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justforlyf1

@justforlyf1

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Posted: 6 years ago

#21

Chapter 4

Days passed by i used to see radhika aunty many tmes while waiting fr lift nd v used to exchange pleasanteries . I used to see radhika aunty along vth the olderwoman dey call as dida ans der maid pammi often taking stroll over the park below .

Sometme i noticed mauli walking behind them lost n hwr thpights r n lift staring the floor r sitting n the park watching everyone around her. I ve never seen her talking to any1 other than the monosylabbe answers to her mother r grandma nt even a return wish to the watchman who never forgets to wish her goodmorning.her eyes had so much sorrow thay could penetrate thru others. Her voice was so plain that it devoid any emotion. Wats t vth her? She was an enigma fr me nd my curiosity on her increased day by day. On one such day i saw her climbing up the stairs after being informed about the mexhanical issues of the lift. She was moving n a snail pace i dnt knw yy but i just catch up on vth her pace nly o saw evyone surpassing me nd den her at the end of 2nd floor stairs i saw her holding on the rail nd sitting on the steps. She has closed her eyes nd was breathing heavily i knew smething was wrong vth her. I slowly approached her nd asked

"Are u alright"

"No i feel dizzy,cqn u call ma nd tell me to cme here"

Nd she fwded her mobile nd said the number to unlock

I called radhika aunty nd informed her about mauli meanwhile 2 ladies who were passing us stayed vth mauli giving me relief. I saw radhika aunty nd pammi rushing towards us nd i heard her being angry fr nt calling her bfr climbing stairs after know ing it is bound to happen n this stage wen her bp is high. T was clearly understood fem their talks tat mauli was expecting. Dey took her to their apartments slowly nd i left to my home qftr making sure they all reached their door safely. How can an expecting mother be so cold and distant to the world around her. How can her eyes be full of sorrows ?isnr it the best tme fr a woman. I remembered the glow on riyas face wen evr v video chatted she s n her 8th month always chirpy nd happy. I couldnt even see a small similarity vth mauli nd riya.

Tje news of mauli being pregnant was apreaded through out the flats nd i heard many speculations like she gr pregnant out f marriage,sme said she is a widow sme other suspected hwr to be a divorcee. Nd i understood that all r rrying ro find their own answers simply analysing a person deom outside. Den hw sis they analyaed me do they knw i am a widower ? I never lyked these kinds of talks i was always taught by my ma ro talk truth and even though if t hurts someone always ask fr truth never dorm our own speculation coz the hurt one gets by heaeing truth r telling truth vl nly last smtme where as lies gives hurt fr a life tme.

The next day wen i saw radhika aunty i aaked her directly nd said aboit the rumours i heard. Her answer surprised me

"Mauli is like my daughter bt nt daughter she is my daughter in law nd my son cheated her vth her best friend hence i disowned him nd left the city vth dida along mauli to start life afresh"

I always had immense respect fr the lady nfrnt f me her age, the way she spoke to others evythng reminded me f my mother. Nw the respect i had n my mind grew much more after hearing that mauli s her daughter n law. She stood by her evn wen she had to go against her nly son. I knew evn mt ma would ve done the same f she was t her place.

This small family made me a psycologist nd maylu my subject the deeper i noticed them the deeper i gt confused. Wat would ve been the cause fr maulis marriage to fail. How could her own friend cheat her. Was she a bad wife nd bad friend if so den how could radhika ma support her lyk this. How she nd dida went to such an extend to leave the city they lived n suxh an age nd also to disown their own child for her. F ts fr the child der was always option fr legal procedures.

And the bond mauli and radhika aunty shared was somethng beyond every other relatn i vnt seen such a bond even between riya and mom.

Time pased by after 1nd half months i received new f me becoming uncle to a cute little boy. I saw hum through video chat i was so happy nd wanted to share t cth someone i bought lots f sweets nd distributed at office nd bought smeother sweets to home and reached radhika auntys home. aftr the revealation me nd radhika aunty grew close. I shared abt my life to aunty. She was a good listener unlike many she didnt try to advice abt moving on or showed sympathy. She nly said

"wen smethng bad happens to us we always feels yyy t happened to nly us but ts nly because v r nt opening our eyes to see the lives around us. I always felt yy i haf to raise my son alone bt see mauli had to face mre than me bcz f my son tself my pain s nothng nfrnt f her. "

"Yes aunty even my pain s nthng nfrnt f hers"

On one such day i saw mauli sitting n the park bench all alone she was staring at nothing nd it started to rain bt she didnt move nd kept sitting der . all including me ran to the shelters.she had her bags vrh her implyung she just came fem wrk. I went to radhika auntys apartment nd said abt her to aunty . nd i saw radhika aunty hugging her nd dragging home through my balcony. I felt lyk she was nt n her senses. I felt restless i dnt knw yy t i want ed to knw f she s fine. I couldnt sleep the whole night i dnt want to ve sympathy fr hee cpz i felt bad wen sme1 sympathize me bt i couldnt help myself fr being sorry fr her. Nd i waited bear lift till i saw radhika aunty getting out frm her flat. She was looking tired Nd exhausted i asked her yy she s looking so tired. She nly sighed nd said

" i am worried about mauli beta, she s slowly forgetting herself nd her child n her pain. Smetmes i feels lyk i dnt evn knw this girl . u knw she was a cheerful , full of life ,naughty girl nd see now she doesnt evn knw whether she s alive at tmes everythng s mechanical nw luke a timetable frm waking up to sleep.,hardly speaks,forgot to smile wat ve my son done to this girl. Nd yesterdays incident s nt gng out f my mind. Yesterday was kunals birthday she used to celebrate t every year wth her own ideas . i can understand her pain bt hww van she forget the life nside her fr sme1 who destriyed her life"

" aunty dnt take me wrng but i thnk mauli needs a psychiatrist, may be she need sme help to come out f t"

Aunty went mum nd i thought she s gng to lash t me fr such a suggestion

" i thnk u r right she cant open her sorrows to us coz she knws tat v r blaming ourselves fr watever happened vth hermnd the ones who should ve stood by her , her parents cuts the ties vth her fr initiating divorceprocess.she need to open up to sme1 Takout her bottled up emotions, i vl enquire nd take her this week tself first let her reciver grm fever"

"Fever,s she Ok"

"Yes she s ts bcoz yesterdays rain. I was gng out to get sme medicines"

"Aunty i was also gng out to medical shop nly give mee the details i vl get t yy Evyoone should take the pain"

Ididn'tt knw y i said tat but i badly wanted to see her nd i took this chance.And i reached auntys home to give t nd i didnt deny the invitation fr vngbreakfastt nd luckily i ciuld see mauli. She wasn't lioking good t all she came nd ate vth us nd i observed her . she didnt tallk .Tried to eatt evythng aunty gave her.Does she evn know wat she s eatinG i doubt t . she was just gobbling food vth the help of water till she couldnt take nymre nd den looked t aunty. I could see dida nd aunty trying to hide their tears. aftr washing her gands she just left to sme room.

" i cant swe her lyk this ma" i saw aunty crying on didas shoulder even she Was crying. I didnt knw wat tp do so just hugged them togethr nd said everythng vl be fine. Tats wen dey remembered i am also der nd apologised fr forgetting me fr smetme.I just smiled nd asssurwd them tat i didnt mind t nd left

Now a days thoughts about mauli conceivwd my day and night. NOw a days i rarely se mauli nd radhika aunty informed me that she took maternity leave frm last week . one day wen i was stepping out of the lift i saw radhika aunty barging in not even bothering to wait fr others to step out she was looking tensed

"Aunty r u fine"

"Raj, beta woh i was gng to take the car out. Mauli's watwr broke v need to get her to hospital soon. "

"Aunty u just go back nd get her i vl take out the car nd wait fr u n the lounge"

"Aunty thanked me nd rushed back"

I took the car out nd waited n the lounge den i saw Radhika ma and oammi emerging out drm lift vth mauli who was struggling to walk. I went forward nd lifted her nd moved towards car. She waa in ummense pain to notice wats happening nd clutched on my shoulders . i setled her nd aunty n back seat. Aunty asked pammi to return to dida nd be vth her. I drove faster to the hospital vth auntys guidance. I checkedd on mauli through my rear view mirror. She wasnt making loud cries but moaning n pain t tmes nd was biting her lips tightly to let her sound out. It felt lyk she made a deal vth the physical painn too.

Upon reaching the hospital she was taken directly to the operatuon theatre aftr smetme her doxtor arrived nd assured aunty evythng vl be fine aftr checking her doctor said she s gng vth natural birth nd mauli vl be fine too. Aunty thanked me and

Asked me to go back as i was covered vth some blood nd fluid tat happend wen i lifted her but i did nt want to go out coz i couldnt leavee aunty alone M i ve heard hw thankful ma was to ve rishab riyas husband by herr side Wen riya was taken to labour even though u ve gone through all rhe pain befre nd knw wat would happen ts hard to see ur daughter crying n pain. I knw i camt replace her son bt i can atleast sit vth her so i bought a new shirt frm the shop nside the hospital campus nd went back to her. I offered her coffee nd sat vth her

Hrs passed radhika aunty was looking so vulnerable nd initiated talsk to divert her mind bt she took on the talks nd started to talk about mauli and kunals life. Hw happy dey wer. Hw mauli brought her friend nandini to home, how she helped her friendd to Be independent nd helped to get out f her horrifying marriage. Hw she saved her friend frm dying ,her blind trust on kunal , her dreams to ve a family ,working day nd night to fulfill kunals dream everythng. I never interrupted her eventhough ts nt my place to knw such thngs nd radhika aunty was also saying everythng n a trance. I saw flashes f maulis life infrnt f me nly thng wa tat kunal nd nandini didnt ve a face. I felt pure hatred fr this man kunal nd much mre than hatred to her friend nandini. i dnt knw wat u fwel fr mauli is it sympathy,respect i dnt knw but i knew i am being pulled towards her.

Nurae came out of the theatre vth a smile nd said ts a girl aunry wss so happy she hugged me nd cried. She called at home nd informed dida. The nurse broughtvthe baby agtr 10 mins wrapped up n a pink towel. Baby was so tiny i vnt seen a newborn bfr. She was sleeping calmly. Aunty took her frm nurse nd slowlt hugged her she asked me f i wants to hold i was frightened to even touch the baby.

Den nurse said

"Sir please take baby would love to be vth her father. Nw u ve to take care f her"

Tat put me nd aunty n an awkward atmosphere. V didnt correct her nd gave the baby back fr conducting sme tests. Ts almost 3am nw. v waited n the roomm alloted fr mauli aftr that nd t tosok a small nap.mauli was brought to room around 7 am . she was looking so tired nd i left the room to wait outside i decided to wait till pammi arrives vth breakfast. I saw a phyaicuan rushing to her room nd ma came out aftr smetme she said that mauli had high fever ndpwas shivering physician gave her injection Nd informwd ts because f weakness. I went nside nd saw mauli sleeping nd ma sat beside her i left hpme wen pammi came nd took that day off. Nw i am waiting fr maulis life vth little girl hw gud a mother she will be?

Vl continue vth mauli nd her child along vth rajs journey n next chapter. Thanks to all who read and appreciated.

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manju

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Posted: 6 years ago

#22

I read it with teras filled in my eyes..OMG I can imagine complete scenario in front of my eyes ..too good...hope the story goes this way ...loved it ...👏

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justforlyf1

@justforlyf1

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Posted: 6 years ago

#23

Chapter 5

Mauli nd child gt discharged after 3 days n all these 3 days i took dida nd pammi to hospital n the morning vth der breakfast fr mauli as aunty used to return home to take rest as per mauli's insistence evnthough she didnt wanted to. Nd on returng frm office i used to pick dida nd pammi back home evennthough i had to travel an extra 9 km fr t i loved to do t coz tat was the only thing i look fwd nw the small baby. I wanted to ve a glimpse f tat small life. I never entered maulis room as i knw fr any new mother a presvencr f a stranger vl b uncomfortable .n morng aunty nd n evengs pammi brought the baby outside to show me. Aunty always said she would arrange taxi fr them bt i lied her that i always comes that way to drop my colleague who met vth an accident lately nd she beleived me. Fr her y should i lie to be frank i myself dnt knw yy i lied.

Today mauli nd baby vl b discharged . oh god how vl i see the baby frm now on? I felt sad. But god showed me a way. The very next day i saw aunty walking vth the baby n the park early morng ,she said that early sun rays r good fr babies so she vl be bringing her everyday. Nd i too made t a habit to accimpany her. Even f ts dr 30 mins i was happy to spend that little time vth the baby. Nw she s alnist 1 month nd i became an expert n taking baby. I always waited n park fr aunty to take her n ny arms. Eventhough the baby would be sleepng almost all the tme i loved to watch her, smiling n sleep, the small sound frm her stomach , the milky smell of the baby. Everythng about the baby gave me peace. She evwn peed on me bt i didnt feel nythng nfact i joined the laugh of aunty looking at my shirt and felt happy wen aunty said ts belwived that baby pees on those who they like. So baby likes me isnt t. I gt worried wen i didnt see aunty nd baby one day nd reached the door n nxt 20 mins. Aunty informed me baby s havng slight fever aftr vaccination. I couldnt see her that day nd my day went miserable . the whole day i felt restlesa thankfully aunty came frm next day. Aftr 2 mre days aunty invited me fr the naamkaran f the baby. Apart frm me her doctr who was her friend and one mre colleague of mauli was present fe the naamkaran nd she was named as "NEHA" meaning love . a simple name i loved the name .

Days passed by after 1 week f nehas naam karan my maid took left the job when her son gt job n sme other state. She was a good cook nd reliable to she used to come at early morng. cooks fr thebday nd also cleans tue home. She ws of gr8 help as i hated cooking nd cleaning too. So i ended upnon maggies fr dinner nd cornflakes fr breakfast nd used to ve dinner frm outside wen i gets late one suchday my stomach gt upset resulting me n bathroom fr most f the night. I ws exhausted to even walk nd make a coffee fr myself the next day nd sue to weakness my body started heating up to.I slept till i heard the calling bell t was radhika aunty along vth neha she came to search fr me when she didnt see me at park fr rhe walk. She scolded me a lot fr not telling her about vng food frm outside fr whole last week nd more fr not calling her wen i fall ill.she made me lay down and wenwent back to her home aftr half n hr she came vth light food fr me. She fed me vth lots f love at that moment i saw my ma n her and i knw she saw her kunal n me too. She called a doctor too gt the medicines nd took gr8 care f me next 3 days n the same way. I missed neha a lor as she didnt bring neha along vth her as i had fever nd small children r more prone to catchh t . i wanted to get well soon to see my princess. Aftr delivery i vnt seen mauli othr than on nnaamkaran i gt to knw that she s doing well nd vl be joing office part tme n next 1mnth.aftr 1 mre mnth my ma came back frm newjersey as rishabs parents joined them fr nxt 6 mnths. I ve always shared about radhika aunty,dida nd neha and also abt bits f maulis life to ma already and she ws grateful to radhika aunty fr taking care f me.

I took ma to radhika auntys home fe a visit there she met mauli nd neha too. Mauli took blessing frm ma too. Mauli started to go to hospital my taking sme gaps at lunch to feed neha . neha was under the care f aunty nd dida and my ma startedd to spent her whole day at der home now. I felt jealous f ma tat neha started to grew more fond f her than me.Afteral she spent her whole day vth ma nd radhika aunty. Ma nd radhika aunty became gr8 frnds n thr mean tme. Ma liked mauli a lot and after hearing thw whole story about her there wasnt a day ma slept vthout cursing maulis husband nd that lady.i felt funny at tmes fr ma's profanities fr them coz t was nt n ma to curse sme1 she never hold any grudge fr ny1.

I ve seen sme changes n mauli too . she started to participate n talks vth ma nd aunty mre rhan befr. She always had a smile wen she was vth neha. She smiled at those who tried to talk vth neha n baby languages. She gave a snile to watchman fr his goodmorng wish. She stares at theliftt door eagerly Fr t to open to rush to her baby. She watched kids playing vth curiosity nw. Her eyes had hope. Her smile was lovely i felt she s returng back to life slowily nd steadily. She took care f herselves nd evyone around her too. Ma nd radhika aunty dragged her fr shopping to malls telling t vl be a change fr neha too nd i accomapnied them many times. I loved to watch nehas excitement on seeing new people nd lights around the mall nd maulis happy face on seeing neha happy t mase my day.

Aftr 6 months ma had to return to riya nd i promised to join her 3 weeks during aaryan my nephew firstt birthday. i vnt seen him directly till now .radhika aunty arranged a maid fr cleaning my home aftr ma left but didnt let me to arrange fr cookung she was adamant that i will ve breakfastvnd dinner vth them .

Slowly me and mauli started ti exchange atleast a smile ndj sme formall Questions like hw was the day,was food good, neha slept etc.

I went to newjersey fr 3 weeks to celebrate aaryans birthday nd i missed by princess terribly eventhough i had aaryan vth me the feel that neha gave me wen she was around me was smethng else. Aaryan s my blood relatn whereas neha s a completw stranger but i feel mre xonnectn to neha than aaryan yy was t like that. I feel so possesive about neha i never liked ny1 taking her frm aunty wen v were at park but aboit aaryan i happily gave him to riyas fnd wen they called him. I was si happy to be back to my princess. I gelt sad wen she resisted to xome to me fr smetme. Did she forgot me? Oh god if tats thw case i m never gng anywhere fr these much fays frm nw on.v celebrated nehas birthday too n next 2 months. Time flewd away my princess has grownn beautiful .

Aftr 1 more year nw neha s 2 years old she started tobspeak n baby languages i could understand her language too i lived to talk vth her. Ma decided to xome back to me. As aaryan s also 2 nd riya could take care f him . i was worried abt one thng will ma insist to go back to banglore where all our relatives nd fnds reside. Vl i be able to go away frm my princess. Ts almost 3 months aftr ma returned over the last year me and mauli started to be more f friwnds than strangers.

Another year passed neha s 3 now.me nd mauli became xlose fnds frm just friends.

She shared about nehas activities to me, v discussed about our work social norms etc i ve evn shared about my priya to her.IShe helped me n arranging the barsi fe priya.. Accompanied me vth neha to orphange on priyas birthday . I ve seen maulis and kunals marriage photo she ve shared sme memories f her vth kunal to me. Wat she felt wen she faced their betrayal. News f baby kunal indifference etc. v never interrupted each others talks never gave any words f assurances to each other. V both know wat v lost v both knew nothng could undo past, nonwords could heal our wounds. Neha was very fond of me she called me raj nd i called her princess.Oriya nd family visited as once fr 2 months nd riya nd mauli gt qlong so well. Riya loved mauli nd now a days i get to knw about my little sisters life frmm mauli. Aaryan nd neha also became best fnds dey never sleeps vth out talking to eachother nfact aaryan was made nehas rakhi brother nw.

Life was going smooth md one day me and maulu ws called upon by radhika aunty to talk. Pammi took neha outside to park

We sat facing ma,radhika aunty nd dida. V were blank. V had no idea on wat was cmng next

Ma started

" V calledd U both to talk about somethng important ts about a life changing decision . me and radhika ve talked about t to each other nd dida too. Wat i am gng to say s our wish but decision vl be entirely yours. Dnt give me an abrubt answer thnk upon t as long as u want. Talk vth eachother nd come to a conclusion . u both r adults who ve gone through a lot n this small life. U know to take decision fr urselves . just remember wat ever be the decision s t vl affect nehas future too"

" ma wats the matter u r frightening us,"

Eventhough v understood wat she was hinting at. V werent expecting t nfact v never thought in those lines bfr

"Are u both ready to share ur future vth eachh other? Vl u marry Eachother?

Their decision nd life ahead n next post

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justforlyf1

@justforlyf1

Beginner

Posted: 6 years ago

#24

Chapter 6

I heard a gasp nd i turned to look at mauli who had tears brimming n her eyes. Her tears broke my heart. I knew this was coming . i ve often seen ma nd aunty watching my interaction vth neha nd mauli. I ve understod their eye talks too. Smewhere i knew wat they r thinking. Evn i know now wat i ve fr mauli s nt confined to friendship too. but marriage was nt smethng i ve thought of. I like her, i love her company ,i adore her, i respect her but vl i be able to give her the love that i once had fr priya? i wasnt sure about t. Priya still resides n me. Can priya be replaced? I cant deny the fact i m attracted to mauli too.but s t strong enough fr a marriage.i atleast ve sme feelings fr mauli evn then i cant digest this sudden proposal. So i could understand wat mauli must be going through. And now i hated tthe fact tat na nd aunty are similar no beating around the bush, no hesitation always direct nd specific.

Silence prevailed fr smetme.i wanted mauli to talk first nd then she did wen she regained her composure.

" y ma do u doubt tat ne nd raj s vng sme relatn"

"No mauli dnt evn thnk tat way. U r my daughter. I knw u better than ny one else.i never doubted ur relatn vth raj r nyother.infact i would ve fixed the marriage date instead f this talk f i suspected nythng lyk tat. "

"Am i a burden fr u ?r a responsibility that u want to finish off"

Aunty smile nd said

"If i ever thought f u as burden den i wouldn't be vth u n this house cuttng all ties vth my offspring, nd about being a responsibility to be over vth who said i m leaving u. Infact i am offering myself nd dida as dowry to Raj. V vl also cme vth u wherever u go.u nd neha r the nly one v r left vth mauli . where vl v go leaving u"

" then do u thnk i m nt capable enough to takecare f neha by myself r a weak woman tat i need a man besides me,"

"Tats the worst allegation fr today k" tat was ma who replied

" especially wen that question is directed to 2 ladies who brought up their children alone.den doubtng u means doubting ourselves too"

Mauli averted her eyes nd looked down

Radhika aunty kneeld down nfrnt f mauli nd cupped her face vth her hands nd asked

"Look at me mauli my mauli was never a coward who stole her eyes.ve u ever felt tat me nd dida consider u as a responsibility r burden. Then tat means i failed again as a mother tat i couldn't evn give u that sense f security tat

Wat ever happens her mother vl b vth her? Did i fail again beta"

Mauli instantly hugged aunty nd started crying

" no ma dnt say that u r the best ma n this whole world. I am lucky to ve u n my life i dnt knw wat i would ve done f u were nt there. I would ve killed myself vth the baby too f u didnt stand by me when all ,when even my mother turned against me. Sorry ma i just thought fr a second tat u too gt bored f me, taking care of this mad girl, i thought u want to go back to kunal after gettng me married to raj.u never said about a marriage bfr ma so wen u asked all of a sudden i was afraid. Dnt knw wat happened to me. I am sorry ma i doubted u even f ts fr a second . " nd she cried harder hugging aunty .

v all waited till she calmed down ma brought sme water nd made her drink t.after a pregnant pause ma started talking.

" we both know that u both vnt thought about a second marriage nd der s nothng mre than friendship between u too v also knw that u both r 2 strong individuals and s capable f living a life vth out a partner too . me and radhika are an example nfrnt f u to knw tat u can lead life and fulfill the responsibilities vth out a partner too but u both ve to understand one thng. me nd radhika lost our partners nly after spending half f our life span . v both shared our life vth partners fr a longer time bfr losing t. V shared the joy f being parents, v could share the worries of being a parent, v dreamt together f our children , v made plans fr our children, v shared the joyous moments like our children's first talk, first walk, first day to school, first prize etc. Nshort v could make lot of memories vth our children tat s enough to spend a lifetme. Where as u both were nt blessed vth this opportunities. Raj shared nly 2 yrs f marriage nd mauli could never share the joy f parenting vth her partner. V want u both to ve these memories nd also thnk about neha. Raj nd kunal had memories f their father bt what about neha what vl u do mauli wen she asks about her father? Nw she s too small bt once she starts her school wnt she long fr a father ? Wen she sees other children coming vth rheir father ? Wat vl u do mauli ?vl u tell her that her father died r vl u give her false hopes tat her father would come smeday?isnt t unfair to neha. She should also be given opportunity to weave dreams about her father to create memories with her father. Njoy a happy family"

" if u both dont want a life partner thnk that neha wants a father nd who would be best than raj"

"Mauli do u doubt rajs love fr neha, do u thnk t vl decease"

Mauli noded a negative

" raj vl u be able to see any1 else as nehas father. Vl u b able to see neha spending tme vth smeone else"

I too nodded negative

" then fr neha give t a thought, v r nt compelling u bt pls talk about t nd let us know watever ur decision is. F answer s yes v would be very happy nd f ts no then also v vl be happy that u guys atleast give t a thought nd v promise that nothing between us would change."

Dida was a silent spectator till now

Wen aunty reached to wheel her dida spoke

" dnt let ur past ruin ur future beta t vl ruin nehas future too. Once my grandson ruined u nd i dnt want his memories to ruin nehas future too. He dnt deserve to be in ur memories, r to be a part f nehas future through yr memories. Remember my mauli s a fighter md she ve the fighting spirit srill n her to fight her those memories nd courage to give her life a second chance. "

They all left us alone.

" i know mauli this was a sudden question nd u vnt even thought about a marriage till date. Even i vnt. I thnk u r really tired . take rest . neha vl be back soon too. Dnt worry v vl find a way out"

Mauli just walked away vthout even looking at me.

I thought about t a lot even had a fight vth ma fr bringing up this topic all f a sudden nd fr hurtng mauli. Me nd mauli ignored eachother fr nxt 2 weeks.i even avoided neha. I was processing my thoughts on wat ma told nd i came to conclusions that i wnt be able to see neha spending time vth sme1 else.even this 2 weeks i couldnt keep myself away frm neha. F marriage could give me an opputunity to be mre close to neha f t could bring a right on neha den i was ready. What iff mauli decides to marryy later what if the guy then doesn'tt love neha.? I can do nythng fr neha even f ts a lifelong loveless marriage..i decided to say yes fr the marriage nd decided to talk to mauli

"Mauli i thought a lot abt the marriage . u know na i m very fond of neha i ve never thouggt abt a marriage neithere u ve .i dont ve any expectation from a marriage bt f a marriage could bringg me more closer to neha, f a marriage could bring opputunity to be vth my princess den i am ready to do t. I Know evn f u disagree, this situation vl cme again may be with sme1 else.Now atleatst i know u nd i know uu dnt expect nythng out f thismarriage.i feel good. Even aftr marriage i can be what i am u and u can be what u are . our loved oness vl b happy nd v can also be at peac wen v know that dey ve sme1 to take care f wen v r t work. Even they dnt expect much from usv rather than sharing the responsibility of neha. I love neha a lot nd promise if u allow me to be a part of ur life . i vl take care f neha much more than i do now. I vl never compel anythngg on u. U will ve complete freedom as a individual nd v would share our friendship like befre between ourselves. Thnk about t mauli . ts a yes frm me." Nd i leftt a shocked mauli

Aftr another 1 week mauli called me fr a coffee

" raj i thought a lot about vwat u said nd i also discussed vth ma ur decision. I doesnt doubt ur love fr neha. I doesnt doubt that we would be able to shar3 the friendship lyk this even after marriage. But i aafraid od that u r nt getting justice. Ma nd avantika aunty want u to njoy fatherhood now u r fond f neha but later what f u wants a child of ur own. U missed the first years rs f a childs growth as a father u missed tje joy f celebratng the anxiety f being a afther . wat if u feel u r at loss later nd i ve nothng to offer u. I cant assure u that i vl be able to move on later r at any point f my life . then wont u be n a forced marriage me nd u ve been n a marriage relatn nd v both knw the impotance of sexual relatn n a marriage. I ve nthngg to offer to u raj nor the mind nor the body everythng n me diesd a long back. I dnt knw hw to heal evn whether i would heal. I cant ruin ur future too raj. Say no to the marriage please.

Nd she left thee cafe

i rreached home called all nd said that v ve decided

. i took neha n my arms and asked her. Do u knw hw does upapa looks like?I can i be ur papa princess?Sso i can live vth u?She simply said yes she isnt big enough to thnk about t like us fr her i am a bonus, she loved to play vth me nd ma so 2 more peopl3 joins her playtme as simple as that.

" its yes fr me coz i nly wants to ne nehas father , nd its no fr maulii becoz she believes tati she vl b ruining my future. But 8 ve dec8ded neha s my future. I dnt wqnts to ve a future away from neha"

Mauli was stunned.

Aftr lot f assurance frm all of us mauli too agreed only fr the sake of neha nd v gt married n a simole court marriage nd gave dinner party to our wellwishers at work nd flat. Later v all shifted to a much bigger flat vth 4 bedroom.

Next part vl be hw gradually dey fall fe eachother may be last partx

Edited by justforlyf1 - 6 years ago

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Sushma Yadav

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Posted: 6 years ago

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Love the ff

Love how naturally u are showing their life journey

How they are healing each other with time

So appropriate

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manju

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Originally posted by: akashnanda
Love to u ... 🥺

sry for that smiley ..it s sent by chance in a hurry

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justforlyf1

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Posted: 6 years ago

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Never mind . i am happy tat u liked the story.

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Hima

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Posted: 6 years ago

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Awww beautiful update dr love it

Update sooonnn

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harsha

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Posted: 6 years ago

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I loved this story ur narration is excellent ..I fell in love with Raj charcter😳

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chapter 7

Just like all expected , all wished for the happiest person was Neha, she was dressed in a cute white dress, eventhough it was just a simple court marriage, ma wanted to ve best dresses fr all of us so that she could preserve the photos to show Neha later that she was a part of her parents marriage which no other children could be.

Before the marriage itself Me and mauli decided Neha 's school which happens to be the best in the city and had facilities any parents would wish for, thankfully the school had preschool too . v got a bigger home near to her school. neha was our first priority so the home was also furnitured keeping her interest in mind.Neha was the happiest to move into the new house ,which had bigger play area,bigger park and most of all she had all vth her. she calls radhika aunty and dida as Nani and badi nani , now she got her avantika dadi,riya bua and aaryan bhai too nd me her dad. he continued to call me as Raj fr few more days too even wen she could easily cal ma as dadi. i was worried thinking she doesnt want me as dad but mauli assured me ts nt the case she s just habitual to this and would change soon nd thankfully it did.

I felt like life was never this lively befor even wen i had priya nd riya always to annoy me few years back the atmosphere a kid can create , the changes a kid can bring is somethng no other can bring in. I had spent tme vth neha as a neighbour now living as her papa, having her around me 24 hrs . changed me completely more than i ever imagined. i loved her before too but now she s my life.. i live through her now.

Unlike shown in serials or films me and mauli didnt slept n bed and couch. v shared the same bed vth neha n middle and some days wen neha goes to her grandmas room fr a sleep over den also v shared the same bed, there wasnt a awkwasrd moment between us. v both were grown ups who ver well know the physical desires but also the importance f love n sharing a physical desire. v didnt need a pillow n te middle to save ourselves. v both were light slppepers and never rolled on beds like serial heroins. f neha was there me r mauli had to read a story,r v used to watch a film that neha too njoys till she sleeps, me and mauli used to talk till one of fall asleep leaving the other the duty to switch off the lights.the same continued even f neha wasnt there.

The only difference was before wen v were just friends v knew about each others likes and dislikes, some habits, hobbies, favourite color etc but after marriage we learned something new about each other every day some good , some bad. but unlike many couple v didnt go fr compromises v just told each other wat v dislike n the other. I ahad the habit of leaving damp used towel on bed after shower which mauli disliked and she never removed t but said to me tat she wnt do it i ve to change the habit, like that mauli had the habit f leaving her hair clips every where n the washbasin, study table, car drawer ny where like she does i too never picked t but said t to her i didnt lyk t.. v changed fr each other, v learne from each other.

I didnt take much time to realize that i ve fallen head over heels in love vth mauli.. who wouldnt love her.. A beautiful daughter who never forgets to make sure that her elders are well fed nd had medicines, always comfortable, she always spent tme vth them hw ever busy she is,. an adorable mother who lived fr her daughter her day nd night was n her name. a responsible wife who always took care f my need who always understood my temperments,work pressure... i vnt forgotten priya but mauli made a place fr her own.. i know that now i can live and kill fr this lady..

I didnt say her that i ve fallen fr her, it was understood. she is nt a teenage girl who need a verbal talk to understand t.. at the same time v both knew she s still nt out f her past...ts not that she dont want to but she was afraid ...she believed in this institution of marriage immensely and she couldn save it, she loved kunal more than herself nd she didnt give a second thought before falling fr someone else.. she trusted a person blindly and he betrayed her brutally, she worshipped a person whom he loved and he stamped her life under his foot n mere days, she gave 7 yrs of life fr a person who didnt even took 70 days to move out of her life. she worked day nd night fr the dream of his where as he decided to live his dream vth sme1 else. she gave a home to a lady who snatched her home n return, she gave hope to live fr a lady who snatched all the hopes f her life. she saved a lady from someone and she threw her n the middle of a busy road to kill herself. the scars given by the 2 persons whom she loved was so deep that she was afraid to love,trust ,help someone.

her insecurities were so big that she started to believe tat she s some one who cant be loved.. the more she tries to be near a person the more he is likely to fly frm her.. to avoid hurt she avoided love. i sometmes felt that she loves even neha vth some kind of fear.. she was a kid fr me who fall n her first attempt to walk nd fears to walk again, i knew i had to support her never push her.

vth the help of ma nd aunty i started vth baby steps like gng fr a movie together, driving her to hospitals, dinner out etc..t started slowly building up from holding hands while sleeping , to kiss on foreheads as goodnight, to kiss on cheek fr thank you. i slowly found the lost mauli.. from the serious i dnt care attitud to the small blush everythng was gradual till i made her mine on our 3rd wedding anniversary .. v never wanted one mre child t was decided to ve one more child after neha creayed a scene, she wanted a sibling wen her bestfriend gt a new brother and her friend started to boast abouthw big she became nd all. eventhough maulis pregnancy was normal she had bp issues coz f the stress which was dangerous to both the baby nd mother.. i was afraid to go fr t i smehw lived wen i lost priya but i cant loss mauli.. i love her a lot.. i nly know hw restlessi feel wen she goes out at night on emergency calls, i always wanted to drop nd pick her fr my own peace but she never allows me to.. even a thought f smethng happening to mauli r neha give a chill on my body..but after some tests mauli was willing to go fr t.. she said she couldnt feel nythng during nehas time , she was almost numb then.. also she didnt ve babies father vth her to share the beautiful moments like baby kicks,cravings moodswings etc.. and v gt the resukt after 5 mnths f trying.. i was on cloud nine i didnt kne this feeling f gettng to knw that u r gng to be a father s so different.. i am eagerly waiting fr the rest f ts journey ...

i never expected kunal to show up in our home,, fr a second i was afraid is he back to take my mauli nd neha back...about mauli i know he no longer holds a place n her life ts nly me her love but wat about neha.. will he take her i knw he ve no legal rights the first thng i did aftr our marriage was to adopt neha legally ... but wat if he says t to neha , wat if he brainwash neha vl she hate me fr keeping her away frm her real father... i was so worried after kunal came to meet, i sat their n the swing in our balcony aftr he left...till i could feel someones prescence beside me.. i dnt ve to open my eyes to knw ts my mauli. she kept her head on my shoulders

"neha is ur daughter nd only urs" no one vl enter n our lives again to create a storm i wont let tat happen.. i vl talk to ma and i vl ask her to stop kunal frm coming our home ,, she can meet him smewhere else f she wants to..i dnt like this woory lines on ur face Raj. i cant see u being insecure about Neha"

"will she hate me mauli wen she comes to knw i am nt her father"

" dnt say that , u r her father nd nly u can be her father.. giving birth doent make a lady a mother like wise vng a blood tie doesnt make some one father,, one need to strive fr t.. v r nt playing vth dolls here wher ny1 can be a father to a doll. v r talking about neha who has worlds best father nd that u . vnt v decided that v would reveal everythng to neha once she reaches an age to understand t, nd i am sure she would understand, infact she would love u more than now fr saving her mother ,giving her a life, fr every thng u ve done fr us...till den v r nt gng to discuss t again"

nxt vl b last chapter

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