Baawre part 17
~ Faded ~
" Rahim says, if good people get angry with you, you should reconcile with them as many times as it happens. As you repair a pearl necklace as many times as it breaks."
Swara POV-
"Rahim says, don't allow the delicate thread of love between people to snap. If it breaks once, it cannot be mended, even if you mend it there will be a knot in it, which means there will always be some awkwardness in the relationship."
I broke that only string between me and Sanskaar. One before he and mom left us. Just the next day that girl which Sanskaar saved disclosed that he actually saved her from getting molested. I was shocked or beyond. When I had reached the point on hearings her scream I could see her shivering in front of Sanskaar. She was scared from Sanskaar. A tear drop escaped my eye. I tried several thousand times to contact him but neither he received my calls nor I received any trace of his existence near to me. He was gone that day.
He didn't even send me our divorce papers. I was an idiot to blame him, he in his own idiotic ways is punishing me. Every single day I spent roaming from places to places just in his search. I am fading away slowly. U have become a dream which doesn't seem coming true. Why r u doing this to me Sanskaar? Don't kill me like this. Pls come back. If u wish to punish me, kill me with ur silence but not with your absence. Your absence is eating me up, your absence is unbearable for me. I know you are angry at me but pls don't be angry at your little baby. Sanskaar pls come back. He needs a father, pls Sanskaar be with me when I need you the most. I know I was bad enough to leave you, to misunderstand u when I should have been with you trusting you but you don't do the same with me. Atleast don't do this with your baby. Pls...
I kept adoring his photograph for long. I was occasionally wiping the tears that have fallen over his photo. I looked up at the wall clock. It was already 5 am in the morning. I slowly got up from the floor. Last night I had slept there unknowingly my feet felt cold and stiff. I sat on the bed. Our bed. The mattress over which we had made love. Over which we had spilled alocohol. Over which we shared our untold secrets with each other. The room that had an air n essence of our love.
Soon my legs felt light. I slowly moved to the washroom and turned the shower on. My mind drifted back to the wet kisses we shared under the same shower. The way we use to fight for who will get into the shower first. The way we ended up having a shower together almost everyday. I smiled but then a tear slipped down my cheek as soon as I remembered the harsh reality. The corollary of my mistake is me alone here.
I moved out with a towel drapped around my body. I wish to re-live his teasings. The moments we spent together. The way he n I got dressed up. The way he used to nuzzle in my neck. The way I used to melt in his arms. I miss every single moment I spent with you.
"Pls come back Sanskaar!!" I wisphered.
I wore my kurta n Patiala Salwar. I slowly walked down and the only person I didn't wish to meet was Badi Maa. I let a sigh out n moved down.
Laksh POV-
I am stuck. Stuck with 2 idiots. N third is soon going to join us. My idiot brother who left us n his double idiotic wife who is crying over his absence. He had left her in between so many problems. I remember how we got control over Swara.She was whole day running around the city in search of him me and Ragini went to search her only to find her lying unconscious over a bench perhaps drunk.
We took her home but she didn't wake up for long. We could feel her body warm in fever. We called the doctor, she asked for tests. Soon we came to know that Swara was expecting a baby. Me Ragini n intact everyone was happy except for Maa. Perhaps she is still unhappy with Swara for all reasons. I was also angry at her for some time. Me n Ragini did not forgive her easily but then what could have she done. She believed what she saw. She reacted the way any normal person would have alas, for Sanskaar she was the most special. He couldn't believe that she reacted the way she did. I couldn't help it. Some things are forgiven rest needs to be forgotten. Perhaps Sanskaar needs time to forget what happened. I know that but still I feel he should now come back, Swara is Pregnant she needs him. Their baby needs his father. If not for Swara then atleast for this to be born kid Sanskaar should come back.
I sighed. Me and Ragini moved down to the dinning area. Swara came behind us in no time. She joined Ragini while serving.
Ragini- Swara you sit I will do it.
Sw- but di..
Ragini- Shh.. no more fights come and have your breakfast. After all my chotu SA Baawre is going to join us soon he is also hungry na. Come sit.
Swara smiled, her pale cheeks showed the shades of red. Ragini made her sit and served her the breakfast. I was adoring Ragini. Her smile, her care, her everything makes me fall more for her with every passing second. I was brought back to reality when Maa's harsh words bruised my ears.
AP- Let it be na Ragini. God knows even if this child is legitimately of our Sanskaar's.
Sw- Badi Maa pls.
Swara weekly requested. Her voice was breaking.
AP- Ahhh.. your husband is missing n u r expecting what else should I think. ,
Sw- Think shit but stop bitching about my baby and that's final.
AP- See this is the way girls like u talk to your elders. I told Sujata already you r not good for Sanskaar.
Sw- (cuts) I know I am the best for him. Thank you so much for the compliment.
DP- (Stirctly) Swara !!! Is this the way you talk to your elders.
Sw- Is this the way your wife speaks about an unborn child.
Swara stood up. This is the thing me and Ragini adore about her. She isn't the one who could see shit happening and stay quiet. If it's wrong, then it is and she won't tolerate a word against her loved once. She is one of those women who don't need a man except for making babies. Yet she is searching for Sanskaar because she knows he is gem she lost. Sanskaar won't ever snatch her freedom from her she knows these breeds of men is rare. She paced out and we sat there in our places masking our faces with fake anger. Afterall she needs to deeply feel that she had done really wrong.
Swara POV-
Sw- Sanskaar!! Where are you. See they taunt your baby!! They call him illegitimate. Pls come back.
I wisphered over his photo and moved out. Badi Maa always does that. She keeps taunting my baby. I hate it. She always crosses the limits. I couldn't stay there taking all the non sense.
I walked out hired a taxi to the outskirts of the city. The area remaining for me to search. I reached and began my search. I wandered here n there, searched along the markets and banks. I was cluelessly roaming here and there. My head began to spin. I sat on the bench holding my head. The sun was burning my skin. Ragini di was calling me gain and again. Irritated, tired and exhausted I rejected her call. This idiot Sanskaar had exhausted my energy. I love u, n n I am sorry, pls come back Sanskaar. I cried.
My body felt weak yet I decided I move again. I manage to walk again. The hot afternoon sun cooled down and evening approached. Ragini di had increased the number of times she called me at this hour. I did not wish to respond to them hence I kept rejecting. Then my phone buzzed she had messaged me.
"Are u safe there Swara? Where are u? Me and Laksh will come there."
I ignored it and continued to walk and ask people if they had seen this man. I pinched his face in the photograph. "Idiot" I wisphered.
My phone again buzzed. Ragini di had messaged me again. "Don't ignore if u have read tell me where u are?" I did not pay attention n walked further. His car, his appearance, he is lost completely without leaving any trace of himself. We have checked all of our farm houses he is no where. Just lost or rather gone. Tears escaped my eyes. The Police refused to file any missing reports because he has willing left me.
"Are u replying or shall we trace you with the police??" Do messaged again.
I sighed.
"Safe. I am okay. U don't need to come I will come back myself. " I replied
"Nope tell me where are u" she again texted
"I won't" I texted back.
"Y" she quizzed.
"I don't know myself exactly" I finally replied.
"Turn on ur GPS n stay" she finally replied n I followed.
I rested myself on a bench. He doesn't care. I thought but I could hear loud music near by. Two lanes later I found a night club. I went in. My mind was filled with anger and irritation. I ordered a drink. I was about to sip it when I felt a grip over my hand it was Ragini di.
R- Are u insane?? What are you doing?
Sw- Yes I am!!! When he doesn't care about me or baby I will not.
I began pulling the glass to my mouth do n jiju somehow they took it away , but then blackout. Idk what happened.
Edited by harshitaloomba1 - 8 years ago
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