Swasan FF: Childhood Lovers[Chapter-8 updated] - Page 12

Sanskaar POV

Why? Why this have to be so difficult? Can't it be simple like they show in movies and novels? Why it isn't easy to hate her! Why after so much happening why can't I start to hate her? Why the hell I still have the bloody those feelings for her! I kicked the chair which was in the lawn, alone and lonely! The way I am! Damn it! How can I be weak in front of her?! How did my walls shatter down in front of her!

Breath in. Breath out. Sanskaar you are here for your buddy, brother not for her.

Don't act too smart! You still love her and accept the fact you, dumb head! Here it is again. The least voice I wanted to hear it right now! Shut the hell up you bloody heart, I retorted.

"You need this right now!" the voice said handing me over a beer bottle. I turned around to see the source of the voice and I was shock, that should be an understatement because I am more than shock to see the person in front of me! The nerve of this guy to stand in front of me after whatever happened between us. I quickly replaced my shock reaction into a smirk and he looked confused.

"Keep that to yourself, I could have one for myself!" I said venom lacing my tone

"I was just trying to help you! Nothing will happen if you just kick a chair!" he replied back with a smirk. Can I punch his face to erase the smirk off! Calm down Sanskaar! Do you really want to break into fight with this bas***d and moreover spoil the function! No way buddy! If you want to get on nerves, then I will get upon you let's see who starts this fighting!

"I can help myself! I really don't want any help at least not from you, Sahil!"

"You haven't changed a bit, did you?" he asked back

"I like to be the way I am" I smiled at him sarcastically though.

"Helping-" he was cut off by the most melodious voice I have ever heard. I closed my eyes as my nerves called down just hearing her voice.

"Sahil the ceremony is going to start, and Laksh is searching for you!" She said eyeing me. And her eyes stuck upon me. I stared right deep into her eyes, I sensed the same loneliness and the hurt which I am going through. I broke the eye contact. Was I hallucinating? How could she be hurt? She wanted that and it did happen right? Or she was hurt because she couldn't hurt me more? I can't handle these thoughts anymore. I walked past her and I could sense she and Sahil was following.
Why from whole the world Laksh had to marry this girl! Couldn't he have had his eyes upon those girls who were far away from her reach or touch. And moreover that he chooses her sister?! But from the earth this sister came from?! Good way Laksh! Least accepted!

"Where the hell were you?" he hissed in anger and I mentally groaned! Why the hell he has to asked that question!

"In the lawn!" I said out and he nodded and I was thankful to god that he didn't ask any more questions, but it seems I was very quick to say thanks.

"You were neighbours?" he asked raising his brow and I mentally groaned

"No we were mafias!" I replied back and he narrowed his eyes at him

"Very funny" he replied back

"I know! And now could you please concentrate on your engagement rather than concentrating on me and my past" I said and he gave me that one of his famous looks which said, better-you-spill-out-the-beans-soon and I mentally rolled my eyes at him.

"Ladies and gentlemen can I have your attention drawn towards the dais, as the ceremony is going to start soon, thank you" Shekar uncle shouted over the Mike. Okay, I might be exaggerating yet! Though, I must say these two looked good and happy with each other! Why can't my love story be like this?! Damn it Sanskaar control your bloody thoughts! Swara brought the ring for Ragini and I had to bring the ring for Laksh! What a coincident! My eyes automatically looked at her and she looked at me back. Our eyes locked and I drowned into her. I could sense liquid gathering in her eyes and I frowned! Is she crying? We broke the contact when the applauds hit out was drums. I looked at lucky and congratulated him but for the corner of my eye I looked at her who just hugged her sister and excused herself from the crowd, hiding her tears. I know I should hate her; I know after whatever she did to me I should loathe her! But her tears make me weak. But I couldn't understand the reason she was crying? Maybe it's because her sister we will be away from her soon. Yes! That's the reason! Should I follow her or not? I frowned at myself, confused.
She needs you know. Follow her! There again! He can't shut up! My legs automatically started to walk the way she gone through. Terrace? What the hell is she doing here at this point of time? Is she still crying? Crap! Why I am so concerned about her?! You shouldn't be Sanskaar.

Accept it dimwit! You hate seeing tears in her eyes! He has to talk again!

"Tears doesn't suit you!" I said offering my handkerchief, she looked at me as if I have grown two heads! I know I have surprised her because I am also surprised from what I just spoke.