Karma
Hi , My name is Kunal and this is my story. hw i became Looser No 1 from Dr Kunal.wanna here my story come vth me i will show u how...
8 years back
Oh God I was so happy that Nandini accepted my marriage proposal and i made her wear a ring. we both were so happy and i wanted to do all the things that would make her happy on our wedding after 3 days. I wanted to perform all the rituals and marriage too to happen n all the traditional way coz nandini is a traditional girl and i knew she would be happy this way.but all my happiness gt shattered when she denied to marry me stating that Mauli is pregnant vth my baby.. I was n a denial mode, v werent planning for a baby den, I believed that it is another drama just like didi did and confronted Mauli but I know ts true wen /mauli didnt deny it.. she would never stage a drama i know her...I didnt know wat to do nandini asked me to accept mauli and child as the child vl suffer the most vth our divorce I had no option rather than to return to mauli and mauli was more than happy to get me back.but i didnt cancel the divorce petition in fact i demanded some days to think on it and was allowed another 2 months for it. But my mind was never at peace. its not that i dont want to be a father. but i never felt happy vth this news i couldnt connect vth the baby... days passed by and my indifferece vth mauli didnt change. i knew i am hurting her but my mind was vthh nandini only. i kept on barging into nandinis home .. i kept on telling mauli that i dont love her anymore . ma and dida scolded me a lot fr hurting mauli but i didnt want to give her any hope and moreover i wanted to take my frustration on some 1..but all my worries doubts everythng came to a stand still wen i receieved a call from hospital where nandini was admitted n after fainting .. i was so happy to hear the news that she is pregnant vh my child.. wen i heard about maulis child i never felt this joy rather i was sad that my life vl be a compromise from now on whereas vth the news that nandini is pregnant i was on cloud nine. i knew nandini cant push me back anymore. Nandini tried to send me back but i had better reasons to be vth her now.nandini was did=scharged soon and i took her to home and stayed vth her for next 1 week preparing myself to face mauli and tell her that i choose nandini and child and i wants to give a name to our relation so that my child wont be called as a illegimate child.Mauli had the support of my family where as nandini is all alone and my responsibility.. but nothing was needed mauli already knew about nandinis pregnancy from her friend who treated nandini in hospital so mauli didnt even let me speak she just said that she has seen the lawyer and ve added some clauses to the divorce regarding childs custody and my denial on those clauses vl only extend the divorce proceedings. the clauses was that Mauli wanted the complete custody of the child and i would never raise a claim on it and i deny to take responsibilty of my child.eventhough i wasnt happy vth the cl;auses i couldnt oppose too coz i wanted to marry nandini at the earliest.I packed my belongings and left hoem i expected ma or dida to stop me eventhough i wouldnt but dey didnt even acknowledge my prescence which hurted my ego.
. after 2 months I saw Mauli on the divorce day she has gained some weight and a small bump was der which she tried to cover off vth a stall. for a moment i wanted to ask her how she is and the baby i wanted to feel the bump but i knew i doesnt deserve t neither mauli gave me a chance to even talk. divorce was granted and i married nandini. all these times i took great care of nandini and did my best to keep her happy never let her think tat i am loosing anythng by choosing her
another 2 months passed by me and nandini lived a life like fairytale. i rarely went out we formed a world n our home . cooked together, dreamed together,designed a nursery together. we were so happy til that fateful day.
It was nandinis check up and we were going to hospital. at a traffic signal i noticed rajdeep on my right side in his car he gave me a goodluck sign with a smirk i knew somethng was off.
in the next lane on a crossroad a truck came and hit our car on nandinis side. i saw chaos around me people were trying to pull us from car nandinis side was crashed so they took me out first and den nandini . we were transported to hospital, i was zoning in and out and atlast gave up . i opened my eyes next day my head was throbbing, and hand was plastered. I asked the nurse about nandini and she said she would sent th doctor soon,
I was informed that nandini is safe but we lost our baby and the worst was they had to remove the uterus to save her..I was shateered .I ws given the responsibility to give this news to nandini i didnt knew how but i had too hiding the fact tht she can never conceive again..
I longed to see ma or dida . i wanted a shoulder to cry upon but none was der. all i received was sympathetic looks on the faces who saw me.Nandind was shttered she became like a morgue i tried my best to deviate her mind. to keep up her hopes but every words went on a deaf ear.
She kept repeating that she snatched a father from a child and her child was snatched by god as punishment. i wanted to scream out tat no its not tat way tat she is nt wrong nd now i despise ma nd mauli fr giving her that notion. i zoomed to my home to give dem the news that their curse happened.
but i was welcomed by some unknown faces. they informed me that dey bought my house 2 months back and the resident who were der shifted to some other place which dey have no idea upon.I enquired about all to some neighbours and maulis firend many gave me a cold shoulder , some shut their door on my face and some asked me yyy do i wants to knw after 2 months didnt i think about them in last 2 months atleast about my ma in last 2 months. i was shocked tat i couldnt answer them coz its true tat i never thought hw dey lived n last 2 monnths dey were vth mauli bfr but after our divorce are they maulis responsibility? arent i supposed to take care of dem??
i returned back vth lot of shame and guilt but had to put on a brave face infront of nandini
nandini was discharged after 2 long weeks and den it striked us first the financial problems, the operation and 2 week stay in a multi speciality hospital resulted n a fairly big amount and i didnt ve any insurance t was maulis department even if i had i had no idea on it. a good amount of my savings was spent on it ts not that i didnt look fr job n last 4 months but i took t leisurely knowing that i had good amount n hand to live fr sme mre months. nandini had also spent a good amount of her savings on renovating the home fr a nursery and buying cloths and toys fr the kid...
i couldnt go on job search for another 2 weeks till nandini started ti walk of her own.. then came the real issue the job f a doctor s not tat easy to gain their were hardly 20 hospital and all hospitals already had paediatrics that dey dnt want an experienced doctor lyk me to whom dey need to pay more and moreover i didnt have any explanation on my 1 year gap.atlast i had to settle vth a clinic of my own but nt smethng tat i dreamt offf . it needed fund and time which i dodnt have so i took a 1 room fr lease n a commercial building fr consultation and spent rest of my savings and some by mortgaging my car fr the advance and buying necessesties of the clinic.
A new clinic needed time to flourish i could hardly earn something from the clinic as those who knew me personally never came to me vth their kids. those who knew me only professionally wondered yy am i sitting n a low class area leaving a big hiospital am i ousted coz f any mal practice and those who never knew me needed time to trust on me vth their kids.
i kept on taking loans from where ever i received to meet our expenses.. Nandini had to be treated fr depression too. she nevr took care of herselves or household which resulted n me taking care of both.
at one side my professional life was dooming and i couldnt share t vth my life partner. at the other side my personal life was also not going well i was getting tired and frustrated vth overload f work..which always resulted n me taking my frustration on nandini and she resulting in crying. after 6 months nandini started to demand fr a child coz till den i avoided physical relationship with her stating her physical condition isnt suitable. nd i had to inform about the removal of her uterus when she insisted to see a doctor wen she couldnt conceive even after 6 months. she was again into depression and the whole cycle continued.
dont know when or yy we startd drifting apart..v hardly talked coz
we couldnt talk about past coz v both had our best tmes n past wen v were vth mauli, fr nandini t was bfr her marriage vth rajdeep and fr me after my marriage vthh mauli.v conveniently wanted to forget mauli
Future was al about baby coz vv had seen those dreams once together..
Present was monotonous than ever. i never hanged out vth friends infact i am nt left vth anymre friend.Nandinis nly friend ws mauli and people outside evan nw avoids her lyk a filth..
vv fall short f talls, life became monotonous and lonely
unknowingly i started to compare my life nw to the life tat i had once vth mauli and that was the last straw in our relation..
Life was so lively before, i was always welcomed by a cheerful mauli and bickering ma nd dida tat i my ear hardly received any silence but nw i am welcomed always by a crying nandini and eerie silence of home which sulks me
I was never bothered about any emotional or financial isssues
mauli took care of finance, ma of household and dida on our emoyional stress by her nokjoks.. evrythng was always balanced, but now ts all upon my shoulders tat tires me.
Mauli always had a solution to all my problems nfact she knew my problems even bfr myself and now i cant evan shar e my problems vth nandini fearing she might breakdown
V always dreamt about a baby and all now i am dreading thinking about t.
i had an enviable professional life nw a dooming one
people looked upon me vth love and respect nw replaced vth hatred and disgust.
me and mauli could talk fr hours together nw i hardly sit 15 mins vth nandini
i wasnt prepared fr such changes neither was nandini coz all we shared till date was lovey dovey moments but wen the real life came nfrnt we couldn be the support system to each other and the blame games started..
at times i wonder wat is it v r lacking?
Is it a prescence of baby but me and mauli lived 7 years vth out baby but never n those days i was unhappy, so hw can a baby me an integral part n a couples life?
Is it abscence of elders? but arent more than half of our population lives ly k this?
is it lack of finacial support? but i am earning enough fr us 2 nw.
fall in my career? but ts gaining nw so shouldnt i be happy?
is it lack of love? but i still love nandini ...
or 'is it karma?
ts not tat i ddnt thnk about ma r dida i miss them and i hope one day dey would come back to me.
I miss my best friend mauli a lot who had the ability n her to bring a smile on my face vth her mischevness under any situation. to whom i dnt had to hide nythng. she read me like an open book. i miss her
i often thinks hw mauli would be coping up vth out me? is she missing me like i do her?could she move on> will she be able to forgive me?
my child..is it a boy or girl?how will he\she be looking? on whose feature dey had adopted?mischevios and naughty like mauli?
If mauli could move on will she marry again?if she does will her husband treat my child as his own? will my child be ignored nd thrashed?
my questions in my mind are so many tat i hardly get sleep at night.nandini was not willing fr an asoption as she s insecured tat i would go insearch f my own blood child later.. v werent well enough fr a surrogacy too as if now.
today is 8th year to my divorce vth mauli and i gt answers to some of my questions and i am n this bar to celbrate tt.
i was invited for a conference at delhi i thought f avoiding t but later decided to take t as i needed a change and to be away from nandini and some lonely tme and this was a good excuse over the years nandini had grown insecure about our relation nd our blame game reached to such an extend tat v avoid talking to eachother r ignore others prescence to avoid the hurt by blaming
Conference was held at delhi and some decisions regarding awarding some doctors fr the excellence were decided n the conference that wen i heard that name after 6 long years .Mauli from one of our common friend whom i met there i confirmed ts My Mauli. bt now
Mrs.Mauli Raj, senior gynaecologist to be awarded by another honor of excellence award.I understood she added 2 more specialization to her degree. she was always passionate about her work nd this was expectd..I got her address from the hospital she works.. i wanted to see ma, dida nd my child once but didnt ve the courage den after a lot f thinking and self boosting i reached her doors
My hands were shivering while pressing the door bell.
the door was opened by a maid and i was guided to a well furnished drawing room . the house had a certain aura, it had maulis signature every way. after 3 mins a more matured looking mauli came nfrnt of me i expected an outburst or anger but she was calm nd composed
"HI , Mr.Kunal what brings u here?"
her calmness surely bothered me, i felet like i never knew this mauli'
"woh me i came here fr a conference , and from shashank i came to know that he works in the same hospital where u works,
i just wanted to see ma nd dida, how r they"
"ts good to hear tat u still remember dem, but i am sorry to say dida died last year .ma has gone out vth my husband Raj to pick my daughter Neha from school, might be reaching soon n another 15 mins, u ve to wait till den"
"ts ok,Can i wait her if u dont mind"
"no issues u can, i dntt bother"
"so do what would u like to drink> tea or cofee or any cold drink"
i ve never talked vth mauli lyk this so formal as if v ve never seen befre.
"mauli hw can u be so cold to me, dnt u remember anythng tat v shared"
"excuse me Kunal , yes i remember evythng tat v shared and also ur betrayal. if i am some one who lives in past den u wouldnt be sitting in my home waiting to see ma"
"u no longer affects me n any way Kunal, i dnt even hate u den tat means u are still n me smewhere,, i am now a wife of a a very repectful person Raj and yes i live him and i dnt want to cheat him by keeping a part of u in me,i cant be you.. can I"
"if ur done vth ur questions pls excuse me, i ve some work"
after another 10 mins i heard a musical laugh
"mumma"
to be continued a small part nly
part 2 and 3 on page 3
Part 4 /5/6 on page 4
Part 7/8(last part)on page 5.
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