Something that stayed with me:
There were still so many lines between the two. Tangible, abstract, emotional, mental, past, present, future and moral. They both stayed in & worked around that to make their points. To make themselves heard. It wasn't ideal for Saras-Kumud but it was all they have right now & they made the best of it. It was indicative of their future equation as well. Lines were set, without saying a word. And the beauty of it is that they both tacitly affirmed and respected those boundaries. They will have to for it will become a way of life for them from here on...
"Haq" is going to take a backseat. Implicit and underlying each of their exchange, but will not be outright exercised unless need be. "Hadd" is going to define their interpersonal equation. The simple distinction of from being "in love" to "love" has come to pass. Saras standing by K will be testament to his love. Kumud, letting Saras help her will be evidence of the ehsaas that once raged within her. But that fire has become tempered now. It no longer consumes but burns on with a steady consummate blaze. Because their love does not need to blaze a trail any longer. Ishq mein reh kar unho ne imtehaan diya. With less than desired results. Ab mohabbat nibha kar hi woh aane waale imtehaano mein paas honge. And in this, visible manifestations of their love will only work against them. Rather, it is time that the "ehsaas" becomes an immanent part of them. Not necessarily in evidence in each one of their interactions but nonetheless guiding and fortifying them in their tasks every step of the way. That will be unconditional love. A love that refuses to stay within conventional boxes. A love that still has the power to usher in another inconcievable destruction but will instead be applied in the service of overall "good" this time. Not self-sacrificing. But selfless. There be the minute yet crucial difference.
Thursday's Epi:
Alpha K's back. And her first course of action was: torch it! But then, err, Kalika prevailed... Not taking Kalika's defeat per se. It was knee-jerk, it was unassumingly strategic. It was not a wholehearted repentance. Kumud's not "Master" yet. Kumud can never be "Master" in the whole sense. "Destiny" & a confluence of events has rendered her "servile". But Kumud can fulfill that charge with her head held high. This is where empowerment/Nayi Soch will come in. A striking compromise, but one tilted just a smidge in K's favor. In a mixture of her individual Alpha-ness and ingrained family principles, she will uphold and fulfill her duty. Now that in some sense she has recieved the only validation which matters. She'll defy the image in the mirror now. Her two identities have fused and Kumudsundari has come out supreme. Even in BD's house, as BD's DIL, VC's izzat is foremost for her. That is closer to the Kumud we and Saras know. And love. The one all wanted to see back. Because Kumud is in essence first about her family & then about herself. It was just a matter of seeing her call upon the Desai's as her bastion of strength, them for her & her for them. Proactively, rather than engaging in compelled deception, overawed by the cruel machinations of fate. That facet has now come to pass. So, bravo! 👏
P.S. Kalika aside. Who I'm really waiting for is Pramad ki Padma 😃
Friday's epi:
The mandir scene. Left me wanting. Blame execution for this. And something else I cannot put my finger on. Like it was forced somehow... Lodged into the narrative to respond to the question marks. Personal preference - but I would've wanted those question marks to remain hovering. It gave a certain sense of enigma to the whole internal struggle process. Now, with outright definition, that mystique has been lost. Strictly in my humble opinion. With the "answers" now revealed, all will have to align their markers accordingly. Markers "imposed" on an analytical level, so don't appreciate that. Imagination's been constrained and expectations fairly dumbed-down. One "spoon-feed" I could've done without
Some of K's reasons went way over my head and I don't agree with. Some gave further validity to K's dominant Alpha characterisation & her healthy ego. Witness her stumble & fall on her way to S? That stumble & fall is but K's innate nature. Nature she will have to adjust in the course of her circumstance. She will fight everything, even "herself", in the path that will lead her back to Saras. Pramad is not her destiny. Saras is. Even destiny will ultimately concede in front of that fact. Kumud has not accepted her destiny. Unbeknowst, she will fight against it for reasons not yet fathomed. Not for bappu's izzat et all... Those reasons tho valid & true are merely surface. In reality, deep down inside, K will fight "destiny" itself to reach her true place, potential in life.
The best thing about it was S' smile in the end. It was like a "Mission Acomplished, Mr. Saraswatichandra... Kumud is back! 👍🏼" It was Saras' second step in his path back to facing the moon with full conviction again. He brought K back. And then he let her go. To do what she needed to do, because he understands K so, so well. He knows Alpha K's first priority will be her marital obligations and he is ready to accept that. He will even help if need be to right & steady her current course. But he will not exert haqs and make her path difficult. He will stay within hadd's and do all to be a positive encouraging element on her side. And maybe in the course that brutally torn trust can be slowly repaired. So this was S' first show of selfless "love". He "nursed" her to a much healthier state by giving her the answers to the questions which tormented her so, he took away her "crutch" but enabled her to face the mirror again with defiance. Now he will let her do what she has to. Secure in the conviction that Kumud is up for it. She is willing to do battle... Ik khoj Saras ki bhi thi, in his determined trespasses of late upon K, Saras neeyat dhoond raha tha. And now that he has found it. He will take a step back. No trespasses from him any longer. Just simple, sure support. Because now Saras has something to prove to Kumud. That he can sustain "relations". Even if it be a relation that no one recognizes, a relation that manifests itself only in memories and ehsaas... A relation that with all of the filth around, will have an upward battle to present itself as pure. A relation that will have to stand the test of time, of allegations, and of countless yawning chasms.
Right now, S & K's priorities are different. And both know and accept it. Only S can make strides towards an ideal of "selfless love". For K, her "love" will be more submerged in the quagmire of her obligations. K will still inside be "in love", fortified by her hurt that he ended it all with that phone call. Natural and reasonable. But Saras, he has moved from "in love". He loves her now. That manifested in his pure simple action of letting her "go"... In the beatific smile flitting upon his visage... Sad because he is losing her. Satisfaction because he was succesful in bringing K's fighting spirit back. It also validated how well S knows K. And happy, because K will bear strikes no longer. And those that she will, he will bear them with her, if not for her. Saras has made his position in K's life v clear. They're connected, in pain, in hurt and in blood now. If nothing else. Also a curious mention, Saras somewhere inside, in his dominant Beta defers to the dominant Alpha in Kumud. It just seemed like he was happy to draw strength from his Kumud, once again, just as he was whole-heartedly offering her his untapped reservoir to draw in from. For what was his resolve in the end but a hark-back/another vow to the moon: "I will not desert her this time. I will stay. In my limits. By her side. Just like I promised in front of you once upon. Only difference was those limits were of passion and possession. But these limits are of the desire to finally see Kumud and myself... "Home".
So yes, it was effective in that it moved the narrative action forward but it was done heavy-handedly. Clunky... and call me spolit rotten but that's not my default expectation from SC. While usually that element is there in spades, this once the golden "affect" was lacking. And sorely missed. Ergo, heartstrings that should've been tugged, weren't. Also wasn't so immersed to let the incongruities pass muster.
Bottom line & apologies for being blunt with this: It wasn't done & done in the best Saraswatichandra style.