1st SS-Love doesn't Lessen , Infact it Deepens ch 45 pg 146 note 148 - Page 45

Raman and ishita kept sitting on the opposite sofas, not at all talking but just staring at each other and thinking what to do. As if on cue, Raman got up and went in to the bedroom, it was as if he understood that ishita won't talk and wud get even more restless wid his precense around so he decided to give her a break. Ishita felt slightly relieved and went to kitchen to cook something so that she cud divert her mind and also because she was missing her kitchen since 1 and a half day.

After about half an hour , raman came out of the room and sat on the sofa reading something on his tablet and ishita got free form kitchen and went in the bedroom to check aarav's school and homework, his any projects pending, his uniform for next day and keep his things at proper places. As she entered the room she was shocked to see everything already in place, aarav's work was complete, his projects were made and neatly folded and his uniform was also in place 4 next day just like she used to keep it. She realized that all the while when Raman was in the room, he was not working as she was thinking him to but was doing all this- getting aarav's things in place just like she used to. She was completely pissed off now- her frail health, Raman's tortures since he had come here, shru's bonding wid raman, aarav- raman's bonding and she being sidelined in her son's life- all these things took a toll on her mind and she lost the ability to think rationally for a small time. she was angry beyond words and marched out to the drawing not expecting any less than a big showdown and confrontation wid raman. She wanted many answers from him and she was determined to get all of them today.

While ishita was preparing herself for world war wid raman , raman was in drawing room chilling out relaxed on the sofa feeling gud that he had done all the needful for the next day so that ishita doesn't have to take any exertion. He had got everything ready for aarav for next day and now he could just relax. But he was certainly wrong in thinking that his rest of evening would pass away in peace as just then ishita came there taking fast steps and before he could ask her anything , she shouted at him-" what the hell is ur problem? Kya chahte ho tum raman? Kyun mujhse mera bacha kua sab bhi cheenna chahte ho?"

Raman was surprised at this sudden outburst of hers and tried to calm her down saying- " wait a minute ishita yeh kya bole jaa rahi ho tum? Kya cheena maine tumse? Kya kehna chahti ho tum?"

Ishita's anger reached a new peak and she shouted back- " really? U want me to tell u ki tum kya kar rahe ho? Tumhe nahi pata ki tum kya kar rahe ho? Ek saal raman ek saal pehle main apna ghar , apne amma-appa, saas-sasur, behnein , devar , bachche apna poora parivaar , apni poori zindagi chodkar aayi thi raman , aur tum bhool gaye ki woh kahin na kahin tumhari wajah se hua tha , tumne mera trust toda tha aur main , I just walked out silently maintaining the dignity of our relationship , kuch nahi bola maine, chillayi nahi tumhare upar , koyi ilzaam nahi lagaya bas chup chap chali aayi aur..."

Raman was listening and thinking where it was going, he said- " yeh sab achanak kyun ishita? Kya hua hai ? why r u?..."

Ishita- "just wait let me complete , I am nt done yet so listen aur ab ek saal baad aap achnak Mujhe ek function par dekhte hain and u decide to enter my life again? U r suddenly so hell bent on caring for me , showing me ur love and taking me back home again? Why? Kyun raman achanak yeh sab kyun? Aur yeh karne ke liye aap kar kya rahe hain? Ek ladki jo meri friend rahi hai ek saal se aap mere saamne usi se saath flirt kar rahe hain? Mujhe dikhane ke liye ki aap mein ab bhi ladkiyaan interested hain? U r yet so desirable?"

Raman was shocked and said in an angry tone- "what ? kya bol rahi ho tum? Main shruti ke saath flirt kar raha hun? How can u even think abt it ishita when u know I love u?"

Ishita was nt done yet- "ok so u claim u were not flirting wid shruti fine I will accept it now tell me why r u taking aarav away from me raman? Who mera beta hai , iss ek saal mein woh mere jeene ka ek akela sahara hai , I live just for him , he is my world. Aarav meri life mein tab aaya when I had nothing , I had lost everything and now u after dis whole one year u come in and try to take away my son , my sole reason for me to live too wid u why? Kyun ? tum aarav ke saath mujhse bhi zyaada achche se bond karte ho, woh sirf tumhare saath time spend karna chahta hai , tum dono agar ek saath ho toh tumhe kisi ki zaroorat nahi , mere bete ko meri bhi zaroorat nahi, kaise? U do everything for him , as if u r his only parent and he too loves u more than me in these few days , how? Why? Kyun kar rahe ho mere saath aise raman kyun?..."

She continued to babble utter nonsense after dis , not knowing what she was saying and raman was just struck badly by shock and then anger , he knew he had to calm her down but he cud nt control his anger any more and finally shouted out silencing ishita for the first time in this conversation of theirs

Raman-" STOP IT ISHITA , basss bohot ho gaya tumhara, dats it , bohot bol liya tumne , now I will speak and u will shut ur mouth and just listen , just listen , did u get me."

Ishita was shocked and shut up for the first time since she had started speaking 20 minutes ago and dis was becoz she had seen a glimpse of the original, her own raavan kumar after a year and inside her heart she was all ears to listen to his shouting but she had to maintain anger as she had herself started dis world war. She listened while Raman started speaking up

Raman- "ok toh tum keh rahi ho ki tum ek saal pehle apna sab kuch chodkar aayi thi , aur haan main manta hun ki woh meri wajah se hua tha , main tumhara doshi tha aur hun lekin tum shayad bhool rahi ho ishita ki apne poore parivaar ke saath saath tum ek aise insaan ko chodkar aayi thi jise tumne phir se jeena sikhaya tha , pyaar karna sikhaya tha , uski zindagi badli thi , aur woh tha tumhara pati , main !!!!, ishita main , tum Mujhe bhi unn sab ke saath chodkar aayi thi. Poori family tumhare jaane se dukhi hui , pareshaan hui lekin main , main toot gaya ishita , poori duniya khatam ho gayi thi meri uss pal jab maine tumhara who letter padha tha. aur upar se yeh guilt ki maine tumhara bharosa toda , uss ladki ka bharosa toda jo mera sab kuch hai , uss guilt ne Mujhe maar dala ishita , it just sucked life out of my body. Iss poor eek saal main zinda laash bankar jeeya hun , subah uthta hun toh tumhe yaad karta hun , poore din apne aap ko kaam mein paaglon ki tarah laga kar rakhta hun taaki tumhari yaad kam aaye, bachchon, badon , poori family ki har wish poori karta hun , har tarah se unka dhyaan rakhta hun yeh sochke ki ishita hoti toh aise karti , waise karti."

"Tum keh rahi ho ki maine tumse tumhari family cheen li aur ab main aarav ko cheen raha hun jo tumhare jeene ki wajah hai , but tumne kya kiya ishita , tumne toh mujhse meri zindagi ek saal pehle hi cheen li thi na, jab tum ghar chodkar aayi , tum meri life apne saath le aayi , tum meri jeene ki wajah nahi , meri zindagi ho and u snatched it from me. Kyun? Kyunki maine tumhara bharosa toda tha , theek hai toda tha , wajah poochi kabhi bharosa todne ki? Kabhi mere paas baithkar baat ki? Bas uthi , letter likha aur chali gayi? Tum kehti ho tum chup chap chali gayi hamare rishtey ki dignity banaye rakhne ke liye , main kehta hun do hell wid dignity , main chahta tha ki tum chup chap na jaati , cheekhti , chillati , mujhse ladti , jawaab maangti jaise hamesha karti thi. Hamesha toh Jhansi ki rani bankar mere upar chadti thi , tab kyun nahi kiya ishita? Whyyy? Tumhari uss silence ne Mujhe ek saal tak raat ki need sone nahi diya , pal pal ghut ghut kar mara hun main tumhari yaad mein aur tum kehti ho ki main ek saal baad tumhe sudden affection dikha raha hun?? Kaise ishita? Kaise bol sakti ho tum yeh? Kaise?"

Ishita was shocked wud be an understatement, she did not knew how to react to it , she had not expected her raavan kumar to get sooo passionate and emotional at the same time . she was speechless now , caught in her own words as she realized how much she had misunderstood everything and when she realized what she had just said , she was even more ashamed of her behavior. But before she cud say anything , raman continued...

Raman- " arre haan tumhe lagta hoga ki maine tumhe dhoondha nahi tumhare jaane ke baad aur ab tum yahan mil gayi toh main tumhare peeche ho liya hai na? nahin ishita aisa nahi tha , tumhare jaane ke baad maine tumhe kahan kahan nahi dhoondha, har jagah , jahan bhi possible tha , maine dhoondha aur aaj bhi ek saal baad bhi main tumhe dhoondh raha tha , ek ek shaher karke dhoondh raha , tha but nahi kar paya yaar . mihir , romi aur kisine koi kasar nahi chodi , maine poori poori raat paaglon ki tarah dhoondha hai tumhe par tum yeh sochti ho mere bare mein? Yeh? Tum soch kaise sakti ho ki main shru , woh itni choti hai mujhse , main uss se flirt karunga ? woh bhi tumhare hote hue? Aur aarav tumhe lagta hai main aarav ko tum se cheen lunga? Ishita aarav tumhara beta hai , koi cheez nahi jise main cheen loonga , woh mujhse attach hua hai , hamari achche banne lagi hai but hum tumhe sideline karenge aisa tumne socha bhi kaise? Tum beemar thi , fever that oh hum dono tumhe exhertion nahi dena chahte the isliye humne sab kuch khud kiya aur aaj bhi , main sab kuch iss liye karke aaya taaki tum stress na lo aur tum yeh soch rahi ho mere bare mein? Kaise? Aur kyon??"

All ishita's fight and doubts had blown over, she now stood transfixed, rooted to floor looking at raman and thinking how 2 react now? Raman had realized that he had overreacted and he also realized that ishita was in a trance right now. He used the opportunity to make her understand how much he loves her. He wanted to throw all her insecurities out of the window and he moved towards her

Raman- (walking towards ishita) "aur pyaar , tumhe lagta hai ki maine tumhe achanak pyaar dikhaya , nahi madam main tumhe hamesha se pyaar karta tha aur hoon , tum jaanti ho yeh ki main tumse pyaar karta hun , jaanti ho ya nahi?"

Ishita who was in a blur said- " haan jaanti hun"

Raman- "tum jaanti ho I care for u , dnt u?"

Ishita- "haan pata hai Mujhe"

Raman-" tum jaanti ho I respect u , right?"

Ishita- "haan maanti hun , par..."

Raman said in his husky voice- "shhh chup ishita , tum jaanti ho main jaan boojhkar tumhara bharosa nahi todunga , jaanti ho ya nahi?"

Ishita- "haan jaanti hun , par phir bhi aapne toda toh than a mera trust , Mujhe hurt kiya to tha na."

Raman- "haan kiya tha and I am guilty for that lekin uske liye Mujhe itni badi sazaa, itni badi punishment , kyun?"

Ishita-" sazaa aapke liye thi toh mere liye bhi thi raman equally thi , maine bhi toh yeh sab aapke bete..."

She stopped herself forcefully as she knew she cud nt tell raman or anyone abt tha part of her reason for leaving home as it wud have dreadful consequences. Raman heard her but the heat of the moment did not allow him to notice anything fishy right now and he looked cornered ishita and locked her between himself and the wall so that she cud not run away.

They both looked into each other's eyes wid immense passion, emotion, guilt , anger , care , respect and love - love which surpassed all limits of the world. Their faces were inches apart and ishita realized what cud come up next but she cud not move herself from there, it was as if her heart was ready to accept whatever came her way .for a moment they wanted to hug each other , cry their hearts out and be like that, in each other's embrace forever.

before she cud do something , raman came back to the present from the trance and moved back realizing whatever he was abt to do might have been in heat of the moment but later ishita might not feel good abt it. He wanted to take it extremely slow wid her and build her trust in him and their relation inch by inch so that she never ever doubts it again dis time. he turned away from her and just said-" I think we shld call it a night ishita , aaj ke liye already bohot zyaada action ho gaya hai , go freshen up and get ready to go to bed . More of exhertion wud harm u badly. Plz go."

Ishita knew he was saying this as he was guilty abt his anger which he had vented out at her few moments earlier and cud not face her as he was emotional too. She too needed a break as she was also guilty of her actions and words and wanted to vent out her emotions by crying hard and loud. She went to the kitchen and raman was slumped down on the sofa, both sharing same feelings but very differently.

so this is it , hope u liked it atleast if not loved it. waitinggg 4 reviews detailed ones if possible plz.😉

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Shivangi