CHAPTER
39:
SHPOV
Simmi opened the door letting me in out of the cold and told
me Swayam was in his room and had been there all afternoon. I nodded and headed
up.
I quietly knocked then tried opening the door, but it was
locked. Looking at the doorknob, I realized it was the same so I jiggled it a
little then lifted up and turned the knob clockwise causing the door to open.
Swayam was on his bed looking lifeless. I quietly closed the
door then sat down on his bed.
Groaning, he angrily said, "Simmi, I don't want to talk
about Sharon or any of this stuff. Can you just drop it and leave me
alone?"
"I could, if I was Simmi, but either way I can
go." I told him starting to stand up and leave.
He flipped around on his bed to see me getting up.
"You don't have to go…" he trailed off quietly.
I shrugged. "It sounds like you want to pout and wallow
for some reason, and while you're cute when you pout you're no fun when you're
in one of these moods. And anyways, I just wanted to drop this off and see if
you had made one, but I'm guessing no from looking at you in this pitiful
state."
"Shar…" he sighed.
"Save it." I warned.
"What'd you bring over?" he asked, still lying on
the bed.
"The list of my loves that you told me to write out. I
was bored during Rey's appointment and made it for you."
"Oh, thanks." He said with a small smile as I
walked back over to his bed.
On my way, I tripped on one of his shoes and ended up
landing on top of him on the bed.
"Sorry." I mumbled as I began to get up, but his
arms snaked around my waist causing me to fall back down on him.
"Swayam?"
He pulled the rest of me onto the bed and held me tighter to
him. I figured he wasn't going to let go anytime soon, so I shifted myself so I
was more comfortable. He ran his fingers through my hair and twisted strands
around his fingers lazily as his thoughts were a million miles away.
"Sharon…" he paused, "what if—what if…you did
something you really regretted and don't know if you can make it right?"
I moved my head so it was tilted toward his. "Swayam,
we'll get over our fight in due time, like we always do."
"No Sharon, I'm not talking about our fight. I'm
talking about something else."
"Swayam, you're being cryptic. If you need to get
something off your chest then just tell me. You know I don't like it when
people beat around the bush. So either tell me what you're talking about or
else drop the subject." I told him firmly.
We lay there in silence for who knows how long, his fingers
tracing unknown patterns on my back.
"How's Rey?" he finally asked, breaking the
silence and changing the subject.
"He's okay. His follow up appointment was today and
then they're going to call him saying if their original assumption was true. If
it is, then he'll go in for a treatment plan. I went with him today, and I may
end up going with him to all his appointments if he wants me to. Are you going
to okay with that?"
"Maybe." Swayam sighed.
"Maybe?" I asked.
"Yes, maybe."
"That doesn't give me a good answer. Are you going to
be okay with me being there for Rey or not?" I asked again.
"Maybe."
"Swayam!"
"I don't know it'll depend."
"Depend on what?"
Swayam stayed quiet as his fingers wound through my hair
then moved from my hair to wrapping around my torso and holding me tightly.
"It depends if we're going to stay together and if I'll ever get to see
you anymore." He whispered almost silently.
I looked back at him, then moved off him and sat up hoping
he'd do the same. Thankfully, he did.
I stared him straight in the eye. "Swayam, if you want
to stay together then we will. If we stay together then of course I'll make
sure to see you and spend time with you. What kind of girlfriend would I be if
I didn't? Rey is one of my best and closest friends. If Simmi got cancer,
wouldn't you want to be at her side?"
He nodded. "She's my sister; I couldn't let her fend
for herself."
"Exactly. Rey is the equivalent of a brother to me. You
should know that by now. Now imagine if Simmi got cancer and the day she found
out, Nilesh broke up with her then dumped her and my house to deal with
everything on her own, and didn't bother telling you about anything that
happened even though you all are close friends."
A look of recognition appeared on Swayam's face. "Kria
broke up with him then dumped him at your house to deal?"
I nodded.
He put his forehead on my shoulder. "I'm the biggest
jerk. Why are you still with me after everything?"
I smiled. "I have my reasons. You just have to figure
out what they are."
He lifted his head up. "So you don't hate me?"
"No, you're fine. I'm still a little frustrated that
you jumped to conclusions so quickly, but I suppose I would have too."
Swayam smiled and cupped my face in his calloused and warm
hands then kissed my forehead, and whispered, "Thank you."
I smiled then noticed it was pitch black outside. "I
gotta go."
"But baby, its cold outside." He whispered
smiling.
I smiled. "But I've gotta go."
"But baby, its cold outside." He repeated.
"My mother will worry."
"Beautiful, what's your hurry?"
"My father will be pacing the floor."
"Listen to the heat kick in." he said with a
chuckle.
"But I really should hurry."
"Beautiful please don't scurry."
"I simply must go." I told him.
"But baby, its cold outside." He sighed.
"Yes it is honey, but I've got to go." I told him
as I stood up and wrapped my scarf around my neck and shrugged on my coat.
Swayam walked me to the door. "Can I pick you up in the
morning?"
I nodded. "Sounds good, I'll see you tomorrow, and look
over my list and make your own! I want to start on the project as soon as we
can." I stood on my top toes and kissed his cheek.
"Bye baby." He smiled.
"Bye." I waved as I left and got into my car.
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