Realizations os 7/3/15 - note page 4 updated - Page 4

Originally posted by: mayasundar

Hi Guys,

Thanks for the comments,likes and pm.

While reading through your comments I find that somewhere I have not explained my thinking properly anyways here it is go

Regarding Ishita thinking about Subbu and Raman in the same line. It is a diary you write logical, illogical, good feelings, bad feelings and your insecurities in you diary. She never voiced them out to anyone these are her thoughts.

Her healing track with her infertility issues has not began in the drama so she always feels insecure about herself regarding begin a complete woman even though she has not voiced these feelings to anyone it is always at the back of her mind as she was rejected by so many people for her inability.

The drama which is happening in her house now is bringing back all the insecurities she has buried with the help of Raman love but now Raman is once again acting like how he used to be when they were married in the beginning so her insecurities are coming back.

If you guys read further there is answer from Raman for her questions in this os. Here is the answer from the os

"He realized how much she was affected by Subbu betrayal and how sensitive she is. He even realized her insecurity had made her to think him to be just like Subbu but for him even without the kids he would not survive without her. Her inability to conceive in no way affected him. She was his life.

He promised himself that he will make everything alright with her once she gets well. He thought they should sit and talk all the issues regarding their life and put some demons from the past to rest from both their lives and start a new good one."

She still feels the same love she feels for Raman because she responds to Raman's voice not medication. Raman too loves her she is his life. He cannot function without her.

This os is not based on Raman or Ishita bashing. I tried to write what they were feeling during those times in their life. Each and every one of the incident has both their point of views.

Hope I made sense to you guys.

Thanks,

Maya

this is really beautiful! loved it so much!

nice,superb..and really fantastic actually raman really needs a reality check and know the importance of ishita in his life...and realises her as an imp part of life

Must say that you have written so well I actually got tears in my eyes on reading few lines . 👏

mujhe bahuth ruladiyaa...

Perfect portrayal of emotions during those incidences 👍🏼... I wish Raman realized all of this in the show too.

Although the ending was a bit dramatic but I wish it was on the show. Raman needs to know how he kills her bit by bit with his blaming.

This has to be the perfect OS I have read about the current track.

I have stopped watching YHM some time ago so there are few things that I miss, like how Ishita reacts and feels when Raman argues with her without any fault (I don't have it in me to watch such scenes so I skip) but I think you have nailed it.

No matter how the story goes the credit goes to you and I'll think the whole drama happened like in this OS.

I especially loved this line: "I don't even want his love I just want my self-respect back which I buried in my love for him."

👏👏

AWWW! You highlighted every emotion Ishita SHOULD have felt on the show, although our great CV's didn't bother to show any of that. But this my friend is PERFECT! The parallel between Raman reading the diary and going back to his memories of what happened in that situation is great, hope this happens in the show sometime down the line someday. All Ishita wants is support and self respect, give that to her and she will be pleased, she is not hard to please. Raman has many problems around him, not going to undermine the pressure he has, but he has to realize that he has a support but he is not using it, he is pushing away. Someone needs to remind him of his vows he took with her, remember RKB you said you won't fight with her, but alongside her with the whole world! Come on man buck up! Wish the CV's thought like you! Well Done! 👏