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"Kya hua Suraj? Neend nehi aarahi?" This broke Suraj's thoughts of every devastation his world was going through. He is guilty, he is traumatised about the innocent deaths, about his arrest which crumpled his image and added to this was Karan's statement which simply confirmed the fact that he was held guilty for the mishap. The moment hears Chakor's voice he perhaps forgets it all. Infront of him is his world, his responsibility which has to survive without him. He gets himself to accept the harsh truth and explains Chakor. Drops of tears rolled down my cheeks. These two ace every bit of an emotional scene. The scene ended but I still couldn't stop crying. This is a very rare phenomena for me and I believe, it's only Sukor who affect me this way.
The way he starts with transferring the haveli from his name to her name and we could see that sharp moment Chakor completely broke down. She was portraying herself quite strong to support him and also, somewhere to assure herself. But nothing could hide the sudden break down she suffered. Suraj's words totally devastated her. She was scared to live a life, in this world without her world. Suraj was in no lesser pain. He was speaking stuffs with the acme of responsibilities because he knew, he has to speak those harsh truths of life. He too was shattered but was portraying strong enough to atleast finish his lines. Two people come together to create a world, away from everything else. And how can they believe that now they are alone in their own world? For a moment, I wished Suraj to shut up. I wanted both of them to be quiet. Just a moment away from the probable harsh realities. But again, time, time has again turned cruel and it certainly isn't with them. Suraj needed to say all those things that were important. Their daughter! Who from now on might go on called just Chakor's daughter. A feeling where he would be far far away from his life. Who knows if Saanvi never ever remembers Suraj's love? His existence would virtually be wiped off Saanvi's life. He is losing every single element his life consists of. The worst part is that, he is speaking his loss. Those instructions he was giving to Chakor were so very tearing that after each word, I wish Suraj to stop. Chakor had her own courage, her own trust which were fueled by a "wait" for Suraj's arrival. How can he say that she has to live alone? How can he destroy the world they had created for themselves?
And she promises him, I bet not even a word of those promises would have escaped her mouth if she still hadn't believed that Suraj would be back. And she finally breaks down. A whole life, without the person who is the personification of life? The "haveli", which is her home just because she is the wife of Suraj Rajvanshi, would have certainly no value without him. There daughter would remind her of him each passing second. Her smiles, of Suraj's smiles, her tears, of Suraj's last words, her pranks of Suraj's pranks and her anger, of Suraj's anger. How is she going to survive with all of these? Will she be able to call it a "life"?
The silent consolation was way more beautiful than any amount of talking in the world. The bars couldn't stop them from coming closer. That was the best they could do. Give each other the feeling of always being near each other no matter what. Suraj wanting a sight of a "smiling Chakor" was heartbreaking. The way he held her hand even after saying her to go away, well, he has always held her hand when she tried escaping. But this time, she didn't want to go, he didn't wish to leave her. But they had to get parted.
Anupamaa
Pocket Mein Aasman
