She's leaving.
I should be happy for her, and so I am. Inspite of the fact that my sister just passed away...inspite of the fact that my father is missing.
But I'm happy for her. After fighting for her love for so long, she deserves every happiness she can get with him.
I get disjointed, distorted fragments of the truth, but somehow they don't affect me all that much. The fact that my sister was in love with a vampire'who is now a human'doesn't shock me as much as it would under normal circumstances. I can't bring myself to even care.
I've seen her, these years. She's gone from an orphan to my best friend to my sister. I've seen the intensity, the madness of her love for him. Yes, love is a madness- it is insanity. Why else would I proclaim my feelings for him ? It was a moment of madness- of unreality. Now I know what Pia went through all this while.Because to love someone means having the guts to jump off a cliff without wearing a safety harness. Yes, love frightens me.
I'm almost jealous of Abhay. He gets to stay with my best friend. Don't get me wrong- I wouldn't want it any other way. But I wish- I wish so badly I could have gone with her. Gone away from the madness my life is about to become. Now that Birdie has gone'I guess I have to grow up real fast. I don't know where Papa is. Where has he disappeared? Why has he left?
Mama's crying.
I want to howl, too.
I want to scream so loud that the windows will shatter. But I can't. I need to- what do they call it- hold up the fort. Be strong for everyone. I don't want Pia to come back again. I don't want her to stay in the gloom that is our home.
I guess I won't be getting my fairytale with Kabir, after all. But I can live with that, I'm not that weak.
All I really care about, I guess, is that Pia gets her fairytale with her Prince Charming. She deserves it, and more. I want her happy.
I told her to go. She was crying. She said she didn't want to leave me. I didn't want her to go, either. But I told her to go anyway. Because she is still my best friend. I've laughed with her, fought with her.
But if you love someone very much-you should let them go to wherever they can be happy. Even if it's away from you.
I love you, Pia- my best friend. Forever.
Happy Friendship's Day. This is Misha's POV, when Pia left for Mumbai.
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