OS on karma COMPLETED 1st November - Page 2

"Mommy"

"See wat i ve brought for chottu baby"

"Mommy"

I saw a small girl around 7 to 8 years of age barging into home shouting.I knew ts mine and Maulis daughter.I could feel t, i didnt need any assurance.I saw a handsome man dressed smartly in blue jeans and white shirt tucked in following her along vth ma by his side he had held a school bag in 1 hand and ve wrapped his other hand over my ma's shoulder. ma was also smiling looking at the small girl.unknowingly a smile came to my lips too

"wat happened Neha, y r u shouting?" i saw mauli coming from the otherside. the girl ran ang hugged mauli, mommy see wat i ve brought for chottu baby, see and she opened a small arm to show a small toffee in hands. mauli looked t the toffee and den at the girl and den t ma nd raj, dey just shrugged their shoulders..

"is it fr me baba"

"offo mommy u know na today was George's birthday and he distributed sweets in class. all ate but i wanted to share it vth baby so i saved it.common open ur mouth "

"but neha how would u give it to baby"

"Offo momma u r so stupid didnt u hear nani telling u tat u need to eat well so that the baby gets enough food, so u eat t baby vl get t simple"

"common open ur mouth " den she forwarded the toffee to mauli.mauli took a small bite and hugged her daughetr,her eyes were shimmering vth tears.nd she looked at ma and the man.they nodded their head to as if to say no.

Mauli was always like this these small gestures was all that she neede to happy.

they were so engrossed in each other that they didnt even notice someone is standing at the door of their drawing room watching them with a tint of jealousy,anger ,sadness and happiness too..

I was happy to see dem happy,sad that they are happy vth out me, jealous coz tat was my place to be der and anger bcoz dey didnt even missed me not even ma.

"Ma , we ve a g,i think u didnt notice "

ma turned towards me and stood ther roote,even raj was looking stunned, from his expression i understood i no longer needed an introduction.

Raj came forward and gave a side hug to mauli and loked at mauli eyes as if asking is she ok. i saw mauli nodding vth a smile and keeping her head on his shoulders.Th little gal came fwd and asked

"who is this uncle?Is he Papa;s friend?"

"beta y dnt u go and ve somethin.I am sure u must be hungry and see chottu baby was also waiting for u and feeling hungry.Raj u to cme and ve lunch u need to get back to work" saying this mauli took the girl and Raj vth her leaving me and ma alone

"Wait Mauli, I dont ve anything to talk vth this man. ask him to go away" ma sounded so cold and distant

I saw Raj coming forward and i saw him cupping ma's face and telling

"No ma,if u send him away t vl trouble u a lot, the questions in ur mind vl keep bothering u..u r and always vl be Mauli's ma nothing vl change that. even if u forgive him but ma i want u to ve a closure.its now or never"

"but i hate him, my blood boils wen i seee him"

"v can haate nly those v love ma,talk vth him ,may be u vl get a better reason to free urselffrom this hatred.just be sure that v love u nd v vl be always there fr u"

"I know"

Raj left giving an assuring smile,look at the irony of life someone else s asking my ma to talk to me.

"y r u here, did u cme to see whether i died of guilt? the guilt tat was eating me up seeing mauli and the small life. the guilt that i gave birth to a person who is so selfish that even he didnt thnk about the future of his own blood,a man who slept vth someone else wen his wife was sweating day and night to fulfill his dream, a man who didnt even thought about his ma and dida who lived only fr him all their life"

"y kunal yy,?"

"ma i did a mistake"

"no it wasnt a mistake it was a sin"

"falling in love or out of love is not in ones hand.. but sleeping vth some one is"

"making a choice is an individuals right, but spoiling someones life for their choice is not"

"wen u took nandidni responsibility and on other side u neglected mauli's and ur childs right"

"right of a child to ve ts family. in god's court u vl never be forgiven Kunal. u vl never be forgiven" ,

"ma, i am her just to ask fr ur forgiveness,maulis forgiveness, i did a sin that cant be corrected . i know i vl never be forgiven and neither i deserve t. but asking fr t would lessen my pain.. please ma"

"i am nt here to justify myself, i know i didnt care fr mauli's pain.. i choose nandini's love tat i gt n just 3 months over maulis love, sacrifices and companionship of 7 years.i dont knw wat happened to me that time i couldnt see anythng other than nandini den. i beleievd f nandini s seperated frm me i would die and being a selfish person i choose my life.I understood just love doesnt make a marriage going,it is supported by many other thngs llike family, respect,sacrifices,submissiveness everythng.. like ur curse ma, nandini couldn be a mother neither she could, v lost the child and child took along many thng s that we shared including love"

"i understood building a life on someones tears s not possible..

v created a mud house vth our selfishness and love and Mauli's tears washed it away..

"i am happy that u r happy, mauli is happy, i know she s a gr8 wife, she would be a gr8 mother too..take care ma i just wanted to c u.. can i can i hug u"

i went forward and hugged ma,she didnt hug me back wen i was trying to withdraw she hugged me back tightly and started to sob. v both stood their crying fr a good amount of time. i felt light so light that i cant explain.

" i cant forgive u, but i cant hate u too. u r my son fr whom i lived mr than half of my life. trust me i didnt want that curse to happen.i said it in spur of the moment,i never want such a curse to happen to any woman left alone nandini"

"I know ma ,I know"

i kissed on her forehead and said

"i will leave now ma, u hugged me ,u talked to me thate enough fr me and i know one day u vl be able to forgive me and i vl wait fr that day"

"ma,dida, did she hated me always"

ma smiled and went to her thoughts

"dida was more shattered than me, she had gr8 expectation fr both of u, she went out f her ways too to unite u both.Even after v shifted here dida expected u would come one day looking fr us..she loved u a lot kunal even more than i loved uu.

wen her hopes started to fall, she started to get ill too t was nly neha who could make her smile.she was constantly falling ill and she too knew that her time is near, i asked her to call u once, but she said she wouldnt be able to hold back once she hear uu, she said not to inform u about her death. she said f u remember her then let t be the happy dida u knew once nt this ill, weak dida"'

"I killed her too, isnt it ma"

"No ur acts took her will to live"

I heard someone knockin the door it was Raj

next part vl be raj and mauli's story

chapter 3

tok tok

"sorry to disturb ur talks, i just wanted to make sure ma is fine.. Mauli said that her BP was not that good in the morning, ma u r fine na"

"ts smetme a curse to ve a doctor as daughter,,,, i am perfectly fine beta tell tat to ur hitler wife.. by the way are u leaving? u had ur lunch? and mauli too..?"

I saw Raj smiling on ma's chiding on mauli

" u know na she never eats bfr making sure all in the house are well fed"

"wat the hell Raj, dnt u knw she s nt alone now, she ve to take food on rightt tme, dnt knw wat will happen to this child, herself a doctor but doent take care f herself too"

I saw ma was disturbed

"ma relax i made her drink some juice, she is fine , and u take ur time i vl be here, i am nt going to office"

"sorry fr not asking till now Kunal, but u had ur lunch"

"no its fine , i was about to leave"

"so u didnt ve, so do onething yy cant u ve vth ma"

i was happy to get tat invitation but at the same time hesistant, i dnt knw how mauli would react, and hw vl i be able to see my daughter treating me lyk an outsider.

"i know kunal u r nt comfortable ,, ma y dnt u bring both f ur luch to this room,, dnt worry about mauli. i vl make her eat smethng"

even ma was nt that willing to do it, but a little assurance frm Raj, she agreeed and left both of us.

There was an awkward silent between us but then Raj started to speak

"see Kunal, i dnt knw to beat around the bush so i vl come straight to the point. after getting to know wat u did to them especially to mauli and neha i really dnt ve a good opinion on u, but i am no one to judge you may be u had some better reasons fr doing all those which i can never understand.I just wanted to assure u that me and Mauli vl take care of ma in all ways, vl be her support wenever shee needs us, vl never let any harm reach her tats a promise, wat ever ,however kind of a person u are, i cant deny the fact that u r her son and no one can take that right from you, u r always welcome here to see ur mother as long as she wishes. it wont chaneg our responsibilities towards ma.. nut tat wont be the case vth Neha,,,

Neha is mine and Mauli's daughter only, u can say tat she is nt my blood bt urs but tat doesnt mean u can ve any right on my daughter..u only did a job of a sperm donor, because fr me Neha wasnt a result of love coz if tat was love u couldnt so easily fall fr smeone else and tat too so deeply that u forgot all ur responsibilties and 7 yrs of marriage so fr me either u were fullfilling ur sexual desires or simple duty of a husband..u were never there for Neha and i would never let u be in future.I am very possessive about my daughter and i vl go to any extend to keep her safe.U surely dnt ve any legal rights on Neha and i vl never let u anywhere near my daughter coz i dnt want her to knw about her mothers sufferings and i mean it,stay away from my daughter ."

i didnt know wat to say, here a man whom i met fr the fist time is telling me, i was nly vng a sexual relationship vth mauli and i dnt ve any right on my daughter.. asking me to stay away...i wanted to strongly oppose his intepretation on my relation vth mauli..I loved her nd i still love her and who is he to give me permission to see my ma nd my daughter

but befre i could say somethng ma came vth food tray and Raj left.I wanted to see Neha once and take her in my arms and shout at her that i am her dad but i know ts nt possible i cant ruin her peace mauli's peace. if everyone is happy vth out me then let it be, its the least i can do for them.

me and ma had lunch together after 8 years and t felt lyk yesterday that i was n ma's lap nd mauli chiding me... those days were precious and would never return not in this lifetime..I conveyed my wish to ma to talk vth mauli and neha once ,i promised her that i would never telll anythng about our relatn to neha and vl behave to neha just like an outsider but ma said ts entirely mauli's and raj's decision and she dnt want to stress mauli in this state.

i bid goodbye to ma and said that i vl come again,eventhough ma was nt confident about meeting up she wasnt unwilling too i felt hope a hope tat i vl atleast get my ma eventhough i wnt be near her physically i knw there is someone to whom i can talk wen i feel alone.. tats enough fr me

Raj's monologue

I was living like a robot from that day till i met mauli. i was a happy go lucky guy vth lot of friends and few girl friends too. i lost my father wen i was in 2nd year of my engineering but my mother 'Avantika" never let us feel the abscence of my father she was one strong woman i had ever seen. she took care of me and my little sister riya very well all my aunts on my fathers side and mothers side was also more than ready to help ma. she had a strong bonding vth all. Mine marriage was an arranged marriage,Priya a sweet , naughty girl, who was pursuing law as career. eventhough t was not love marriage v soon started to fall in love during the courtship after engagement itself.. ma , priya and Riya got along so well and was always ready vth ways to trouble me.. t was always the ladies against me n annoying me . lfe was a bliss till Priya was diagonised vth blood cancer, v were ready to take her anywhere around the world fr traetment, but t was late .. doctors started vth chemotherapies abd radiatins but they already conveyed me about less chances of survival.Priya was a fighter and she never complained of these treatments but there were times wen everythng went out of her tolerance too.Doctors gave me an ultimatum of 6 months but priya couldnt hold on till that too. we lost the battle. i was shattred , ma my pillar who was so strong crumbled down, my sister riya lost her smile . priya took everythng she brought vth her and much more that v had before too..i had to live fr my ma and my sister.Riya's marriage is my responsibility also priya's parents. on her last days wen she knew there wont be a come back she took a promise from me that i vl move on i promised her too, but is it tat easy to move on..v shared just 2 years of marriage but memories v made are fr lifetime there wasnt a single stuff that i could do vth out thinking of her. Priyas parents left the city to stay vth her brother.after 2 years I got Riya married to a boy of her choice and she gt settled in 'New Jersey' time passed by. ma never compelled me fr a marriage and i am thankful to her fr understanding me.. v lived a mechanical life , i really wanted to move out of city to avoid the sympathetic looks on me and peoples advices to move on , i am young etc but i couldnt coz of ma. ma had some friends and relatives here which was needed fr her to pass her time,i dint want to trouble her anymore, later after another 2 years v gt the best news my little sister is gng to be a mother, i send ma to her to take care of her she wasnt keeping well , ts den i decided to move out f city as i knew ma vl be busy fr next 2 years atleast vth riya's pregnancy and later vth child..tats hw i landed n this city mumbai, i opted f a 2 bedroom flat fr stay. i was getting aquainted vthe the new city , people and home too. that wen i noticed an elderly lady in a wheelchair, nd another lady who was about my ma's age nd a young lady in the lift, they gt dwn in the same floor as mine nd i understood they are my new neighbours. we just had a formal introduction, the both elder ladies gave me a warm smile where as the young lady didnt even wait fr the introduction, but from Radhika aunty i knew she is der daughter,name Mauli , and a gynaecologist in xyz hospital..

Oops wat an arrogant lady, are all doctors like this?was my first thought...on seeing her walking away vth out even smiling...

vl continue Raj's and maulis life next chapter