How long I have to fight these battles on my own? How long? Isn't HE going to support me? Self-pity is the worst thing in life and that is what I don't want to do now. I still have hopes for our relation. Even though we do not share typical husband-wife relationship there is something like friendship (???), respect and care for our children. Why it hurts then? Does it hurt when your friend doesn't side with you while you are going through worst situation of your life? I don't know? Honestly god I don't know what to call our relationship? I have been there done that. I was in love with HIM but he left me instead of standing up for me. He wanted someone who can carry forward his family name. It took ages for me to be myself again. Now, the situation isn't that different anymore. HE my husband stood up for his WIFE, to be precise his EX-WIFE. He already has broken my trust. I am shattered to the core but why do I've faith in him that whatever he is doing is not from his heart, it's just a farce? I am not sure where our association will take us when this so called bad dream will be over. Yet, the question remains unanswered. Factually everyone is with me and he is alone but why I feel that I have to fight my own battle and why is he not there for me, with me? It hurts. It hurts when you feel lonely a midst of the crowd of your own people after knowing the one for whose support you are longing for is your opponent.
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