Hey everyone,
I am a fairly silent member on this forum, I have recently started interacting here so most of you won't know me. Since YHM is a unique show with an amazing storyline I am tempted to pen down something on the current track. I like where Ishita and Raman are right now, there is too much potential for us to explore from these brilliant characters. I love their dilemma, inner struggle, and the trepidations of new' love, additionally I love music and the song Dhak Dhuk from English Vinglish came up on my playlist, and I realized that this song perfectly fit our Ishra. If you aren't familiar with the song, please listen to it and if you know the song, I would still urge you to listen to it before reading this OS.
[YOUTUBE]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aLgeJLouOtQ[/YOUTUBE]
The song chronicles a wife's insecurity about her husband, her longing for his touch, his taunts and her fear that he may forget her once she figuratively moves away from him.
I would love to hear your thoughts on this OS, this song, my interpretation or just Ishra, if you don't have time to respond just hit like to boost my morale. Without further ado here begins my OS: Trepidations of new' love.
It begins where Ishita finds about Sanjana and her fight with Ramam where Ishita tells Raman she won't talk to him ever.
In Ishra bedroom
Ishita is sitting on the couch with tears flowing down her cheeks, she thinks to herself how her life is a pendulum that keeps on swinging between happiness and dark shadowy sadness. She remembers how Raman made her feel special by giving her that kuch kuch hota hai' moment, how happy she was that day, she couldn't sleep all night. She kept on staring at Raman all night, she hoped he would have asked her to sleep on the bed and abandon the couch, that night she felt more than Ruhi's Ishimaa she felt like Mrs. Raman Kumar Bhalla, her happiness knew no bound and then she remembers what transpired between her and Sanjana. She couldn't believe that Raman hid such a big part of his life from her.
Ishita silently thinking: I have always been understanding and he knows that then why would he hide such a big thing from me, does he not owe it to his wife to come clean. So what, everyone has a past, why wouldn't Raman talk to me about Sanjana, does this mean that he can't confide in me? He doesn't think of me as his equal, his partner in life, his wife, for him I am still Ruhi's Ishimaa that's it!
With tears rolling down her eyes she touches the couch she was sitting on, she realizes that this couch is her reality and what transpired between Raman and her yesterday during that rainy night was just an enigma.
Ishita silent thinking: Fine! That's it! I am done crying for a man who doesn't care for me, and why am I upset that he isn't sharing his past after all who am I to him? just Ruhi's Ishimaa, maine promise kiya tha Raman ko main unse baat nahi karoge kabhi bhi, toh bas nahi karongi! I am done with this heartless man, from now on my life is back on track with Ruhi as my only focus. Nahi mujhe Raman ki dost banna hai yan unki biwi.
With that she gets up wipes her tears and consoles her bruised heart. She goes to the kitchen to start cooking dinner. She doesn't look up at anyone, she is still perplexed as to why she is so angry? Is she falling for Raman? Is she jealous? Why is she hurt? These questions keep on driving her crazy, to regain her sanity she wants some distance from Raman so she can find the answers to her numerous questions. To her respite Mihika comes in running to the Bhalla household and announces that from now till her wedding her Ishita akka will be staying at the Iyer household to help with the wedding preparations. Listening to this Ruhi gets excited as well, after all she was get to play with Shravan till late night and sleep with her paati.
Raman oblivious to what just happened walks in and sits on the dinning table. He had completely gotten over the fight with Ishita as this little tiff was nothing new for them. They have had bigger arguments and have made peace so he was sure Ishita was over their little argument. He sat down and looked at Ishita giving her a big smile. In response Ishita neither smiled nor frowned, she just put all the food on the table and sat down next to Ruhi. Raman was obviously intrigued by her behavior, why wasn't she sitting next to him, recently they have gotten closer, he started thinking that their rain dance and his eagerness to touch her again and again obviously indicates that he thinks of her as his wife so why is she behaving so odd. He thinks that it can't be that fight.
Raman silent thinking: Why is she upset? It can't be that fight? But why did we fight to begin with? Why was she upset? What did I do? She didn't' even tell me where I erred. What was bothering her, why is she so miffed? This madrasan is gonna drive me crazy, kis pagal se shaadi kar betha Raman puttar!
R: While looking at Ishita, Chole ache bane hai bohot
Ishita completely ignoring him, trying her best not to respond to him
T: Acha ji, aaj ache lage. Pechle hafte bechari meri bahu ko rula diya tha inn cholon ke wajah se
Raman silent thinking: Yaar ye maa hain na jab dekho tab bolti rehti hai, inhe kya kahu mujhe aaj kal madrasi awaz pasand hai
R: Kya maa aap, waise Ishita sach main cholon ka jawab nahi
Ishita turns to Ruhi
I: Ruhi beta chole kaise hai
Ruhi: Ishimaa best chole in New Delhi!
R: Beta itna jhoot nahi bolte, chole ache hain par best in the New Delhi is a stretch, while saying that he winks at Ishita
Ishita still ignoring him hugs Ruhi and thanks her.
Ishita silent thinking: Jo baat karni chahiye woh karenge nahi aur ye bakwaas cholon ke bareen me 30 minutes ki conversation. Main kiss pagal ghar ki bahu hoon and aur kiss pagal insaan ki patni. Meri koi fikar nahi par cholon pe bhashan delwado to Ravan kumar ki bolti band nahi hogi, par agar kaam ki baat karo to chilla ke chup kar denge aur apni secrets ko kabhi share nahi karenge. Bhad me jaye ye chole or ye Ravan kumar.
After dinner Raman goes to his room, he opens his laptop and keeps staring at the door. An hour passes and yet there is no sign of Ishita, he finally goes to the living room and sees his mom and dad planning for Mihir's tilak, he interupts them.
R: Maa, Ishita kaha hain?
T: Arre beta usne tujhe nahi bataya? Woh to apne maa ke ghar chali gayi, ab shaadi tak wahi rahege
R: Kya! Apne ye hone kase diya
T: Pagal kahin ka, uske behen ki shaadi hain toh maike to jayege
R: Mujhe kyun kise ne nahi bataya, main Ishita ke bina...
T: Kya? Ishita ka bina kya?
R: Mera matlab hai ki Mihir aur Mihika ki shaadi ki planning to mujhe aur Ishita ko karni hai toh ab hum kaise karenge. With that he just goes to his room.
R silent thinking: Bina baat kiye chali gayi! Kya woh sach main mujhse sari umar baat nahi karege? Par yaar maine kiya kya hain? Ye kya pagal pan hain, who acts like this, how am I supposed to repent or ask for forgiveness if I don't even know what I did, what the hell is going on with me. To hell with her, let her go she will realize what she is missing when I am not around, and why am I getting upset, I should be happy! I can watch my match without anyone glaring at me, I can do whatever I want. If she wants to talk she knows where to find me.
Raman starts watching his cricket match but his thought keep on fleeting towards that couch and invariably he thinks about Ishita. He walks over and sits on the couch, he touches her blanket and her pillow, he finds some solace in that blanket after all it smells like her. He can't understand this feeling, why is he so restless, what the hell is going on. He opens the window to his balcony and starts pacing back and forth. He turns off the TV, looks at the radio and turns it on to Ishita's favorite channel and her favorite Radio show, "Yaad Shehar by Neelesh Misra". He looks outside and it's a perfect night, the moon is lighting his room with a silver shimmer, there is the cold Delhi breeze and a light shower. His mind keeps on wandering to Ishita and her silence.
R silent thinking: Ishita is very mature and understanding, she never overacts, something big has happened but why isn't she telling me. She was so understanding with the entire Adi accident fiasco, she was so supportive, she is the same lady who told me to treat Shagun with respect, can you believe it SHAGUN with respect. She bought Param home so Simmi can stay under our watchful eye, she bought her molester home for my sister and my family's happiness and peace. Raman think, something big has happened and you need to find out. But why should I initiate, what is she to me? Am I in LOVE with her? NO Raman kumar Bhalla can't go on that path again, but then why am I so worried that she is upset, she will get over it, right? Then why am I so restless why can't I sleep and why do I like this stupid show suddenly, what kind of show is this? Yaad shehar? She always giggles when she hears Neelesh Misra recite stories on the radio about this fictional city called Yaad shehar. Why do I gaze at her every time she comes out from the bathroom with wet hair? Why do I notice what sari she wears, why did it bother me that she kept a fast for me and actually stayed hungry and thirsty for me? Why did it bother me that she lost her dentist license and I gave up my Presidentship for that madrasan and actually I was happy resigning from my post! Why? And why was I hurt when Shagun mentioned our romantic' moments in front of Ishita, why was it that I couldn't see Ishita in pain, I couldn't see tears in her eyes that my past gave her. I didn't bother listening to what garbage Shagun was spewing, why was my attention only on Ishita and her reaction to Shagun's story. Why was it important for me to make Ishita feel special? I hate the goddamn rain and yet I danced with Ishita!
Dude you are in love, Ishu is your wife and then ruhi's Ishimaa! With that realization he just fell down on the bed with a smile on his face, he decided he was going to talk to Ishita first thing in the morning. He turned the light off, and was about to turn the radio off when the song dhak dhuk came on and the words just took him by surprise.
Jiyara, Jiyara, Jiyara, Dhak Dhuk Hoye
My heart is beating fast/feeling scared
Jiyara Dhak Dhuk Hoye, Hoye... Haaye... Haaye...
My heart is beating fast
Khamakhan, Khamakhan, Khamakhan, Dhak Dhuk Hoye
Without any reason, it is beating fast
Jiyara Dhak Dhuk Hoye, Haaye... Hoye... Haaye...
My heart is beating fast
Piya Bin Dil Lage Na Ek Pal Ko
My heart doesn't attach itself to anything else without my
beloved's presence
Mann Ma Laage Thes
My heart feels wounded
Kaise Jaoon Main Paraye Des
How should I go to a foreign country?
Ho Kabhi Dil Dhadke, Baayi Ankh Phadke
Sometimes my heart starts beating very fast and my right eye
twitches
Tu Na Humein Bhool Jaaye Re...
Don't forget me, my beloved
Tujhe Dil Jaane, Poora Pehchaane
My heart knows You completely
Naina Ye Phisal Jaaye Re...
May Your eyes not slip a gaze away from me
Raman: No I am going and talking to her right now, kahi woh mujhe bhool jayi toh? Aakhir who samajti hain ki main usse sirf Ruhi ki Ishimaa manta hoon. Nahi nahi I am not going to let Ishu forget me. Morning is too far, I am going now.
Sorry this was supposed to be one shot but I have a problem with length as you can tell, I will update the last part tomorrow with Ishita's feeling on being away from Raman and her inner turmoil + Ishra converation!
Please leave your feedback! Would love to hear what you guys think.
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