||Asya FF|| Bring me back to life - pt 23 -pg151!! - Page 64

"Let me tell you a story about this very special girl." he placed the diary and turned to me. "So there was this girl studying in the school near mine. Whenever I dismiss, I glimpse her sitting under the tree either doing her homework or reading a story book. I never saw her with anyone, she's always alone. I used to sit on the bench nearby and gaze at her, I would wait for her to leave only then I will retrieve home." he was the guy on the bench? That guy was Asad? Unbelievable, back then he was so skinny and weird. "But why?" I asked him wanting to know more. He scrutinizes around to distinguish if anyone is there and when he was confirmed that no one can pay attention to us, he whispered something my ear."Because I had a crush on her." he said it quickly and moved back. "I didn't even have the courage to ask her name. But then one day, she accidentally dropped this diary and I picked it up."

"Okay, let me conclude this, you had a crush on this lonely girl who used to sit under the tree writing her diary and you-" I spoke. "And reading books too." He cut me in the middle. "Ya reading books and you just watched her? Out of the entire things you could have done, you decided to watch her silently from afar?" Is this guy serious? My all-time-weird-looking-crush had a crush on me and he did nothing. Of course I had a tiny crush on my best friend but when he got a girlfriend, I was determined to forget him and then Asad appeared in those black glasses. "I told you back then I was shy and" I shamelessly cut him. "Yes certainly shy and weird with those black gigantic glasses of yours." Oh-Ohw! I did not just say that! Just a perfect way to ruin a moment Zoya. What if he knows the diary is mine? What if get to know that I'm that lonely girl? He wouldn't find out right? I didn't use my real name so it's not possible.

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Wait, how did she know I had those black glasses? "My glasses, how did you know about them?" I asked her with curiosity. "Um... I." I don't know if it's me feeling that she is creating something in her mind or is she really making an excuse. "I'm waiting for an answer Zoya." I spoke looking through her eyes to see if I can know what she's hiding. "Najma... she showed me your childhood pictures." I think I got my answer. She is defiantly lying but what for? "I don't know if I should break the bubble but I certainly didn't have pictures of that age because I felt that I look weird." Busted Zoya, you are busted.

"Did you read the diary?" Oh there she goes, trying to change the topic. "I believe I told you I did but I just read the first two pages. I felt guilty so I didn't continue." I wonder why it was related to the diary but I just receive a feeling that I did not do well by telling her about my crush. "How about we talk after you finish reading the diary? I'm pretty sure that little-crush of yours wouldn't mind." She stood and exit through the door not giving me a minute to protest. I turn the cover and read the very first words.

Dear diary,

This is my first time writing a diary but I was told by my best friend that I just had to share my feelings with you since I can't open up with him. Oh, Btw I'm Joya. I wanted to share my feelings with someone but I didn't know how but now I've got you. I can share, you probably wouldn't tell others because you don't have a mouth. Well, the thing is I miss mom. I miss her very much, you possibly wouldn't understand how much but I miss her a lot. I hate my father for taking her away from me, why was I his daughter? Why can't I live my life like a normal teenage girl? I want a real family like my other classmates. Their mother pack their food for them, their father give them a ride to school. Why can't I have all that? Is that too much to ask for? I want to crawl into a hole and hide from the whole world; I don't want to live anymore.

Wait, Zoya's name is also Joya? God, how can I be so stupid? I flipped over another page and started reading.

Dear diary,

Hi, it's me again. Guess what? My best friend got a girlfriend, you must be wondering who my best friend is, its Ayaan. Can I share another secret with you? I had a tiny crush on my best friend so I felt a little jealous when he told me he got a girlfriend but then I'm not hurt because I don't love him, it was just a crush, a pure admiration towards him. Anyways the main thing is, today I saw someone. No it's not a kid or anything, he is a man. I thought I saw my Dadu passing by but when I turned, he was gone. Maybe you can call it my imagination but that man really reminded me of my Dadu. I met Dadu on the way when I lost my mom near a theme park and started crying. He bought me candy and we played around in the theme park. That day, he told me he also wants a daughter like me. After some days, I met him again in the same place and we went to the theme park again. It carried on like that until that day, the day my mother passed away. I was crying on the bench where I would always meet my Dadu but he didn't appear that day like he always did and since then I never saw him until today. I'm not sure if it was him but I couldn't be wrong.

Shoot! It's really Zoya! I had a crush on Zoya and I told her, how more embarrassing could this situation get? I closed the diary decided to read more in my room. As soon as I left the room, I saw Zoya sleeping on my mother's lap.

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P.S. i did not proof read so pardon me if there are any mistakes. i know its a short update but i cant do anything. have to do my hw now so you can enjoy this for a while.

P.P.S. buddy me for pms.

Farah<3