He's not Abhay...

He's Misha's best friend.

He's sweet to me.

He's kind and good-natured, open and warm. He stands up for me when T insults me. He tries to make sure I'm not upset. He's just like a ray of sunshine. He's one of my best friends,too. He says he wants to be more. But how can I give him more? I can't be more for him. I can't be in love with him. Because he's not Abhay.

He doesn't make me feel small and ridiculous with a few, well chosen words. He can't hurt me the way Abhay does. He doesn't make my legs turn to jelly. He isn't rude to me. He doesn't tell me to stay away from his life, nor does he ever pin me against a wall. He doesn't make me dream and break my heart into a million tiny pieces the next instant.

He's not Abhay. He's Kabir. He can't ever be him, and it's not even his fault. I hate myself for hurting him , but how can I lie to him? That would be worse, something even a friend would not do.

Why can't I bring myself to feel for him what I feel for Abhay?

Because he's not Abhay.

So I can't love him.

Even though he says he loves me.

But I can't love him back.

Even though Abhay doesn't return my feelings.

He loves someone else, too.

We started off as rivals.

We became good friends later.

Jeh isn't as bad as I'd thought. He's nice to me, funny at times, and is there for me when I'm feeling upset.

He listens when I pour out my worries to him. He says he's in love with me. Now he expects me to return his feelings. But I can't do that. I can't love him back.

It would be wrong- to him, and to myself. But how can I explain it to him? How can I tell him that my heart years for the person it has no memories of? How is it possible to feel for Abhay so deeply?

Abhay seems to hate me now. He comes to college with a new arm candy everyday, just to flaunt it in my face that I'm not that girl. He knws I'm hurt. I think he wants me to be.

So why am I still hung up on him? Why is my heart not taking Jeh's offer? Jeh is nice to me. He's caring and kind.

But he's not Abhay.

So he never has that effect on me.

He's not Abhay.

So he doesn't make my heart skip when I see him.

He's not Abhay.

So he couldn't break my heart if he tried.

He's not Abhay.

He doesn't insult me in the morning and protect me from the media in the evening.

He's not Abhay.

He doesn't date my sisters just to hurt me.

He's not Abhay.

So I can't love him.

Because my heart refuses to listen to me.

So I hurt him too. He asks me why I don't get over him. I don't reply, because I know I cannot.

I'm pathetic, and ridiculous.

Because Abhay's broken up with me long ago. He's over me. He'll never love me back. No matter how much I try to get his attention.

By putting him in jail.

By blaming him for my sister's behavior.

By accusing him of things I know in my heart he didn't do.

But it's not going to work.

He doesn't love me.

I dunno if this qualifies as an OS or not...I just wrote it since it came into my head. 😛

Awesome. So it's Piya's POV for Kabir and Jeh for whom she has no feelings and she wonders why she don't love them. So true they are not Abhay. Beautifully written. I don't care whether it's os or ss but I simply loved it. 👍🏼

Originally posted by: abhiya_kapi

Awesome. So it's Piya's POV for Kabir and Jeh for whom she has no feelings and she wonders why she don't love them. So true they are not Abhay. Beautifully written. I don't care whether it's os or ss but I simply loved it. 👍🏼

Thanks so much. I felt this is what she possibly could have thought. I'm glad you liked😳

Originally posted by: bookworm-ALS--

Thanks so much. I felt this is what she possibly could have thought. I'm glad you liked😳

yep I've always loved Piya's POV. 😳

wow ! it waS really very nice ...pia pouring out her feelings !
LOVELY PST !! 😊

Luvly post shreya!i simply luvd pia's pov here..luvd da way u have shown pia conflicting vd her heart n brain n everytym reaching to da same conclusion..HE Z NOT ABHAY...
wow!!:)

awsome blossom post 😳 simply amazing n in loved it 😃