Loath to love
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Chapter 5 - page 12
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Chapter 6 - page 14
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Chapter 7 - page 17
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Chapter 8 - page 18
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Chapter 9 -page 20
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She was fraught with tension. For the first time in so long they were in the same room. And this was exactly why she had stayed away. But it was not exactly like she could avoid coming back to Bhopal this time. It was her sister's engagement. Obviously he was there. He was watching her all the time. But no one knew but her. In fact she didn't have to look at him to know that he was staring at her. She was so aware of him. She pretended to be oblivious to him but she knew he would know that she was not. So much time has passed and nothing has changed. She was dancing with one of her cousins when she felt him close by. He cut in and asked to dance with her. Of course it would be a slow song. He held her close. Those old feelings came flooding back. She couldn't look him in the eye.
"Finally you had to come back" he whispered in her ear.
"Not for long" she said back.
"Long enough" he said.
"No, Yash."
"Yes" He pulled her closer. She felt the length of him against her. His hard muscular body. Now also memories came flooding back. She felt weak. She was holding on to him, not because she wanted to, but because she had to. She didn't know how they got there but all of a sudden they were outside.
"Yash, we need to go back inside."
"No" He took her by the hand and led her to his car.
"Where are we going?"
You know." He opened her door and she got inside. He got in on the driver's side and as soon as he closed the door he took her in his arms and gave her a passionate kiss. It lasted so long as neither wanted to let go. Finally he pulled away, looked at her, gave another peck on her lips and drove off.
She followed him as he once again led her by the hand. She knew this was so wrong and that it would probably end as badly as it had done before. But she was helpless. The very thing that she feared most was happening. She had fallen in love with him the first time she saw him and she could never resist him. Even knowing what she knew.
He took her to his room and he immediately started to kiss and undress her after the door was closed. She missed this so much. Again she was lost in his arms, in his kisses. His touch was driving her senseless. She reciprocated by undressing him. Their need was too great to for them to make it to the bed as they sank down on the floor. Her legs parted of its own volition to welcome him. The pleasure that she experienced seemed to have exceeded what she felt when they were together before. And as she was screaming out his name repeatedly in pleasure. She dug her fingers into his back as she moved to meet his thrusts. Finally she wrapped her legs around him as she bit him on the shoulder as she found her release and he she felt him experience the same. They lay like that for a while and finally he got up, picked her up and took her to the shower and they showered together and when they came out of the shower he had to carry her again as her legs were quite weak from their activities in the shower.
She woke up early in the morning and snuck out of the bed quietly. She got dressed quickly. He body was aching and tingling at the same time. The top felt rough against her breasts as her nipples were raw from his attack and her walk was a bit uncomfortable due to the over activity throughout the night and morning. And now she had to sneak out so that the family won't see her. But that was nothing new.
He wasn't sleeping. Since he started having feelings for her, he was painfully aware of her. He knew when she entered a room. His senses were heightened when it came to her. He had resolved to stay away from her this time. But again he could not resist. And he didn't much care what else she wanted, as long as he knew she wanted him. Her desire for him she could never hide. And it was that desire for him was what had led him to do what he did, even when he knew he shouldn't have. She was so young at the time, but she was so eager and willing to please him. In fact in her innocence she was quite the seductress. That should have told him everything. But he supposed it was easier not to see what she was about. He didn't want to see. He just wanted her.
And again tonight, from the time he entered the hotel, he knew that she was there. Their eyes met. But she looked away. She had tried to stay as far away from him as possible, but his eyes never left her. Not even when he was talking to other guests. Until he could no longer tolerate the distance between them. He just wanted to dance with her. But as usual, when he was close to her he needed to do more than hold her. He moved her out of the venue and then they were here. She was the only woman that had shared this bed with him and he still often felt her there. And dreamt of her. Even after 4 years apart he never forgot their encounters. At one stage he had thought ... but that never happened. Because he found out in time what type she was. He should have known before as he knew from what type she hailed.
He managed to fall asleep eventually. He only woke up just before lunch. Not that anyone worried. It was usual for him to do this. He often missed breakfast because he had late nights either partying or working. And he didn't want to be around them either. He didn't want to put up a pretence so he just stayed out of their way. It was Saturday so he did not have to go the office. He decided to showered and work for a while and go down when lunch was served.
He was sitting at the table talking to his younger brother. He ignored the rest of them as usual. He looked at as she entered the room. She was wearing western clothes as usual. She nodded to him in greeting.
"Aarti, serve bauji first and then Yash bhayia."
She first served his father and then went to him. As she wanted to dish the food in his plate, he got up and said.
"I have suddenly lost my appetite. I will have lunch at the club."
"Yash!" his father shouted.
"What bauji. Do you want me to pretend?"
"No, bauji let him go. As usual he is behaving like an errant child. I seems nothing has changed in 4 years." said Aarti
"Who the hell do you think you are?" he yelled at her.
"She's your sister" Said his father
"She is not my sister."
"I am not his sister." they said together.
They both stormed off in their own directions leaving their parents and siblings looking after them. This behaviour of theirs was not new but they had thought that after so long their attitude towards each other would have changed.
That same night the two of them were sitting in the study after being summoned by their parents.
"You mother and I have decided that it is time for both of you to get married. We have various suitable matches for both of you. So it is just a matter of you two deciding."
They looked at each other and looked away.
"I am not ready, bauji."
"Aarti, we have allowed you to study and work abroad but now it is time to settle down. You are already 25 years old."
"But ma ..."
"No, I have decided. You can choose a husband and he can decide whether you will work or not."
"You might tell Aarti what to do, but not me. Bauji your wife will not choose a wife for me. If I get married it will be on my own terms. I'm sure now that they are part of this family she can get a much better match. She can get a rich husband just as her mother did."
"Yash!" said his father.
"I have had enough. I am leaving. You can play happy family."
He stormed out of the study.
He was pacing his room. The nerve of that woman. She though she can take over in this family and in this home. He has never accepted her and he will never. She would never be his mother. She just came in here with her daughters and tried to take his mother's place. Well no one would take his mother's place in is life and his heart. His father could be blind to her wiles but he was not. She was a gold digger as was her daughter. But it disturbed him so much that she might be getting married to someone else. He couldn't bear the thought of someone else making love to her.
She was not shocked that her parents had finally insisted that she get married. When she had left 4 years ago it had been with the understanding that she would come back and get married. But she didn't come back after studying. She took a job as well and her mother was not happy about that at all. Her stepfather understood and had convinced her mother the let her stay in the USA for longer. He was such a good man. A good father and husband. Her biological father had abandoned them just after Pari was born as he wanted a boy and she had only given him 2 girls. His family stood by him. Her parents took her back in but they were not rich so her mother started designing and making clothes. She systematically established a little business that sustained her and her family.
She had been a good friend of G3 Scindiya but had lost touch. Then she went to pay her respects after she died and within a year of G3's passing, Sp and Rhadha got married. Aarti was 17 and Pari 15. Yash was 21 and Prateek was 18 at the time. Yash was dead set against the marriage but Prateek accepted them with open arms. Aarti had met the 21 year old when the marriage had been finalised. He was so handsome and she had fallen in love with him immediately. However he was totally disdainful and disrespectful to her mother. At first he tolerated her and her sister. He even helped her with her studies. He was a whizz in maths and accounts, where she was more creative. So he became her tutor.
He couldn't believe that she still had such an effect on him. She was just 17 when she entered their home. He had started to tutor her and one day he had looked up whilst explaining something to her and caught her staring at him with a strange look in her eyes. And when he looked up, she had looked away. He had continued looking at her, something stirring inside of him. Something very unfamiliar. When she looked up at him again he looked away. And ever since that day he became much more away of her as a woman. Their accidental touches became like lightning bolts. Until one day he had come home from party, but it was not late. It was pouring with rain and a movement caught his eye. It was her. She was dancing in the rain and laughing to herself. She was drenched and her clothes were clinging to her exposing her delicious curves. Her wet hair was following her as he twirled around with her eyes closed and head up to the sky. He could not help himself. He walked to her and she suddenly ran inside and into him. He held her. She looked so beautiful as he held her in his arms. He couldn't resist. His mouth came down on hers and he kissed her. It was clear that she was not experienced in this but as he explored her mouth with his tongue, he could feel her surrender and soon she followed his lead. Until he heard a door closing and he released her. As soon as he did, she ran to her room.
After that he had tried to stay away from her. He hated the way she made him feel. He did not like to feel out of control. He did not want to be like his father that was so besotted with this new woman in his life. Then it was her 18th birthday and there was a big party. He stayed a while and then he went out with his friends. He gave her a last look as he left and her gaze was on him as well. She looked so disappointed and that wanted to make him leave more. As it made him just want to hold her in his arms.
He came home much later and the party was over and everyone was asleep. Or so he thought. He went to the kitchen for some water. He switched on the light and guess who was sitting there in the dark. She was sitting at the chair at that table with her feet up and her head resting on her knees. She looked up as the light went on.
It was her worst birthday ever. The one person that she wanted to share it with was not there. Once he had left she was just going through the motions of enjoying the party but she could not wait for it to end. And still afterwards, she could not sleep. Eventually she got up and went to the kitchen for water. But she was so distraught that she actually just sat down and broke down in tears. Then suddenly the light went on and she tried to wipe her tears. He was the last person that she expected.
She jumped up and wanted to walk past him to her room. But then he grabbed her by the arm and into his arms and he kissed her. He took her by the hand, switched off the light again and they went to his room. He started kissing him as soon as the door closed. He took off her night gown. She was wearing a vest and sleep shorts underneath. He picked her up and carried her to his bed. She was feeling so many things and she did not want to this to stop. He started to kiss her down her neck and his hand found her breast under her vest. Her body moved against him involuntarily. He lifted the vest as his mouth followed his hands to lick and suck her breasts. She moaned in ecstacy. Then his hands found its way in her shorts and she grabbed at his hand. He wanted to move it away but she still held it. She didn't know what she wanted. He looked at her and moved his hand out of hers and gathered her in arms.
"I don't know what is going on with me Aarti. I'm sorry."
"Don't be. I want to be with you. I love you."
"You are only 18 Aarti. What do you know about love?"
"Nothing other than that I love you. What else could this feeling be?"
"Lust?"
"It's not that. I want more of you than just this. I am consumed by you. I want to be with you all the time. I was so sad when you left earlier. I want to share all my important moments with you."
"Aarti, I find myself thinking of you all the time too. It feels different than with other girls. But we can't do what I want to do with you."
"There are people my age that are married, that have children. Wo why can't we make love."
"We don't have protection and you have to study. I won't be the cause of your life being ruined."
"I will give up everything for you."
"No, we have to think about this Aarti. And if we do this, we have to take precautions."
"I already know what I want. I don't have to think about it."
"Oh, Aarti" he said and kissed her again.
He released her.
"I want it too, I want you. But let's think about it. And if we do I want to make it special for you."
"Every moment with you is special for me."
"I think you should go back to your room now, sweetheart. I am about to lose my resolve."
"I don't mind."
"Please baby," he got up and got her night gown. He lifted her up by her hands and put the gown on for her. He walked her to her room and pecked her on her cheek.
"Yash, I was thinking. It's my birthday and you haven't given me a gift." she said seductively
"Soon I promise. And the gift will be for both of us. Sweet dreams my love."
