Originally posted by: napstermonster
I dont think I've ever been more flattered, more touched or more ashamed of myself, all at the same time! I truly am so honored that you thought my contributions helped you feel anything at all in the forum, TM, and I have to admit, I have stayed away (reading posts now and then, but mostly checking in on PMs) because of the negativity which was pretty vivid for the past few weeks.
Can I tell you how proud I am you included me in your list? Because I am! I think I'll say some things I normally would have kept quiet about, just because if even one person who reads this then realizes it pays to be less negative, I will have done something good for myself tonight.This was the first forum after IPKKND that truly made me feel good about posting, Its been a safe and nurturing environment.
When anyone posts, there will be a few open comments on the thread--but behind the scenes, there are a LOT of PMs where people can be more blatant. Either sweeter and more private, or...meaner, more painful. A comment on the open forum is different from PMs posters can get, and negative PMs can really hurt. A lot of us (serialjunkie, princesssunara and naach basanti, for example) --are from the older forum, where things got ugly real fast, onscreen and online.I dont speak for them but for myself when I say that I am once bitten, twice shy. Readers who've read my past fiction know I am very susceptible to negative stuff even if I try to stay away from it. It totally zaps my writing. I DONT mean criticism or discussion of my analysis, or comments on my writing, which I LIVE for. I mean nasty little PMs asking me to stop writing since I am butchering the character, or a snide comment saying that I should just stop watching if I hate xyz so much. I saw the trend before on IPKKND and that was horrible, so this time, seeing a very mild version of that here made me over sensitive, perhaps.
BUT, TM, YOU are RIGHT. You are absolutely goddamn right. You have beautifully and poignantly reminded me that its my forum too, not just the negative people who react so stupidly to rational discourse. You people are my friends too, what the hell am I doing, acting pricey and staying away and missing you lot? I am staying away from updating, and from posting and all ALL THE WHILE I am MISSING you people! I think I have over-reacted, in staying away and just choosing to go silent.
My dear, you have given me a shot in the arm, and I will make a conscious effort to be more present post, update the stories and interact with my friends, because hell--MY friends, MY forum, MY Rangrasiya!
Love,
Navin