I am writing this post just as a general view towards these complicated relationships that we go through. Our lives might not be too extreme like these soaps but there are some aspects that match with them. there are some pointers that I wanna talk about:-
1. First the relationship of Taani and Anurag. Their friendship is just out of this world. Its soo deep and intense. It is extremely beautiful. It means more than any other relationship. Even though their love is there but their friendship beats everything 😛. It totally reminds me of my best friend who was also a guy. We weren't childhood friends or anything but our friendship was as deep as theirs. Infact I was more like Taani myself. So, if some of you guys think that Taani is being larger than life or not real as a character like hers doesnt exist; its not completely true. I find alot of myself that I was, in her. 😊......Sometimes I just cry seeing their love and their friendship.
Even today, I miss my best buddy as much as I did before. I miss him everyday...We are not on talking terms anymore. ....Everyone thought we were couple or we were going tobe together in life because we were almost like 2 persons in 1 soul. Deep down I think , I was in love with him...but I never found out about what he felt towards me. As many times, I cried silently in closed room because it was hurting deep down for not being able to express my love for him...it was unrequited love, one sided love...Maybe he did love me or maybe not...maybe he was confused...I don't know 😕....we grew apart slowly...mainly coz he moved away from me...he got new friends...I still kept in touch with him and gave him support in his lowest moments...gave him a shoulder to cry on...a hug to embrace...ðŸ˜.....But then poof one day our friendship broke...he broke off with me coz I started dating someone else....
2. Now comes another relationhsip...me and my boyfriend....we both started seeing each other and my best friend didn't like it...he never told me the reason...only said that I didnt tell him before starting dating someone....but you guys tell me...isnt that a petty reason to break off such deep friendship..? maybe he didnt approve of my boy friend...i dont know..
anyways my bf and I were happy i guess together...but then things started going downhill because he turned out to be an obsessive jealous type lover...who spied on me..kept tabs on me...asked me questions all the time...😡...basically made a barrier between me and my friends and other people... it was only all about him....he cursed me, abused me and with sucha heart break we broke up...but now after many months he wants to come bak to me...begs me for apologies...willing to do anything to get bak to me in his life...The problem is I dont feel the way i used to, for him anymore...All this situation reminds me of whole Nupur and Anurag situation here...where me being Anu and my ex being Nupur....😕
But I know for sure that before too, I only loved my best friend and even today (when he is not with me) I only love him...and maybe will aways do....ðŸ˜
So , I just wanted to share wtih you guys about this small part of my life with you coz i felt it pertained to tere liye as well....
I hope you guys read this and comment on it...I will really appreciate...love you all!