||Nafee's Notes|| No one to Someone Pg 16 29/11 - Page 6

Originally posted by: -vandy-

why do u feel uneasy?😕

Originally posted by: -vandy-

no nafee...i do not mind..

there r many who call me by my name!

Taani's POV:

I dipped my face into my knees, sitting on my bed. After few seconds, I felt myself getting restless and got down from the bed.

I took a step to the door, stopped myself from going and walked opposite to the door. To my window.

I stared at the full moon that was shining more than a sun. Moon was the only thing that wrapped me, pampered me, and gave me warmth whenever I felt lonely and miserable.

Today I was in such a state and to hell with it, I just don't want myself to be. I've never felt this way all these days and today I'm feeling to the extend of bashing my head to the wall.

I felt ashamed of myself to think about someone whose engagement is going on in the downstairs. I just don't want to be there and it resulted on me staying back at my room.

I know I won't have the strength to take it, to behold it. I let out sighs hoping it would calm myself and release me from the grip that was strangling me.

"You both were not meant to be", I told myself in a convincing manner. "He's going to marry a girl who was chosen by his parents. Just stop thinking that you missed something". I continued to advise my mind, "Just go down and try to be normal. At least to show your gratitude to his parents."

I huffed in pain. How that would be possible? Won't it hurt like hell? That owner of those coolest eyes would be engaged to someone. Seeing that will definitely hurt. No way am I going down. I shall tell them later that I was sick.

I continued gazing the moon and vaguely remembered that was happening around me.

I'm not sure after how much time I felt it. But felt someone behind me. I snapped myself and turned my head almost in a reflex to be stared.

The continuous seeing of moon light blurred my vision and I felt difficult to see who was in front of me at the dim light of my room. Slowly fear gripped.

I squinted my eyes and tried to figure out. May be Ananya in search of me.

I was wrong.

The figure stepped forward and the whole figure step by step turned to come in clarity. I felt like air was knocked out of my body.

Anurag.

My head spun at the moment. What was he doing her and I asked the same.

"Anu… Anurag, what are you doing here?" My voice stammered in fear and uncertainty.

"I think that's my dialogue. What are you doing here?" he emphasized on 'you' and looked straight into my eyes. And he had come so close that he doesn't have to ask in normal voice. Just whispering would be enough.

"I... I was just… felt sick. Yeah, sick…", I haven't completed the sentence and he quickly responded.

"Let's go to the doctor. Come", He grabbed my hand.

I pulled my hand back and yelled, "Don't act smart. What are you doing here? People must be looking for you. Just go!"

"I don't want to be at a place where I don't want to be." His voice was too determined and I felt myself going dumb.

"Not want to? Are you kidding? Where do you want to be at your engagement? At my room?" I was sarcastic and that was visible enough.

He looked at me intently with his hands shoved into his pocket. "I'll be there if you stay there".

I frowned at him with anger boiling inside my anatomy. "Me? Does that anywhere makes sense? Why should I be there at your engagement?"

"You. Should. Be. There. If not I won't be there too", he was stubborn enough and I knew it.

I glared at him with my nose flaring in anger. He was the reason to my restlessness few minutes ago.

He proposed me a few days ago and remained silent after I refused. Later, he somehow learnt that I'm also having a soft corner for him and that is when he started his attempts of forcing me to agree with his love.

His parents had joined me in their family after my parents passed away few years before. They have been taking care of me since then and how am I supposed to show them my thanks? By making his son fall in my trap like everyone would say? By making him oppose their parents' choice? No way!

I averted my eyes from him and turned to the window again. "I'm not coming."

"Then I'm not going too", he lay on my bed and that made me mad even more.

"Just get out of my room, Anurag", I pointed to the door and said sternly.

He shook his head and turned to his side and closed his eyes, "not without you".

"I'm not coming, and I'm of no importance as it is your engagement and not our—", I cut myself off and tried to gulp down that damn lump on my throat. "Just go" that was all I managed to say after that.

He woke up and walked towards me. I stood there where I was standing but he continued to walk and that made me step back. I walked back not wanting to fall for him. But I know I'd fail.

I moved back to be bumped on the wall and that stopped me from moving further. He stood very close to me that the breath from his nose made contact with my eyelashes.

He cornered me by keeping his one hand on the wall and the other hand shoved in his pocket.

I controlled myself from seeing his eyes and I knew how much power it has to make me feel weak. But from my corner of the eyes, I noticed his every movement.

He took his hand from his pocket, trailed it from my forehead and brought his face closer to mine, which made me turn the other side ignoring his hand.

That should have made him angry. He pulled my jaw towards his face and stared into my eyes.

I squirmed lightly, yes, lightly, I can't ignore him like that. Though I refuse to admit, I know deep in my heart that I love him. I love him a lot.

He held me tight from releasing myself and without any rush, he planted a kiss on my forehead. I stopped my effort of releasing myself from him and just closed my eyes with the pain of losing him.

My heart and mind felt heavy and I almost lost my composure and my knees went weak.

His hands entwined around my waist and my hands held his shirt collar tight.

He nuzzled from my forehead and slowly brought his nose down. I was all lost and I kept my forehead on his nose and we stood there taking in all the agony.

Since I stepped into this house, I felt like someone watching me all the time. That I felt everything, he easily got into my mind and heart. Now, I'm suffering for that. Not able to leave him and not able to face his parents.

He cupped my face and my heart slammed the rib, when I thought of what is going to happen next.

My physique started to rise and fall in fear and I kept my hands on his chest and tried to move him away gently. But he was too strong and I couldn't able to move him an inch.

He continued to lean down and I forcefully pushed him and released myself.

"Anurag, this hurts." Tears began to fall quickly, "we can digest this soon once you get married to someone. But living together with guilt will hurt like hell. We both can't be happy." I sobbed unable to control.

"Why'd you think like that? My parents are very understandable", he kept his hand on my shoulder and tried to hug me.

I took his hands off from my shoulder and with great difficult I managed to blurt, "Please go down".

He shook his head, "Whatever you say, not without you, Taani".

I let out a sigh annoyed and wiped my tears, "I'll come. You go first".

He looked doubted.

"I promise. I'll be there. First you go and I'll come after few minutes. I don't want people to doubt us." I convinced him.

"One day you'll definitely feel like me, Taani. You don't know what you're missing. That time we both will be unable to do anything".

Tear escaped from his eyes and he rushed out wiping his tears. I closed my eyes tightly and leaned my head back on the wall.

After sometime, regaining my composure, I scrolled downstairs.

In my midway to the floor, I looked around for him.

He stood there with his gang of friends and looked at me. That look, a mixture of frown, pain, love, hate, etc. ate me up and I myself found hard to be normal.

I proceeded and stood with Ananya who stood there without someone to give company.

"Hi", she exclaimed.

"Hi", I muttered back.

"Where have you been? I was searching for you", She asked.

"Um, I was in my room. I felt sick and thought of lying down sometime", I replied and again looked at where Anurag was standing.

He was still looking at me, intently. God, I should hide myself somewhere. If he stares me like this and if anyone finds it out, it's hard to imagine what would happen!

I looked around for Neha, who is going to be engaged to Anurag in sometime.

And there she was, with luxurious suits on her body that exposed her skin so much and she never seemed to care that. Neha is a nice person to be friends with and sure is pretty than other girls present in the party. But she is not the best character that matches Anurag's. Anurag is a perfect guy and Neha is certainly not made for him.

I again looked at Anurag to be stared in return. I quickly averted.

"Good evening everybody…", a voice boomed in speakers.

We all looked at the direction where the it came from and it continued. It was Anurag's father's voice. Time to announce the engagement? I lost all my leftover hope.

"Ladies and Gentlemen, I welcome you one and all. As a father, I'm feeling very happy to announce that my dearest son, Anurag, is…" he continued to announce and my ears went deaf that I was totally unaware of what he was saying further.

My head again started to spin just like when I was in my room. I held the banister tight to stop myself from falling.

To add to my frustration, the DJ played the 'Kisna theme'. This damn music always makes me feel worst to think of the fact that I'm losing him.

"… my son will bring his girl to the stage now!" Uncle finished announcing.

Without having anymore air to breath I turned around to climb the stairs before he could see me.

I felt a tug in my arm and I turned to say Ananya that I'm leaving because I'm not feeling well.

But the sight left me totally dead.

Anurag was holding my arm and his hand sloped down to hold my hand. The smirking smile was stuck in his face and people around was cheering in loud voice.

Before I could realize what was going on, he took me to the stage and slipped the engagement band in my fingers and waited for me to slip the other in his finger.

I looked at him unbelievably and he blinked slowly that assured me everything was going fine. I slipped the band and my poor pale face failed to pull out a smile.

Soon, the family members surrounded us and congratulated. When his parents came near, my eyes automatically started to flow and I bent down to touch their feet. They've given me so much. Now, Anurag.

Time passed and guests started to leave. Confusions were still occupied and I waited for the time to speak with him. To talk about how he managed and what is with Neha.

I excused myself finally after everyone left. I rushed to my room and I know he would follow me.

Tap. Tap. Tap.

My door was knocked and I got up from my bed to get the door. I opened the door and pulled Anurag inside.

"Anurag!" I almost yelled.

"Yes!" he retorted.

"How… When did… Neha?" I stammered not knowing what to ask.

"Does that makes any sense?" he replayed my dialogue what I asked him before and it made me roll my eyes.

He came closer and tried to catch me. But I crouched and escaped from his bear hug.

"Shut up and tell me what you did!"

"First, a kiss", he again strode towards me and twirled me holding my waist and I landed my face in his chest.

I breathed heavily and my cheeks blushed furiously. "First, tell me what happened"

He held my chin and made me look into his eyes.

"They always knew that I love you. They also wanted to do something for you and were happy to know it. They were just waiting for your approval. I told them that you do but they refused that they want proper agreement from you" He inched closer and continued, "I convinced them, assured them and made these arrangements. They were nervously waiting and when you showed no denial, they were happy. In fact, though I was sure, I let out a breath only after you slipped the band in my fingers!"

"And Neha?"

" Neha? Where Neha did came from? She is just a friend and nobody mentioned her to be the bride. You were so dumb that you didn't realize what Neha is to me", he teased.

I gazed his eyes and suddenly hugged him tight. He was elated and he hugged me back. He cradled my face and leaned down to pour out all his love into my system.

Now, no more losing of Anurag. No more pain of losing him. Only happiness, that too from him. From whom I wanted to have…

*Runs and hides* How was it? Hoping to get some words from you. 😳

Cheers,

Nafee.

So Nafee here I am....so my favourite parts as usual
#What will be a grown up man's feelings when a girl he married on his childhood days shows up suddenly after years.
What if he learns that I'm still alone? Will he feel guilty?
#I looked up at her and tears streamed down. "They are no more".
Aww..that was sad...
#I took a deep breath few times, controlled myself from doing anything stupid if he was at the house. I must act as if I never cared him being around.
This was good.The real Taani like attitude..
#The same voice that called my name, thousand times a day
I held my tears back and slowly turned.
There stood the Lord.
Anurag. My Anurag.
My most favourite moment of the story were the lines above...surely Taani's Lord.The Greek God
#He was baffled and without caring about anything, he stared at me with eyes that were ready to spill.
Reminds me of Harshad's eyes Nafee...the killer looks...
#She went on and on and I imagined everything she said and that resulted in tearing my heart into pieces. I've seen Anurag as a very feisty person. But imagining him the other way definitely ripped me off.
Breath-taking lines...the pain n anguish beautifully crafted
#The result is that we both wasted years thinking we are not meant to be together. But the truth is not that.
We are meant to be together.
We are.
I looked far away and there was a light of hope. Rising from a corner that has the ability to fill my life. Anurag's life.
Our life.
The Climax was wonderful .....I hope something like this turns around in the show as well...I mean the last lines...*Bows down*
I initially had this weird notion that you might show Anurag in an asylum...but I am glad it wasn't so....
This OS was a really practical one....Especially from Taani's point of view.The Complexity of Love has been wonderfully simplified.And that take on Love n Liking was worth reading a million times.The OS begins on a sad note....but the way you have ended it leaves the readers on a high note....
I want to tell you...reading this one was like riding on a wave....you are well versed with understanding what a girl in love can feel...Awsum is the word for it....
Keep going....👏

Originally posted by: aishwaryagayen

tht was fantasticcc (*bows*)i mean awww m still groovingg (oh, you do?😆)i meann ahh i loved this trickyy premm nafeee (Me too 😉)i m fallinf in love withh ur premm (no. he's mine. I was planning to ask you to change your siggy msg! 😆)hahaha
ohh godd ohh sorry lol i mentioned prem i mean anuragg u know harshad ko prem prem karke aadat hi ho gayiii hai (hahaha, here, I want to hug you for identifying Prem who was hidden behind Anu. I wrote this with Prem in my mind and you got it easily. May be some waves between us? 😲😆)
ayee so heer (Taani to be accurate! 😆) isss madd and tenseddd bcz anu is marrrying nehaaa hayeeeee but nehaa isnt marrying i mean engaign anu tht was a trick to make her confess (yeah... I thought that the whole surprise sounds too dramatic and comedy! 😆)
u wrote the physical awareness for each other so welll ahhh (I first blushed then it clicked out nicely... first try though! 😃)
okk my goodness i loved tht anu holding taanis handdd when he is gonna go toooo the stageee ayyee hayeeee i m justtt loving the way u wrote (Thanks 😳)
this logic less thing was better i mean best thn ur logicss ahahaha (Hahaha, that sounds very convincing!)
luv (luv you too)
aishu

Originally posted by: NIMMY

awesome

Originally posted by: Keanufan

So Nafee here I am....(welcome 😊) so my favourite parts as usual (you know why I like you 😉)
#What will be a grown up man's feelings when a girl he married on his childhood days shows up suddenly after years.
What if he learns that I'm still alone? Will he feel guilty?
#I looked up at her and tears streamed down. "They are no more".
Aww..that was sad... (That was? sorry.. 😭 )
#I took a deep breath few times, controlled myself from doing anything stupid if he was at the house. I must act as if I never cared him being around.
This was good.The real Taani like attitude.. (you know I haven't watched the show yet. So, it was all my guess 😆)
#The same voice that called my name, thousand times a day
I held my tears back and slowly turned.
There stood the Lord.
Anurag. My Anurag.
My most favourite moment of the story were the lines above...surely Taani's Lord.The Greek God (😊 Harshad rocks baby!)
#He was baffled and without caring about anything, he stared at me with eyes that were ready to spill.
Reminds me of Harshad's eyes Nafee...the killer looks... (I always write with Harshad in my mind)
#She went on and on and I imagined everything she said and that resulted in tearing my heart into pieces. I've seen Anurag as a very feisty person. But imagining him the other way definitely ripped me off.
Breath-taking lines...the pain n anguish beautifully crafted (Thanks 😊)
#The result is that we both wasted years thinking we are not meant to be together. But the truth is not that.
We are meant to be together.
We are.
I looked far away and there was a light of hope. Rising from a corner that has the ability to fill my life. Anurag's life.
Our life.
The Climax was wonderful .....I hope something like this turns around in the show as well...I mean the last lines...*Bows down* (hey, seriously thank u guys so much. Never thought I get so much response!)
I initially had this weird notion that you might show Anurag in an asylum...but I am glad it wasn't so.... (I always hate to combine what is actually happening in the real show 😊. We should knit different concept right, so that readers will find it new. 😊)This OS was a really practical one.... (Thanks, I was scared because it might turn dramatic!) Especially from Taani's point of view.The Complexity of Love has been wonderfully simplified.And that take on Love n Liking was worth reading a million times. (*blushes furiously* Thank you...) The OS begins on a sad note....but the way you have ended it leaves the readers on a high note.... (yea, you know how much I'll feel if it ends tragic! 😆)
I want to tell you...reading this one was like riding on a wave....you are well versed with understanding what a girl in love can feel...Awsum is the word for it....
Keep going....👏 (Thank you so much and it was all your encouragement... I nowadays liking to write much and it gave me soo many wonderful friends like you! I'm forever grateful to Allah for giving such nice friends 😊 Thanks for your time...)