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The man I hated
The papers lay before me. I had to take a decision fast. But it was hard to choose between my dreams and Suraj. I didn't realise when this kind of concern for Suraj started overpowering me. I wanted to leave everything and go to Delhi for the Asian Games. Afterall it was the chance for which I had been waiting for several years. It could help me to get more opportunities. Taking a chance wouldn't risk much. I picked up the pen and started reading the confirmation letter. I re read the letter for the umpteenth time, and when my eyes landed on my name, the Rajvanshi again reminded me of Suraj.
Calm down.
I tried to reassure myself that he would be fine. I knew KN or Ragini might plan something against me. I was not very safe but at that moment I was just worried for Suraj. Even more after Ragini was so close to succeeding in her intentions. Suraj, he was so close to...I didn't even want to think of what would have happened. I had Imli and Vivaan to take care of Suraj but still I couldn't help but worry about him. Imli and Vivaan had their own problems to deal with.
My thoughts wandered off to where we had started. He had been the typical villian in my life ever since when I was child. After leaving Azaadganj, I thought his chapter would be over, but no he had come back. With more hatred and more evilness. After KN he was the only enemy I thought I had. Then if someone would have told me that we would end up like this and there would be a day when I would be in a fix to chose between Suraj and my dreams, I would have laughed away saying it was a great joke.
I again glanced at the papers and decided to leave it. My dreams. I could not let Suraj alone and KN pounce on him with his deadly plans. I did not know why I chose him but I didn't feel like giving it a second thought. He wasn't the same person as he was before and maybe that was the reason I was concerned. Most importantly, I do not hate him anymore!
I kept the papers on the table, being unmindful and went to the washroom to have a quick shower and relax myself. I have been thinking too much about him.
Main Suraj ko akela nahi chod sakti.
The woman I hated
I took the earing in my hand and stared it for sometime. I was Chakor's. I had started knowing her and her belongings. Yellow was her favourite colour. She loved lauki and methi. She liked flowers. She liked these small, simple danglings. I have been making efforts to know her better. I feel guilty for hurting her all these years. I was so hungry for my father's love that I could not recognize the devil in him. I don't know what to do to payback for my inhumane deeds. This girl, whom I once hated, still stands up for me to protect me. I want the same for her. I don't want even a little thorn to hurt her. I wish I could give her what she deserves but I know she wont find any happiness in me. It would be a monster of me if I still keep hating her. I cant hate her. She has been the reason for which I still breathe today and I have to do something for her to remove the guilt of my past deeds.
I moved towards my room and found Chakor no where. I heard the running tap water and guessed she was in there. So I turned to leave when my eyes fell on some papers that lay on the floor. They must've been blown away by the wind. I picked up the papers. I wondered what those papers were. I read the letter and under it found a C' with shaky handwriting. I noticed that it was over the printed name and it looked like she left it unsigned changing her mind. I wondered if I was the reason again. Did she take that decision because she thought of protecting me? I was shocked. How much will this girl do for me when she wont get anything in return? I have to stop her from doing that. I cannot take away her dreams from her.
Main Chakor se uske sapne nahi cheen sakta.
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