BAARISH (tie changed from PLAYBOY) chapter10@pg12 - Page 3

Playboy Part-3

~ She was a story he wished to live rather than write. He was the line she wished could be erased from the book of her life.~

Swara POV-

As soon as Sanskaar left, I took a sigh of relief. I glanced at dida. She turned to me.

Sw- Dida yeh kisko bulaya tha. Am I a burden on u?

My voice chocked. Why not? Sanskaar idk he might be a good human but how to tell that in first meeting. He was soft spoken but again it's just our first meeting. He has an almost kid and he .. he is lame. He can't ever walk properly. I told Dida I don't want to meet him. But she said I should once meet him.

Shobha- swara beta do u trust me?

I nodded. She caressed my cheek and we reached my room she let me rest.

Shobha- Listen Shona don't judge a book by it's cover. He might be lame but u see he is hardworking. He works day and night for his friend and his daughter Syra. U know what he could have just walked away from their responsibility. He isn't having anything as for now yet he is giving so much for those who aren't his own family. People don't do this even for their own family. Just think about it how much will he love u and care about u. U will be his wife. Babu I am 80 years and I can just read a person's eyes. His eyes dripped honesty, trust me u be with him in his bad days and he won't forget u in his good ones. He will soon be the man of one's dreams.

I didn't know what she was saying. I hugged her.

Sw- Dida is it important to marry this soon

Shobha- If ur mother and father were alive then I would have never asked I to marry soon but u see u r my responsibility idk how many more days I have. Before something happens to me I want to see u with a R8 guy.

Sw- (wet voice) Don't say like this.

Shobha- betu it's true.

My eyes filled with moisture. I embraced dida tightly.

Sw- so u think Sanskaar is R8

Shobha- yes

Sw- okay then I will marry him.

I agreed to Dida. I had to I love Dida. What she says is always true. I have faith on Dida and hence I agreed for this alliance. I will try to accept Sanskaar. Idk how much time I will need but I will try to accept him.

Sw- Par Dida did u see how lean and thin he is. SAB mujhe moti kahenge.

Shobha- it means he is waiting for u.

Sw- MATLAB.

I frowned.

Shobha- it means he needs u and ur care in his life. See he lost weight in ur love.

Sw- Shut up Dida.

I embraced her again.

Sanskaar POV-

"What the .. " Madhav shouted.

Madhav- Sanskaar u .. u know what in all my life I have never seen a jerk like u. U r marrying a girl yet u will work here like this.

Sa- U don't interfere in my life.

Madhav- yes u go and spoil that girl's life n I sit quite. If u have forgotten then should I tell u who u r. Han. What if she commits suicide after knowing she had been married to u. Have u ever thought??

He actually brought me back to the reality. I collected my money and began to think. Yes I got selfish. I was all set to ruin her life. Tommorow is our ring ceremony. I think I should stop this all here n now. I reached home. Syra was sleeping. I did know how will she react. I sat there and stayed silent. I couldn't sleep the whole night. I caressed Swara's photo. Just the thought of Lossing her and tears welled up in my eyes. Two months and I was perhaps smiling all the time. I had fallen in love. Something I don't deserve. The peace of mind was going again.

One mind says let her go, she will feel bad but her life will be better with a deserving man. The other said be the man who deserves her. I know the second one wasn't easy. I knew the second one was painful for both of us but it's destination was her. She my dream, my love, my peace. I followed my mind driven by my heart.

She will be with me this thought made me smile. I pecked her photograph and slept clutching it close. It is slowly becoming my habbit. I am waiting for the day I can actually hold her this close.

We exchanged rings. I smiled so did she. Syra was clapping. Swara moved to her n brought her near to the sofa.

Sw- Syra

Syra- yes mom

Sw- I want to give u something.

Syra- what?

She slided a little sing in her finger.

Sw-From today I am ur almost mother but from today will u be my daughter for everforth.

She embraced her.

Syra- I love you Mumma. I love u so much.

Swara responded to her n feed her sweets.

Syra- mom u know Chachi says a mom is a blessing no one can replace and I am blessed to have u.

She smiled.

All the time in the village Syra was with Swara. I was busy admiring two most important people in my life.

Later when she slept I held Swara's hand.

Sa- Thank u so much for accepting Syra

Sw- Sanskaar I am trying to accept things. I need to I suppose.

Sa- thank you so much Swara.

I wanted to say more but then simply pecked Syra's forehead. I was getting up, Swara helped me. I felt happy. I was lifting Syra but she stopped me.

Sw- Sanskaar wait I will hold her.

I nodded. She and I we both moved out slowly. She lowered her speed to stay with me. She handed Syra over to Laksh. We sat back in the taxi and left.

We were going back. I was happy infact very happy. The only thing I feared is losing my happiness.

Swara POV-

He left. I looked at the ring on my hand and then at dida. She was smiling. I held back my tears. We moved in. I moved to my room and lashed it. My knees felt weak. I fell on my bed. Tears were escaping my eyes. I was marrying sanskaar for Dida and her happiness.

All the ladies here have been taunting me. They keep on saying stuffs to me like I have some problem with me or y would I be married to a lame man. Dida kept on ignoring them and she says I won't find a husband like him ever in my life. I am hurt. What sin I have committed to get married to him. I liked Syra but not sanskaar. I am trying to accept him but couldn't. He has an almost daughter. Today Dida asked me to give a ring to Syra. I did it for her happiness. Syra is cute is so sweet. I felt like heaven when she called me mom. I was on the 9th cloud. Sanskaar he seems good as a human. The only thing that is pearcing my heart is what people are saying to me. They say I must have a boyfriend who left me or my alliance must have been broken. I let my tears flow. Today too when I went to temple. People were talking about me and Sanskaar. Girls laughed at me. They taunted and made fun of our relationship. Somewhere I felt hurt not because of them teasing me but because they dragged Sanskaar into it. Whatever he is as Dida says and I too feel he is a good and noble man he must not be made fun of. I wiped my tears after crying for a while. I sat silently in my room thinking about sanskaar. I think I am getting too selfish for no reason. I don't know him yet. I actually want to give him a chance. The only thing is it takes guts to do so. Dida says I should be his angel in his struggle and then I will be his Queen in his best times.

I am confused. In short a bit sad perhaps. No girl would wish to marry a person like Sanskaar. But I respect and trust Dida the most and just for her I will jump into this nightmare.

Sanskaar POV-

2 weeks Later

Time passed in a blink of eye. I was forced to continue with my 'work'. It broke me into several small peices. I know I had no other job and after so much of Defamation I won't get any job in this city. I am dressing up as a groom but only my fear is taking over my mind. Will I be able to be the man of her dreams. Perhaps I was the man of her dreams, Alas, I was a nightmare. The worst and darkest. I wore my turban and smiled but I knew I was betraying an innocent soul for a very selfish reason. My reason. I had been thinking since long, I didn't tell Laksh but I have decided to tell her my truth later or sooner. I know she will leave me n Syra but my mind agrees and hopes for the little possibility of her being around me. That possibility of her accepting me. I know I have too high hopes but kya karun Dil h k maanta nahi.

I reached her place. I was feeling guilty and happy at the same time. I was finally married to her with all rituals. She was crying on her dida's shoulder. I could sense her pain. We soon sat in the car and left. I tried holding her hand but she was hesitant. I sat back. Syra had already slept and was with Ragini. We reached my place. Ragini welcomed Swara and then we were left alone. She brought milk and was on the bed Waiting for me. I entered the room. I lifted her veil. She was nervous. I wanted to peck her forehead but then resisted myself. I had decided I won't touch her untill she knows my truth and accepts it.

Sa-swara

Sw- j.. ji.

Sa- u might be tired u can sleep.

She looked at me in astonishment and perhaps a little disappointment but then she covered up and smiled. She rested on the right side and I went to the left. I turned my back to her and slept. Atleast pretended to. I know this won't work for long. There would be a time I would require to disclose the truth. She will come to know everything. I just have the happiness of her mere presence till then.

Swara POV-

I am trying to sleep. Alas, tears are filling my eyes again and again. First I am missing Dida. Second is Sanskaar. I didn't know what is this. People were all the way laughing at us. They said this marriage won't work. I decided to be loyal to him. I thought to be with him. Afterall he is my husband but he seems unaffected. He seemed happy before our marriage but today he is sleeping by turning his back to me. Even if I don't like him atleast I am giving a honest try to make our relationship work.No I didn't expect any intimacy today. But atleast we could have talked. We could have been resting in eachother's arms. We r lying here on this bed like strangers. It hurts. I thought we would be trying to accept this relationship. Idk where it is going.

I brushed up my thoughts and woke up. He turned to me.

Sa- Do u need anything.

Sw- No just this dress is too heavy.

Sa- Oh okay. U go and change. Infact I wish to change.

Sw- okay u go first.

Sa- No u go.

I nodded and left. I could see his phone buzz. His face turned pale when he saw it. He uncomfortably smiled at me. He held the phone but didn't lift it. I signaled him what happened. He nodded saying nothing. I smiled and left. I could hear him attend the call. He was talking in low pitched voice. The words were indeed heated. He immediately cut the call as I came to him.

He held his casuals and moved in. I was feeling fresh and light hence I was smiling but his face showed tension. He was smiling just to cover the stress up. I sat on the bed. He lashed the door of the washroom. I had an urge to check his call. I don't know if it's right or wrong but I once felt like doing that. Afterall he is my husband. I tip toed and checked his phone it was some Madhav. I let a sigh out and sat back to my side. No girl atleast or I would have killed her. Whatever he is n however he is, he is my husband, wese bhi I like him or not is my problem no one else should bother or intrude b/w us. I was satisfied now and hence I tried to sleep.

He came back I could hear the voice of his stick. He was approaching me. I could sense it. It made me nervous. I held the sheets tightly. I felt his hot breath on my face. His finger caressing my cheeks. But then he perhaps left and rested back at his place. I felt good. My opinion changed in 5 minutes. I think he is just giving me time. I felt more relived and slept peacefully.

Sanskaar POV-

I limped out of the washroom. Madhav have called me just to shout at my decision. He called me a jerk and what nots. He said I was spoiling her life for my own reasons. I know it was true. The tension and guilt was on my mind when untill when I saw her. She was sleeping or perhaps pretending. I moved to her I went too close. She was looking extremely beautiful in her pink top and black PJ pants. I wished I could kiss her. My eyes filled with moisture. I loved her but was unfortunate enough to experience this enability of expression. I couldn't express and show her how deeply I had fallen for her. I could see her lips in a little curve as I caressed her face. I felt happy. Her smile gave me solace. I moved to my side. Her back was towards me. I turned mine to her. I couldn't believe my love was with me sleeping besides me. My love was responsive to my touch. It was heavenly. I dossed off forgetting all about madhav. Just her smile captured my mind and heart. Just her smile soothed my soul.

I slept smiling. One of my most peaceful sleeps.