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Shailija, from past references we get an idea that, her youth was full of masti and carefree living, until she married and realised her duties as the wife and the daughter in law of the Kashyap household and that too as the eldest! Being the senior in relation & age brings natural changes to a person. Some subtle changes takes place without the person realising themselves that it had taken place. That is what seemed to have happened to Shailija. She adorned herself into the role of "badi bahu". For her, the priority was always her family and children. Doing small things for others without thinking became her nature. Caring, understanding the families needs, making sure the house ran smoothly, ensuring all were fed and watered, are just some of her traits. She became the ideal daughter and a good bahu for her inlaws and a wonderful mother for the children and a lovely bhabhi, for Alok, Rano and Radha.
While she became very domesticated and a well rounded bahu, bhabhi and mother, somewhere down the line, she may have missed out on being Ishwar's ideal wife. Of course she herself did everything she thought was right for her husband. Making his food, ironing his clothes, seeing to every needs as wife she did but what she didn't do at that time was to fulfill his "wants&desires". They were a little extravagant for her liking. Going to parties, wearing sleeveless blouses, eating alone with him, etc, all things she couldn't do as she was not accustomed that way of living. Her world and her comfort zone was always within her home, her family. She did not see the need to be alone, or go to parties to have have fun. Her mentality was "whatever it is we can do so together as a family". Whereas Ishwar wanted to enjoy the life outside their home and looked for more materialistic pleasures. Still everything seemed fine.
Days went by and the children were growing up. They seemed happy. Ishwar got a job in the US. As a wife Shailija supported him fully and encouraged him to go and get his dreams. Little did she know that she was driving him away from her...his dreams were about to become her nightmares...his departure would change her identity and turn her world upside down because He left! He left for good.
She has said in the past that Ishwar is her 1st love and it's true no matter what happens you can't forget your 1st love despite the pain, the betrayal, the humiliation, the rejection, she still will remember her 1st love. She has been scarred by his selfish act. She's lived for over 20 years without a husband, without a father to her children and without any thoughts of reconciliation.
He left like the wind and all of a sudden came back after so long. He wants to come back in their lives. The elders do not want that and She doesn't want that! However seeing small glimpses where she thought of the past, clearly there was a lot of love from her side for him so, can she wipe that away all together? At times she seems a little confused as to what she exactly wants. She doesn't want to go against her sasur and she doesn't want him back as he's hurt her beyond repair.
Still, she visited him to inquire of his well being, maintaining she's only fulfilling her duty to her saas. She can't let him back in her life as he's given her&the children too much grief! However she still remembers all those good moments they had together, she thinks about those precious times they'd spent together as a family ... until the betrayal wave comes an hits her...she wakes up...what should she do?
Should she/CAN she forgive him? Even if she did, can she ever forget those 2 cold decades? Should she maintain her life as a single woman? What does she want?What does her heart want? Aye dil e nadan...teri aarzoo kiya hain ?
Should she/CAN she forgive him? Even if she did, can she ever forget those 2 cold decades? Should she maintain her life as a single woman? What does she want?What does her heart want? Aye dil e nadan...teri aarzoo kiya hain ?
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