What was the moment; that one betraying moment of my life when I fell in love with you?
Was it when you looked at me with those eyes full of understanding, empathy, kindness and hurt seeing my hurt.. the day I poured my rage, my revenge, my hate at you first time?
Was it the moment you forgave me without my asking for forgiveness and told me to forgive myself and move on?
That day when I saved you from a dark force and you saved me from myself.. by just being you?
Or was it the day you stepped into my way of revenge against the ones who I thought wronged me? You saw through me, you challenged me, you heard my unspoken words, you ruined my dark plans, you made me rage... yet you made me question myself.
You made me feel your pain, you made me feel your strength, you made my revenge crazed mind to listen to my dead and buried humanity, your tears reached the broken part of my soul.
Why did I allow to you to seep into my psyche? Why did I allow you to make me forsake my dark path? What is that in you that for the first time in my life... I questioned myself. And changed my path?
Seeing you so broken and lost in that hospital why I felt so helpless yet fiercely protective of you? The day I held you in my arms to race against the time to help you win against the diabolical machinations of your sister... From a dark knight why did I appoint myself as YOUR knight?
Despite my sane and rational mind warning me otherwise why was a willing partner in all your plans; good, bad and downright illogical?
Why did I get murderously angry at my brother when he casted accusations on your character?
Why was I ready to fight with my entire family and the world to stand by you?
The one who waited for 5 years to avenge what he thought injustice to his alleged first love.. was ready to tear down your sister in 5 seconds for daring to say a word against you?
That day I realized if any one hurts you I won't wait for 5 years, 5 months, 5 days, 5 minutes not even 5 seconds... I will hunt that person down and tear him apart before you could feel that hurt.
But what was the moment that I allowed you to become such an all encompassing part of life.. so much that I failed to see where I ended and you started?
You battles... are my wars.
You pain.. Is my agony.
Your wish... Is my command.
Your smile... is my sunshine.
Your life.. My reason for living.
And No I never expected you to love me back. I could have loved you the way I did, the way I do, the way I always will... had you walked off my life and never looked back. At me.
But you stayed in my life and You loved me back. And from that day on I never asked anything of God. Never had too.
Then you were gone.
They said you will never come back.
I KNEW that you would. If I am alive here.. you must be safe somewhere. Because you are the reason of this life of mine.
I just KNEW. I could FEEL you the way I feel every fibre of my being.
I knew you would come back.
And you did.
Yet you didn't.
You are here.. yet you are not.
For you don't remember me.
You don't remember that the soul that inhabits you in mine. The heartbeat that you could hear is that of my heart beating in yours. That YOU are MINE.
Well Swara Sanskaar Maheshwari .. That's too bad.
You fell in love with me once. I bet you didn't want too. The way I never wanted too.
But you did.
At the risk of sounding arrogant I made it happen.
Oh Sod it! If this is arrogance to be it... I shall make it happen again.
I don't know the exact moment when I fell in love with you the way I did... but looking back I know one thing...
Loving was never an option for me.
Nor was it a choice.
It was my destiny.
And falling in love with me is.. YOURS.
Time to write this love story, to relive that destiny, to make this journey one more time.
Whether you want it or not. Because Swara Sanskaar Maheshwari when Sanskaar Maheshwari wants something.. He gets it.
And I don't want you.
I NEED YOU!
Like I need the next breath in my life to survive. Like the next beat of the heart. Like the next song of the soul.
I am not too poetic so I will keep it simple.
I am coming for you Princess.
Time for Prince is over.
Get ready to meet your dark knight again.
And fall in love with me one more time.
And let me love you ... One more time.
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