldn't have done all this, you would have lost our family including me and all our kids. At least we have everyone and of course Aditya and Ruhi. We are parents to them we will fulfill all our dreams through them [and hugs Raman more tightly patting him]
Please forget it Raman, if that wasn't in our fate. We can hope for other miracles in our life but please I would never agree to opt Surrogacy to have our own child. I hope I have made myself very clear to you Raman. Please respect my feelings Raman, just once.
Raman: I am sorry Ishita for hurting you.
Ishita: It's Ok Raman, let's start a fresh with what we have rather than focusing on what we lost.
Saying so they hug each other smiling
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