Sahil OS One Last Chance

One Last Chance

"Listen, we've been through this over and over. It just doesn't work with us, Ahil. Try to understand. Please." I pleaded, tears forming in my eyes.

Ahil placed his hands on either sides of my face, delicately caressing me, wiping my pearly tears.

"Sanam, we can do this, we can make it work. Just give me one more chance" he almost breathed these words to me, our proximity increasing as he leaned in closer with every word.

"It's too late" I whispered. I shut my eyes, clearing all thought of him, and our love. I expelled everything from my heart and opened my eyes, a strong vision laced with confidence and determination floating behind my weary and regretful eyes.

"I need to leave." I said, profoundly, trying to escape his arms.

I turned to leave, with a heavy heart but head held high.

"Sanam, please." He begged, and I dared not turn around for I knew that voice too well. I could not bear to see him in tears, tears weren't meant for his perfectly sculpted face. It would kill me to see him so distraught so I began walking away from him stoically.

"If you have ever loved me, just stop Sanam. Just tell me what I need to do"

Why was he making this harder? Why did he know all the questions to ask, for which I myself did not have answers?

"Ahil, just stop it" I bit out, ignoring the ache in my heart.

"No you just stop it!" Something tripped in him and he darted towards me and pinned me to the wall.

"What are you doing? Let me go" I fought with him for a few moments to get out of his captive but surrendered, for I knew too well I didn't stand a chance.

"I love you Goddammit. Why don't you understand? I know I messed up. We always do but please just this last time. I promise you. I won't leave you. I.." he trailed off, sighing in exasperation, grasping for words and I took this opportunity as words came blurting out of my mouth.

"No! Why don't you understand Ahil we've done this too many times. It never works. I don't want to be hurt anymore. We're just two bombs. Put us together and we explode. It's not worth it anymore"

The color was drained right off his face as I uttered my last few words.

"You don't love me?" was all he slipped out in a dejected tone, looking at me with those dark orbs, piercing into my soul for the truth.

"No" I mumbled, biting my lips, my eyes looking to the ground.

"Look at me, Sanam, look me in the eye and say you don't love me" he demanded, shaking my arm.

"Ahil, stop it"

"Look at me! Just look me in the eye and say it. If you do, I won't bother you again" he spat bitterly.

"Ahil please"

"Just tell me, for God's sake. I love you Sanam Ahmed Khan. I deserve at least this much"

I stammered and I could see his patience wearing out.

"Look at me!" he shouted, forcing my chin up and I knew I was doomed.

"Yes! Damn it, Ahil! I do love you. I always have. But I..." his finger came over my lips, ceasing my dialogue and he shushed me.

"Then that's all that matters" he whispered with over my lips huskily, leaning our foreheads together. I closed my eyes, ready to protest but I knew I wouldn't.

Before I knew it, the familiar feeling of his lips pressed to mine engulfed me and I drowned in the moment of belonging to him once again. In that moment, I felt complete again; he was an elixir to me. My hands snaked around his neck and his around my waist, with one occasionally caressing my neck. I missed these moments. I missed his passion. I missed our love. I cut off all hesitation and doubtful thoughts and surrendered myself to this moment and to him. I couldn't ignore it anymore. I needed to feel his love.

God alone knew how long it would last.

Again.