#3 Asya FF 'Love and Love Only' chapter 38 on pg72(20.04) - Page 16

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Chapter 30...

Asya cute moment lovely... and romance
haider keep teasing them...
and talk highly about asad to his friends...

Nikhat lucky to be zoya friend forever...

Najma and Humaira... now sister in laws...

Originally posted by: Linsie

Mehak is a sad case

she is only jealous... and knows her life not that great...

but the love that asya share...

made her angry... but she never show ...

she is the loser...

Originally posted by: Linsie

Zoya wanted to something for asad birthday...
but forget...

by the time she remember... sh miss her cycle

but worried... not to keep hope high..

what if she is not... love the bonding the family

gives...

is beautiful gift for asad birthday... zoya surprise...

Hi Friends,

Here is the next chapter

Chapter 32

As: "Jaan, please tell me what is wrong? You are scaring me. Are you in pain.?"

Zoya said in between sobs.

Zo: " Aashu, I threw up everything I had and if this continues, my baby will have to starve. My baby will be hungry."

Asad felt relaxed as there was nothing serious. He decided to calm her down.

As : "Jaan, please don't worry. Our baby won't be hungry and now the baby is so small to feel hunger."

Zo : " Still Aashu. Doctor has already said that I am weak and if this continues, I may become weaker and what if something happens ..."

Before completing, Zoya burst out into tears again.

Dilshad and Zeenat finding Asad and Zoya left dinner in between, went in search of them. They both were shocked to see Zoya crying and Asad trying to calm her down. They both rushed to Zoya. Asad briefed them that she was upset as she is worried whether baby will be starving because of her nausea.

Both Zeenat and Dilshad worry was replaced by smile.

Ze: " Beta, it is all normal during pregnancy especially during initial days. That doesn't mean your baby will be hungry. You have to eat irrespective of how many times you vomit, so that there will be something left for the baby always. And as pregnancy advances, it will stop. And what is it beta, you are crying for this. Your vomiting definitely won't affect your baby but your crying and stress will definitely affect. So stop stressing yourself and also Asad. Just look at him, how worried he is."

Zo : " Of course ammi, he has to worry. Only thing which he needs to do is worry. All the rest I have to do. "

Asad was shocked at what she told but Dilshad and Zeenat smiled.

Dil : " Beta how are you feeling now? Better?. You didn't finish your dinner. Shall I get something else?"

Zo : "No Ammi, I really don't feel like . I am tired of vomiting. I will have the lime juice which Asad had brought for me."

Ze: " No beta, you can't sleep without having dinner. Even if you don't feel like or even if you throw up, it is ok. But definitely you have to. And Zoya, it is not easy becoming a mother. You have to prepare yourself beta, for all these difficulties, mood swings and all."

Zoya nodded her head.

Zo : " I know ammi, but I will have something light, like soup or salad. Please ammi for tonight, I am really tired."

Zeenat and Dilshad were about to leave, Ze :" Asad beta, What about you? Even you left your dinner in between. Come and have it."

As: " No ammi. Its fine. I am done with dinner.I will be here with Zoya."

Zo: " Ammi, You carry on Asad will come now."

As soon as Dilshad and Zeenat left , As : " Jaan are you ok?"

Zo : " Now feeling better. Aashu go have your dinner."

As : " Its ok jaan. I am fine."

Zo: " No Aashu" Zoya got up and placed her head over Asad's chest.

Zo: " Its is your birthday today. I wanted to make it so special for you. But instead I have spoiled it. I made you run behind me like crazy. I know you are also tired like me. I know I have behaved very badly at times with you today. I am really sorry for that. And let me tell you, I know Aashu that I have disturbed you so much today. Atleast you deserved a peaceful dinner with our family. But because of me, you couldn't even enjoy that. I insist Asad, please go have your dinner, please."

As : " No jaan, please don't say sorry. You haven't spoiled my day. Instead you have given me the most precious gift. And trust me, you didn't even disturb me for a second. Only it is that I am worried about you, after all it is the only thing which I can do, all.."

Before Asad could complete, Zoya covered his mouth with her hands.

Zo : " Aashu I am really sorry. I didn't mean that. Please don't take it to heart. I was feeling so miserable that it just.."

Zoya burst out into tears again.

Asad hugged her

As: " Please jaan don't cry. You heard na, what ammi told crying is not good for the baby. And it is a fact jaan, apart from worrying about you and taking care of you, I can't do anything."

Zo : " Aashu, you are with me. That is more than enough for me.Even I don't understand why I am behaving so indifferently. Feeling like I am experiencing an emotional roller coaster ride. "

As : " Jaan, it is because of hormones. Please don't worry about that. Ammi told me today, all these happen."

Zo: " Ya Allah, I think I should do some research about pregnancy. Otherwise ..."

As : " Not you alone jaan, we both will find out together.And trust me, I will never let you to be alone in all these."

Zo : " I know you are with me Asad. And for now go have your dinner and come back soon. I will be waiting for you."

As : " And you jaan?"

Zo: " I will also have something. I know it is necessary to have something irrespective of what or how I feel. So don't worry. After all, it is for our baby. I can do anything for the baby, all these small discomforts are definitely fine. Go "

Asad was relaxed hearing what Zoya told.

Asad before leaving bent down, kissed her tummy and said while caressing: " Hey, little one. How are you? And baby, your ammi is really tired. Please let her rest for sometime. Be good and go to sleep."

Zoya giggled at this

Zo :" You are talking to the baby as if the baby understands everything. And Aashu, I am getting nausea not because of the baby but because of hormones. Dr told me in the morning."

As: " Oh, I didn't know that. You are right jaan. We should get complete information regarding pregnancy."

Asad went out for having dinner. Zoya thought of changing into a casual wear but as she was about to get up, she felt dizzy. Hence she decided to lie down till Asad comes.

Dilshad was about to take food for Zoya, but the trio Nikhat, Najma and Humeira volunteered to feed Zoya. Najma was trying to linger around with Haider but Nikhat and Humeira dragged her to Zoya's room.

Haider was left with Asad.

The trio dashed into Zoya's room. Zoya somehow managed to sit up in the bed. She was still having dizzy spell. But she tried to behave normal because she knew very well if Asad comes to know that, he would run back to her without having dinner.

Ni: " Zoya how are you feeling?"

Zo : " Better."

Hu: " Have it Zoya bhabhi", Humeria extended the soup bowl to Zoya. Zoya was about to grab it, just then Ni : " No Humeira. I will help her with that." Nikhat understood that Zoya was still feeling not well.

Zo : " Its ok, Nikhat I can manage by myself."

Ni : " I know you can manage but still I want to. Now open your mouth."

Nikhat somehow managed to feed her the soup. Zoya was feeling nauseating. Before she could get up to throw up, Nikhat fed her a spoonful of ice cream. That really helped Zoya.

Hu : " Zoya bhabhi, .."

Before Humeira could complete, Zo: " Humeira call me Zoya, there is no need of bhabhi."

Hu : " Ok Zoya let me say hi to the little one, please."

Zoya smiled at Humeira's antics and she nodded her head.

Humeira placed her hand over Zoya's tummy and looked towards Zoya as if it was ok or not. She nooded her head

Hu : " Hey baby, I am your chachi. When you come, we will have a blast. Your chachu has already gone mad with the news of your arrival. I am sure he will turn the world upside down when you come. And hopefully by the time, I will also shift to this house permenantly." And then facing Zoya :" Zoya, I just called Ayaan few minutes back. It seems bhaijaan had already called him and informed the good news. He has lost it. Totally gone insane with the news."

Zoya smiled, and then it was Najma's turn. Both Najma and Nikhat too had a talk with the baby.

Zoya was really feeling tired. By then Dilshad came and called the trio and asked them to let Zoya take rest.

Zeenat wanted to meet Zoya before leaving, but when Zeenat came to meet her, she has already fallen asleep and hence she had to leave without meeting Zoya.

Asad returned to his room finding Zoya sleeping peacefully and hence he ddn't wake her.

Next morning, Asad woke up and got ready to go for jogging. Zoya was still fast asleep. Asad gently caressed her hair and kissed her forehead and left for jogging.

When he came back, Zoya was not in bed. He looked for her and saw her coming out of washroom. She looked tired.

As : " Good morning jaan? How are you?"

Zo: " Good morning. I don't know Aashu whether I am fine or not. I just threw up. I was trying to brush my teeth but ended up vomiting."

As : " Jaan, please lie down. I will call ammi or dadi. I mean, I really don't know what should be done."

Asad went to call Dilshad and she reached there in no time.

Dil : " Zoya, are you ok, beta. Asad was telling me you were not feeling good."

Zo : " Ammi, nothing serious, just threw up."

Dil : " Asad, it is normal. And Zoya, beta you have to start ignoring your nausea because it is going to be there for sometime. I know it will be difficult for you but you will get used to it. I will send tea and some cookies for you. Have it. In this condition, it is not good to have tea alone in the morning. And beta, you have to start drinking milk from now onwards. I know you don't like milk but you have to for your baby."

Zoya nodded her head.

After a while, Asad came with tea and cookies for Zoya.

She asked Asad while munching her cookies.

Zo: " Aashu, Aren't you going to office today also?"

Asad went and sat near Zoya. She offered him the cookies she was munching and he took a bite.

As: " Jaan actually I have an urgent and important meeting scheduled for today. It was scheduled last week. So I am confused as to go or cancel the meeting."

Zo: "There is no confusion. Ofcourse you have to go."

As: " But Jaan, you are not well and .."

Zo : " I am not ill Asad, I am pregnant and there would be problems like this all through out. So are you planning to sit with me all these months. Infact I will be back to office once doctor gives green signal and once I start feeling better. And don't worry about me Aashu. Ammi is there, dadi is there and I will definitely call you if there is any emergency."

As: " Are you sure jaan? I mean I don't feel like leaving you...I mean I am worried."

Zo: " Aashu now stop being over protective. I am ok. And please concentrate on your work."

As: " Ok but promise me that you will take proper rest. And if you feel any discomfort, please call me."

Days passed by and it was almost a week after the news of Zoya's pregnancy. Zoya was having nausea and weakness, but irrespective of all these, she tried to remain calm and was taking complete rest as advised by doctor as she didn't want to take any risk.She slept most of the time . Whenever she was awake, either dadi or Dilshad would give her company if Asad is not around. Zeenat also visits her daily as she was also worried for Zoya. Irrespective of how many times she threw up, she never skipped her meals. Infact she never said no to any food which her ammi or dadi brings for her. Though she had tiredness, she started adjusting to her new routine. Asad was always worried for her and was overprotective.At times Zoya was irritated with his overprotective behaviour.

Asad returned from office early that day so that he could spend more time with Zoya as he has been busy with work the entire week.

Asad went to his room to find Zoya sleeping. Asad was about to wake her up because he knew she might have been sleeping after lunch and there wasn't any problem is waking her up.

As Asad was about to wake her, Dilshad stopped him.

She grabbed his hand and brought him out of his room.

As : " Ammi what is it?"

Dil: " Don't wake her up. It is with much difficulty that she has been able to sleep. Poor girl, she was too ill today."

As: " What happened ammi?"

Dil: " Today since morning after you left, she has been vomiting. She wasn't even able to drink or eat anything. Usually she keeps nauseating but today it was uncontrollable. Actually we all were scared. She wasn't even able to stand properly. And she almost fainted today in the washroom. But it was highly thoughtful of Zoya that when she felt she was about to fall down, she sat down on the washroom floor. And then Saira came here and she gave an injection for vomiting to stop. She has also prescribed medicines for nausea if it is becomes uncontrollable like this again. We were thinking to take her to hospital but thanks to Saira, when I called her she came here. "

As: " Ammi how is she now?"

Dil: " She is better now"

As: " Ammi did she have anything?"

Dil : " Yes beta, she had food an hour back. Please don't wake her up till dinner. She is really tired."

As: " Ammi, is there anything to worry?."

Dil : " No Saira told that it happens in some cases. There is nothing to worry much."

As: " Ammi, but why didn't you call me if Zoya was so ill?"

Before Asad could reply, dadi cut her in between

Dadi: " You are asking this Asad? You have any idea how many times Zoya had called you today? Not only Zoya, your ammi too called you in between. Your phone was switched off. And Zoya called in your office too but your PA said that you were busy in a meeting. Beta I never expected to be so irresponsible. Why did you keep your mobile off. And even if it was switched off, didn't you get five minutes to call your wife and ask how she is. And how do you expect us to inform you?"

Asad had a very hectic day in the office as there was board meeting and instead of putting mobile to silent mode, he switched off his mobile by mistake during meeting. But he realized that it was his mistake that he didn't call Zoya and asked about her health.

As: " I am sorry dadi.. I don't.."

Dadi cut him in between.

Da: " Beta, it is not about feeling sorry. Make sure that you are always at your wife's reach. She needs you the most during this period. When ever she feels some discomfort, she will only want to share it to you first. And when you won't be available, she will definitely be hurt. So try not to repeat this.And now stop being sorry and go drink your coffee."

Asad was feeling so terrible with the thought that he was not there with his Zoya when she needed him.

He was sipping his coffee and was listening to dadi's and his ammi's conversation.

Da: "But Dilshad don't you think Zoya is too ill. I don't think it is normal. I have seen so many pregnant women. But I really think she is too weak."

Dil : " Ya ammi, even I feel so. I mean she is too weak that she sleeps all day. I know she has been advised rest but still... And above all, nausea that too so much...I asked Saira, but she said it happens in some cases. "

Asad was more worried hearing their conversation.

As Asad was about to go to his room dadi called him

Da: " Beta, I am going back tomorrow morning"

As: " But dadi , why so soon? "

Da: " Beta it has been a week. And don't worry I will come again very soon. And please beta make sure you take care of Zoya. And when you go to meet doctor, please make sure everything is normal."

Asad hugged dadi and nooded his head.

Asad went to his room. He sat near Zoya and caressed her hair. He noticed that Zoya was looking pale and weak. He was really guilty that he wasn't available for his wife when she needed him.

Asad took his laptop and started browsing articles which dealt with pregnancy.

It was almost 8pm that Zoya woke up. Seeing Asad lying near her, brought smile in her face. She has been craving for him all the day. She cuddled closer to Asad and it was then Asad realised that Zoya was awake.

Zo : " Aashu why didn't you wake me when you came back?"

As : " Zoya, how are you feeling now? I am really sorry Jaan that I was not there for you when you needed me."

Zo : " I am feeling far better now. And its fine Aashu, I know you didn't do it deliberately."

As: " But Jaan.."

Zo : " I said na Asad, it is okay. Please now no more sorries."

Asad kissed her.

And after that day Asad made it a point to call Zoya or his ammi at regular intervals irrespective of how busy he was. He usually left messages for Zoya asking her to call back when ever she is fine. He always made sure that Zoya never missed him.

Five more days went by, Zoya was having usual nausea and dizzy spells. But she has become used to all these. At times, she had to take medicines to stop nausea. Asad felt she was becoming weaker day by day and he was worried.

It was Sunday and Asad was at home. They were supposed to go for check up the next day and Asad had taken a day off on Monday because of which he had to complete some urgent work.

Zoya was lessy fussy that day. She was feeling better and hence was in a good mood.Moreover she was very much excited because she will be seeing her baby for the first time next day as it was her first sonography. Though she had a bad experience earlier, she was looking forward for the happy moments ahead.

Zoya did not disturb Asad in his work as she knew it was important.

After breakfast, Zoya returned to the room. Asad was busy with the work. Zoya was feeling bored. She read few magazines and then she decided to take bath.

After bath, Zoya was feeling very tired. She really wanted to lie down. Hence she came back to the room in the bathrobe itself. She was feeling too tired to change. Just as she entered the room sliding the partition door, she was feeling dizziness. She called out for Asad.

Zo: " Asad"

Asad rushed to Zoya.

As: " Zoya what is it? "

Zoya didn't reply instead she caught hold of Asad's arm. He understood that Zoya was feeling dizzy. He carried her to the bed. He made her lie down.

He went to the kitchen to get juice for Zoya. Dilshad was preparing lunch. Dilshad informed Asad that she will bring juice and asked him to go back.

When he came back, he saw Zoya was trying to get water from jug. He helped her with that and gave her water.

As soon as she finished drinking water, he took glass from her and wiped her lips with his finger. For a moment he was lost in his wife's beauty. Asad found it very hard to control his emotions. He caressed her face and kissed her on her cheeks. Zoya too kissed him. But little did Zoya knew about Asad's intentions. Asad made her lie down and bent to kiss her lips and he kissed her passionately. She too responded to the kiss, but she was feeling uneasy. As he broke the kiss, Zoya expected him to get up but instead he initiated his actions which often lead into intense love making. Zoya tried to push Asad away from her, but his grip was too strong for her. But instead he grabbed her and pinned her underneath him. Zoya was really worried as she could feel his entire weight on her body. She tried to push him but was of no use. Infact his hold was too strong that it was hurting her. She was pleading Asad to move away but it seemed Asad was totally lost as he wasn't even listening to her.

Just then, Dilshad who came with juice for Zoya witnessed this. She could clearly see that Zoya was trying to push Asad down from her body and that his hold was hurting her.

Dilshad yelled: " Asssadd"

Dilshad's voice brought Asad back to senses. He turned back to see Dilshad and she was red with anger. He looked towards Zoya and then he realised that he was crushing her with his weight and moreover her hands were held so tight that her hands were he had his grip was red. He could see tears in Zoya's eyes. He immediately got down from the bed and went towards the washroom as he didn't want to face Dilshad.

As soon as Asad left, Dilshad rushed towards Zoya.

Dil : " Are you ok beta? "

Zoya nodded her head.

Dilshad helped her to sit up and gave her juice to drink. As she was having juice, Dilshad noticed the reddish mark on her hands. She gradually caressed the marks.

Dil : " I am sorry beta. I always thought my beta is a very good husband who takes care of his wife but I think I was wrong. "

Zo : " No ammi definitely not. Asad is the best husband any girl can ever imagine. I always feel that I am the luckiest girl for having got Asad as my husband. And trust me ammi, he had never hurt me. He had never forced me into anything which I don't like.Please don't say that Asad doesn't care for me. Infact he cares for me more than anyone else."

Dil : " I was really worried beta seeing the way Asad was... I mean doesn't he know that you are not allowed to do all these. I remember Saira reminding about this to you on her last visit also."

Zo: " No ammi, he knows it. And we have been following doctor's instructions. But today, I don't know what happened to him that.."

Dil : " Leave it beta, just tell me one thing. Are you alright? Are you feeling any discomfort?"

Zo: " No ammi. I am fine. Infact after drinking the juice, I am feeling better."

As soon as Dilshad left, Zoya locked the door and then she went to the dressing room. She changed into a casual wear and then she knocked at the washroom door.

Zo : " Aashu, how long will you take? I need to use the washroom"

There wasn't any response from washroom. As she was about to knock again,he opened the door.

Asad came out of the washroom with wet clothes and water dripping from her hair. He was all wet and his eyes were red. Zoya was shocked seeing this.

She grabbed a towel immediately and dried his hair.

Zo : " Aashu What is all this? Huh? Now get changed immediately. Or else you will fall ill.Are you listening to me?"

Zoya took out a change of dress for Asad and gave it to him.

Zo : " Aashu please get changed soon. I would have helped but so sorry I need to use the washroom immediately. I can't hold it for long."

Zoya came back after a few minutes and saw Asad had still not changed his clothes.

Zo : " Aashu. You didn't change till now. Aashu please."

Zoya noticed tears flowing from Asad's eyes.

Zoya hugged him so tightly.

Zo :" Aashu please stop crying. I am alright.And it is ok."

As: " But Zoya, I am so sorry. I don't know what happened to me that.."

Zoya placed her hand over Asad's mouth

Zo :" Sshhh. No more sorries Aashu. You don't need to explain anything. See my dress has also become wet. I need to get changed soon. Otherwise it is not good for baby if I fall ill."

Zoya grabbed another dress and went to wash room for change. Asad too changed.

But he was terribly upset with his behaviour. He was worried whether he has hurt Zoya or baby.

Zoya tried to console him but he was very much worried. She tried to assure him that he didn't hurt her or the baby.

Asad made Zoya lie down and caressed her tummy. He placed a kiss over her tummy.

As :" Zoya are you sure I didn't hurt the baby?"

Zo :" Of course Aashu, you didn't. Trust me I am not feeling any discomfort. And getiing intimate during pregnancy is also not a problem. But in our case since doctor has strictly warned us to avoid getting intimate, we should be careful."

As : " I don't know how I will face Ammi again? What might she be thinking about me?"

Zo: " Don't think too much Aashu. I am feeling sleepy ."

Zoya dozed off within no time.

Asad was upset and he was sitting in the little garden. He was sitting in the swing. He had put the swing especially for Zoya, but since her news of pregnancy she was not able to use it as she always felt dizziness if she sits in the swing. He couldn't believe that he himself was so much carried away that he almost ended up hurting his wife and his baby.

After almost half an hour later, he saw Zoya waking up and then rushing towards the washroom.

Asad realised by the end of the day that his ammi and dadi were right that Zoya was having nausea than normal from the knowledge he acquired from articles. He understood the reason for Zoya becoming so weak and pale. Actually she throws up more than what she eats and the strain she has whenever she throws up makes her tired. Asad was worried but he couldn't do anything to help her. Anyway he decided to have a discussion with doctor the next day.

Next day at hospital, Zoya was initially taken for blood tests when Asad waited for her in Dr.Saira's cabin. He was clarifying all his doubts regarding preganancy. Seing Asad so much worried and anxious, Dr. Saira tried to calm him down.

Dr: " Asad don't worry about increased nausea. In some cases, this happens. But there won't be anything much to worry. And about tiredness, as you know Zoya was already weak and continuious nausea had made her weaker. And we can ignore all these if they are in the limits or else it becomes an issue. We will sort it out Asad. And as pregnancy advances, the nausea will gradually reduce. So don't panic Asad"

By then Zoya came back.

Dr: " It will take time for blood results. By the time, we will do sonography. "

Zoya changed herself into the gown given by the nurse. Asad helped her to lie down. But Zoya's thoughts made her tensed. Last time's memories were running through her mind. She was highly tensed. She was praying that everything goes fine this time and seeing her baby should be the beautiful moments which she can cherish all her life. Asad could read Zoya's thoughts. He kept his hand over hers.

As : " Jaan don't worry, Everything will be fine this time"

Dr came and then she started the process, and doctor was observing the image in the screen carefully. She enlarged a small bean like image and then she freezed the screen. There was a wide smile on her face. Both Asad and Zoya were scared so much.

Dr: " Everything is perfectly fine. There is nothing to worry. And to be mom and dad are you people ready to see your baby?"

Both Asad and Zoya said in unison: " Yes"

Dr: " To be more precise, your babies"

It was Zoya who responded immediately to this : " Babies?"

Dr: " Yes beta, you are pregnant with twins."

Asad who was initially shocked recovered and then asked : " Really? "

Dr: " Yes, an see this is an image of your babies. I know it doesn't seem like, but it is."

Both Asad and Zoya were overwhelmed with happiness and then the doctor unfreezed the screen and showed them babies' heart beat.

Dr: " You will not be able to hear heart beat of babies now. So you can just see those heartbeats and hopefully by your next visit, you will be able to hear the heart beat. And Asad this explains why Zoya has been more ill."

Dr left the couple alone.

Asad hugged Zoya and kissed her forehead. He also kissed her tummy. Tears were flowing from her eyes. Asad too had tears. But those were tears of happiness. Their feeling couldn't be explained with words. Life seemed so contented for both of them.

To Be Continued...

Thanks

Sarita

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Kindly ignore errors as proof reading hasn't been done.

Initially I was planning for a single pregnancy for Zoya, but then later I decided to change it to twin pregnancy. And hence some of the portions of the update has been re written and hence didn't get ample time to do proof reading. Kindly forgive me for mistakes.