Beraang ( Colorless )
The sun make his entry, the room was lit by the sun rays. A women come to a photo and talk with
Two month have passed, but I cannot forget you. You are still in my mind, why you have done this to me. I've change for good, and you break me. Mudje tumse bohot pyaar karte te, lekin tum mudje sirf dokha diya. I will not forgive you Just then a women call her and she respond
Ji Maa main aathi hoon, bas just one minute , she hide the photo frame in her wardrobe. This women in none other Ragini. She turn to leave her room, but before she come down she wipes her tears. She come down, her Maa was serving her Dad. She tell her mom
Ma should I help you?
Nahi Ladoo, just sit her and take your breakfast. Have you sleep yesterday's night?
Ma.. Ha, tori si nind, but I woke up early
You can fool others but not me, do maheene ho gaye hain, bhoolane koshish ka uski. He doesn't deserve you
Yes ma, but it easy to say than do
Shekar who was just a silent spectator said
Tum to meri strong bacche hain na, you will listen to me?
Ha papa bolo?
I have a friend in America, he looked for someone to trus to help him in his work, and I tell him about you, would you mind to join his office?
Papa, I don't have a degree for that, how I could join him. Plus I don't want to leave you all. Papa I have lost my love, I don't want to lost my family
My love, you will not lost us, but if you go away from this city, you will maybe forget your past, and move on in your life. I don't want a respond immediately, take your time, then tell me
Ji papa . Ragini was lost in her thought that she didn't eat her breakfast, like always. Her family was very sad to see her condition. She leave to go upstair. Sharmita talk to Shekar
Hamara beti hamare zaroorat hai. I don't think it's a good idea to let her go
Nahi Sumi! She need to forget her past, and here she would not. Tumhari nahi dekhi, she lost her smile, she forget how to live. She has transformed her into a robot, she cried all night for that man. She doesn't sleep, har subha she talk to this man photo frame. My Laddo is not the same, she is completely broken. I cannot see my Ragini in this state. If it's not for Swara, I would have cut the ties with this family
I know, me too cannot see her in this condition, but I don't want her to go away from us, from me She cry and Sheckar was consoling her.
Bas bas, if Ragini sees you in this state, she would be very sad
Main kya karoon, I don't know what do to. On one side there is Swara, and the other side Ragini. Donno meri betiyon hai, I cannot make one happy, and let another one is sadness. What we done to God, that he was punishing my daughter. You remember how she was very happy that day, and the night she was completely shattered. Tomorrow is diwali, and we won't have our two daughters here with us
How can I forget this day. This day Ragini lost her smile, SwaRagini was separated. This day was a dark day, we have lost our daughter this day. Rahi Swara ki bare main, she is... choro said Shekar in a sad voice.
Ragini who was upstair listen all the conversation, and was sad because of her her family is suffering. She think of something and then goes to her room. She take her purse and go downstair, she talk to her parents
Ma, papa, I have to go somewhere, I will come late
Beta tum kaha jarahe ho? her mom was asking her
I cannot tell you she fake a smile, but her mom know she hided something
Ok beta, but come before night said Sheckar
Ok baba, main chalti hoon
She take a cab and tell him the address. She was very nervous because she know she would open her wound once again. The cab stop and she pay him, then goes to the entry.
Ragini bahu, app yaha? said a old man
Just Ragini kaka
Mudje maaf kardo, It's a habit.
It's ok Kaka, wo... wo I want to ask you, Swara is here?
Ji Ragini ba.. bete
I can enter?
Ji The old man open the gate and let her enter. She remember this house, she have enter here with force, and exit with a smile, and doesn't reenter here. Her tears flow down, but she wipes them, and enter the house. A servant come to her, and tell
Ragini bete tum yahaan? She scream like she has seen a ghost.
Ha main, wo main Swara ko kuch bhaat...
Ragini bah... tum ? said Anapurna with tears in her eyes
Ha woh ma, I'm sorry aunty, I've come to talk to Swara, can you please call her?
Anapurna was sad to see Ragini doesn't call her ma like she have the habit.
Ji I will call her, come with me downstair
Nahi aunty, I'm good here
Ragini tum meri baat nahi sunogi?
Aunty try to understand, I don't want to see my past. I've come here to talk to Swara, and then I will go, because someone would not appreciate me here
Anapurna understand about whom she was talking and said
You will not enter? you consider me as your aunty na? So come downstair with me. You came here after so many months, I will not let you stand here
but
No but's, you come, I will call Swara
She nod resignedly and come downstair. All the family was here, except him. she thought it's good, because she doesn't want to see him. Just then Swara come to her running, Sujata aunty scold her
Swara sabhal ko appko, in this state you should not run Ragini was shocked to hear this, and Swara was looking down
Swara tum ma bane wali hoon. It's mean, main maasi bani wali hoon? She nod and tears was flowing in both sister's face. Raging hugs Swara and tell her
I'm really happy for you Swara, like Sujatta aunty said you should not run, you are not alone now.
You sure? Saach main?
Why would I not be happy for you?
Wo I thought... choro tum yahan kaise? Ragini understand what Swara want to say and tell
Ha, I forget what I have to tell you. Tomorrow is Diwali, and I want you to come to Baadi. We can enjoy the diwali like a family. Ma and baba miss you so much, and I know it's because of me that you are away from us, so I thought to give them this gift for diwali. I want you to come tomorrow
Really? I can come tomorrow for diwali? she asked like a child
haan you can come. All of you can come
Are you sure Ragini? said Annapurna aunty
Yes, I can do that for my family. Plus Swara is pregnant, she can tell ma-baba that they will be soon nana-nani
Ragini who is back to the entry didn't see the entry of the man whom she love the most. Swara and Annapurna see that and became mute. Ragini who was talking to them was shaking Swara because, she doesn't respond her.
Swara, you heard me? what it's so important that's you look at the stair . With that she return and come face to face with Laksh. She is shocked to see him here, but think
Why I should bother, it's his home after all, he can come whenever he want." She then think
" Laksh I see you for the first time since this two months. You look as always handsome, you didn't change at all . Tears were flowing in her cheeks, she return and tell Swara
Come tomorrow, I have to go She didn't wait for Swara's respond and go. She passe nearby him, look at him for a while, then goes before she could break down before him. She want to touch him, to feel him, but she has lost this right long time ago.
After Ragini's leave, everyone was sad. Swara goes to Laksh who was still in the same place
You see, how my sister look now? You are happy to see her in pain?
Swara I...
Not a word Mr Laksh Maheswari. Because of you I lost my sister, I cannot see my family. You separate Swaragini. I will never forgive you for that. After two months she came to me, and you come. She didn't stay more than ten minutes, sirf tumhare liye ki
Swara, I didn't know that she is here. I'm sorry
Yes you didn't know. And sorry, I tired to hear your sorries. You can take them and do what you want with. Your sorries will not erase the past, will not erase you deeds. Just forget it, you have already done the sins
Chup raho Swara, Ragini too did mistake! no not mistake but sins. You don't remember what she do to you? she tried to kill you, kidnapped your mom, manipulate all people here
Yes but she changed, and she ask for forgiveness. Aur rah baat, what you call sins is love. She did all this for you and your love. Maybe you have a memory lost, but you have break your engagement with her two times. And then you... She cannot tell the next, she run to her room. All people return at they work, and let Laksh all alone with his thought
Kya main Ragini ke saath kuch galat ki hai ? No I've take the right decision He went to her room, and take the file he forgot. He remember the pain in Ragini's eyes, but brush this view of his memory.
At other side, Ragini was shopping for the Diwali. She buy many color, then she buy the necessary for the food. She wants it to be the best and memorable diwali. After that she goes to a baby shop, and buy many toys and clothing for Swara's baby. She think
I should take a neutral color, because I don't know if it would be a girl or a boy . She chose several model and bought them. In the exit, she heard someone calling her, she turn, and fake a smile. It's was her childhood neighbor, Sonia.
Oh my god Ragini tum yahan? Or iss saphed kappre? Tum vidva hoon?
Yes It's look like
What?
Choro, tum batao, where was you?
You know na Rags, when Mom decide to marry me, I have to go abroad to meet the guys, and then I fall in love with him. It's was so hurry, that I just cannot call you there. But yes, my husband is very caring, and he love me a lot. Wo I'm sorry, maybe I as to enthusiasm about my life, that ...
I'm happy that you've got the right man. I wish you stay happy all your life. I'm sorry, it's late, I've to go home. And yes happy diwali, It's was nice to see you . They go to different direction. Raging comes to her house with a lot bags. Sumi was stunned to see so much bag
Ragini bete, what it this? itna samman?
Tommorow is Diwali, so I thought
Tum thik kiya hai bete. But you could tell me , I will have come with you
It's ok ma "
Beta tum thik houn?
Yes ma, I'm perfectly fine Sumi was tears in her eyes
Why you lied to me! Cannot you just tell me no I'm not fine, I want a hug from you, I want you beside me? she cry much more
Ma, don't cry. You know I love you, you are my mom, you will always be! But I don't want to disturb you with my sorrows. You have done already to much for me, I don't want ..."
" I'm your mom, if you can share your sorrows with me, whit whom you will? Tell me?"
" Choro ma, mudje aapse rona dekne passan nahi hai"
" And I cannot see you in pain"
" You cannot take this pain away from me. The man I love the most, give me the most pain. Yes I cannot take this pain away from me, but I will try live with. Maybe, this is my punishment for my every deeds. I have lost my love and tommorow I will lost my family too. Ma you will miss me very much"
Just then Shekar, Dadi and Dada came. They was shocked they reply together
Miss?
Haan, I've decide that I will go to America
Kyon Ladoo? Tum iss ghar khush nahi ho?
Nahi Dadi, I mean yes, I'm happy here, but if I stay here I will never forget my past
Tum sahi kiya Ragini. I'm proud of you, today you make me realize that my little daughter have grow up. I will call my friend, and will book your ticket
Ok as you say baba
Ladoo, you will leave your Dadi?
You are not alone Dadi, mom, dad, dada, saab aapke pass hain, and will
and you? you will be all alone
Maybe this is what I deserve. I've my memories with me, in my heart and head
Sumi feel something fishy, why Ragini said all that. She will ask her tomorrow
Theek hai Ladoo, but don't forget to call us everyday
Of course dadi. Aap log khane shuru, main meri room jara hoon they nod
" Ladoo? Tum khana kai nahi?"
" Nahi ma, mudje bhook nahi hain" she said and go dowstairs.
" Shekar, I hope everything will be fine in her life"
" Haan Sumi, hamari bacchi would be fini away from here"
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Ragini's Room
Ragini come to her room and begin to cry. She take the photo frame in her wardrobe and talk to Laksh picture
for you I have to be apart of my family. I have already be apart from you, I lost you, all my family, my sister. Why you did this to me, why to ditched me, I have always love you, for you I would stir earth and sky. I would have do anything for you, but you give me just pain. I hate you Laksh Maheswari, I wish I never know you, my life would be better she cried all night like always, until she fall asleep.
So how was the chapter 1?
Anupamaa
