||Nafee's Notes|| No one to Someone Pg 16 29/11 - Page 8

Originally posted by: Rimi.Rimz

so sweet w8ing to see d creation n much more

Originally posted by: fabdesigirl

really beautiful and innocent.....

keep writing!

Originally posted by: IndigoBlues

I just hate mushy stories...but you really made my heart melt. I was blushing myself by the end yaar!!! 😆

Taani's POV:

"I'm going back tomorrow…"

Words echoed loud in my ears and it has started to dissolute deep into my heart as I lay down in my bed. Words started to mean properly as I slowly began to understand what he actually meant.

I tried to gulp down the lump which stayed adamant in the middle of my throat. I tried so hard but the result was just the tears that flooded down.

I got up feeling difficult to breath and sat down in the middle of the cozy mattress, which has now actually turned out to be a bed of thorns, hugging my knees to rid away my loneliness.

Eight years…

Not just one or two…

A whole eight years…

The period of time I lived without him. Without my husband.

It was the time of a hell in which I lost my father, our house, our shop, our everything.

Most importantly, my husband.

My husband, Anu.

Anu, Anurag.

I sighed and looked outside of the window to see an another pair of window, just opposite to my house, which was wide open viewing a gorgeous silhouette of a body sleeping peacefully.

I slowly crept up to the window and stood there taking in the whole beautiful scenario.

Sleeping there was my property, covered by a blanket up to his waist and glowing like an angel in the moon light.

Seeing him, my eyes cried out even more in anger, frustration and, thanks for adding to it, agony.

I lost him for about eight years, knew nothing about him or his whereabouts or even when he'd return.

I lived with a blind trust and I got him just yesterday and he gave me the most unforgettable gift of telling me that he's going back tomorrow from where he came.

I'm going to lose him. Again.

Chhan se jo toote koi sapna
Jag soona soona laage, jag soona soona laage…

Koi rahe na jab apna

Jag soona soona laage, jag soona soona hai toh

Yeh kyun hota hai

Jab yeh dil rota hai

Roye sisak sisak ke hawein, jag soona laage

When I saw him, I actually saw my world working again from where they left stunned. And now, it's again going to be stopped in like a pause mode. Everything is going to be like the same of that in these years.

I felt the extend of loneliness all these years with no one left for me. That includes my father, my home, my shop, my whole world. But you top the most.

The world without you was almost a hell to live in. I hated the air which seemed to be emptier without your smell in it.

When you came again I thought now I have everything I wished for. But when you told me the last thing which I want to hear, well, I lost all the hope and my world went back to its emptiness.

There's a little change in that empty world. The air which filled the place told me all the time that one day you'll be back as mine. But now it's all dead and even that air won't be with me to feed me some strength.

That brought another sharp piercing pain in my body as I slid down to the floor and cried loud.

Roothi roothi saari raatein

Pheeke pheeke saare din

Veerani si veerani hai tanhaai si tanhaai hai

Aur ek hum hain pyar ke bin har palchin

My nights were cold like freezing and its moistness reminded me of my tears that I'd shed these years.

The pain of sleeping alone with no one to embrace was maddening as I thought of you every moment.

The days were blank with no joy, no anticipation, and no excitement but there was a little hope at every morning and disappointment at every night.

I was completely isolated with loneliness. There were no one to drive away the incompleteness I felt without you or may be should I say that I've never allowed anyone to?

I again stood up to see my angel whose face was filled with so much peace and medicine to cure my pain.

The thought of losing you again frightened me to its core as I felt my hands trembling. Now I have to compete with the real world all over again without you.

Chhan se jo toote koi sapna

Jag soona soona laage, jag soona soona laage
Koi rahe na jab apna
Jag soona soona laage, jag soona soona hai toh

The imagination and love of these eight years were not that paining.

But the trust I built since I saw you yesterday pained most when I thought that it is not going to come true.

This world is definitely an empty place when there's no love left.

Especially, when you're not left.

Patharon ki is nagari mein
Pathar chehre, pathar dil

Phirta hai maara maara kyun raahon mein tu awaara

Yahan na hoga kuch haasil, mere dil

I saw Ananya, Ritesh and Shekhar walking down the stairs with frowning faces. When there's no love or kindness left, not only peoples' mind changes, but also their faces.

I remembered how much anger I had when shekhar would scold or shout at Anurag.

But what I fear the most now is, are you also going to be one of those people? How can you tell me that you're going back after seeing me?

You are not the same Anurag who left me with so much pain and love for me in heart.

I saw those longing eyes which pulled me to you when you left me. You are not the same anymore. Those eyes are not yours anymore too.

My heart would never get what it dreamt to have. Not now, not tomorrow, forever. I lost all the hopes as you blurted out those to me.

Sobs racked my body as I saw you again and again.

Chhan se jo toote koi sapna

Jag soona soona laage, jag soona soona laage

Koi rahe na jab apna
Jag soona soona laage, jag soona soona laage re

Soona…. laage re more…

Everything seems to reach its end.

My dream, my hope, my love, my space, my… everything.

It's going to meet its deadline tomorrow when your shadow leaves the place.

I felt like the darkness getting ready to occupy its place tomorrow.

I felt the thought unbearable and indigestible. How I'm going to handle things again was beyond my knowledge and I felt as if I'm going to face it for the first time.

How did you give me that strength in just one day, Anurag?

Making me even worse and weak to handle things.

If love was only to be taken aback, why it has to be provided first of all?

I decided to stay there till dawn seeing your most divine filled face.

The fear I felt when I felt that I'm forgetting your face was much more hurting. So, I would take in your face as much as I could. So that, I can live with that till my last breath.

I rested my head on the pane and stayed there till morning absorbing all your sweetness and heavenly figure.

The more I deposited you in my heart, the more it killed me. But I'm not going to bother at all.

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The day stared to break and I left to the temple before Anurag woke up.

I spent an hour in the temple groveling and wallowing up like a child standing stubborn for its toy. I prayed that at least he stays healthy and happy even if he's not made for me.

I lost the track of time in the temple and when I saw the clock, it struck me that I'm getting late and Anurag might leave anytime.

I rushed out of the temple and stormed in the direction of our house. I walked as fast as I could and was stunned to see a car halting very close to me blocking my way further.

I looked in confusion and let out a sigh of relief as I realized it was only Anurag who got ready to go to the airport.

"Where were you, taani? I searched for you in the house. Moully told me you were to the temple", he took the offering sweet of the temple from the plate and took a bite from it.

My heart jumped when he said he searched for me. But the next moment itself it went off like a balloon that was pierced with a sharp pin.

I smiled weakly at how he will be no more with me.

I took the sacred color powder from the plate and drew a small streak in his forehead with it.

"What's this?" he pointed to the streak in his forehead.

"You've been to America only when you were 15. Don't say you forgot all these", I don't know why but a glimpse of anger passed in that comment.

Just because he forgot me all along with all that left in this country? I don't know.

"I know that", he hit my head gently, "I mean, for what?"

I looked into his eyes and with a sad smile, I replied, "For your safe journey and happy life, until you come back".

I couldn't ignore that hope that told me one day he'll be back to take me again.

He suddenly took a pinch of the sacred powder and drew a stripe in my forehead too. I was left with no breath to exhale as he just did that.

"What did you just do?" I asked completely confused with what he was doing.

"When you wanted me to have a safe journey, I wanted you to have the same too", he leaned on to the car and looked straight in to my eyes. His gaze bored into mine as I shook my head hesitantly with so much confusion. He slowly took my hands in his and still looking at my hands he told something which knocked the air out of my system completely.

"I mean, we both should have a safe journey. That also means that you're coming with me".

My jaw dropped, not literally, not believing what came out of his mouth.

I hate to admit but again there was a lump in my throat I felt real hard to swallow.

Tears slowly took over control and started to sped down my cheeks.

He pulled me to him as I hit his chest hard.

He hugged me tight and whispered into my ears, "How could you think that I'll leave you, Taani? I was like a dead body all these years. When I learnt that you were also like me, there were no words left to say my love". He pulled me from his chest and still holding my shoulders, he continued, "I thought it's not important to say anything but I'll show you. I'll show you how much I have in store for you. What I have for you can never be valued with money. Only your heart can see its worth."

He smiled kindly with so much love and his eyes twinkled.

As I looked into his eyes, I realized something.

The eyes of my old Anurag was still the same and nothing new left.

OK, that was it. 😳 I had no idea why I ended it that way. Maybe my expectation that he should not leave her alone? 😆 But I must mention one thing. When I wrote it I felt the same feel I experienced when Kis Desh ended. I should say it is more for Harshad rather than Anurag. 😳 Love you, Harshad, and welcome back!

Love,

Nafee.

Originally posted by: IndigoBlues

oy hoy, final year and all?? Hope you graduate with flying colours. 😃 and have a niicce time in singapore.

The ending was mindblowing! 👏 You're going to make me more lovesick for Harshiya and anu then I already am. 😛

Originally posted by: azfee

<font size="3"><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif">Thank you so much for your wishes...😳
This shows how it is to have people for us... 😊</font></font>
<font size="3"><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif">Thanks and I'm glad you liked it.
Esp, I thought of you for a second before posting it. Your comment about mushy shots made me a little feverish. 😆
But I was so much surprised to see you commenting first. Thanks again. 😳
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