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The Breakdown
"Right?Begum, I killed your lover so you are here to avenge him. What is your plan? How are you going to end my life?" Jalal sneered.
"Lover?" her voice barely heard.
"Oh, come on Amer ki Rajkumari Jodha! Your lover, Rajkumar Suryaban! He died in my army's hand, don't tell me you don't remember that!"
Rajkumari?
"Surya.." she couldn't continue. Jodha kept looking at him without any hint of emotion on her face for him to read. Her face frozen, her eyes glisten with unshed tears.
Jodha kept biting her cheek, swallowing the lump in her throat. No! She was not going to cry in front of him even if her life was depending on it. Her gaze unnerved him! Jalal, for a moment thought he had done a grave sin but his mind won over his heart yet again.
Jodha staggered, her body refused to take the blow of pain, Jalal's hand thrust forward to hold her involuntarily but Jodha didn't fall, she stepped backward distancing herself from him. She steadied herself rebelling against the pain she was feeling. She blinked away the tears and looked straight into his eyes, unflinching.
"Rajkumari.." she laughed, laugh that didn't reach her eyes but was sharp and stabbing.
"Yes, I was a Rajkumari..Rajput ki Rajkumari with dreams and ambitions. And a Rajkumar was chosen for me by my parents, a befitting Rajkumar for Rajkumari Jodha. I agreed because that was my duty as a daughter. But I agreed not only for that! I saw respect for me in his eyes. I saw undeniable trust and loyalty towards me in his eyes and I saw a possible future, a husband that I could maybe love in time and raise family with that love as foundation. You do understand the meaning of love right Shenshah?"
Jalal's face red with rage but before he interrupt she held her hand up stopping him. "Let me talk today for the last time!" Jalal gritted his teeth, his hands in angry fist at his sides.
"Love, that was all I craved."
Was?
"Mutual love, with respect and understanding. But you are right he was killed even before I know what is it to be loved and respected by a man. Have I married him I would have been a respected Maharani but most importantly a wife who is loved. That chance was taken from me brutally and maybe I should have planned to end the very man's life who took that chance from me. Right Shehshah? But I didn't, I married him or compelled to marry him knowing he hates me, knowing our worlds are two different extreme, knowing I won't get any respect from him!"
"But he is my husband now..my Pati Parameswar! I can hate him but he is everything now..everything and beyond that! So I tried, I really tried and still trying to make his home mine, his family mine. I tried to belong because now I am not allowed in Amer. Rajputans despise me for marrying a mughal. And here I am hardly accepted for being a Rajput. But I don't care because this is my duty now, as a Begum and a wife! I was told clearly I was brought to be humiliated and defeated for defending my land and its honor. I was accused of being a murderer of an innocent soul. I was accused of being a mark of humiliation for the Mughal Sultanate. I kept on proving myself against all the accusations time by time. Then I realised he is not what he seems, I realised he is a human with heart and I realised maybe I can make a home here, find a friend in him until he proves me wrong again!"
Jodha kept looking at him, she didn't realise she was crying, tears kept streaming down her cheeks.
"But I don't understand if I am a woman with such a low virtue why did you marry me? Why do you still keep me here, alive? And who am I? A woman who is ready to kill her husband for her demised lover?Or a woman who slept with another man despite being so much in love with Suryaban? And tried to pass his baby to you?"
Jalaj flinched involuntarily! He didn't like the way she calmly speaking about herself in that manner as if she didn't say the filthiest thing about her. He didn't feel that way about her did he?
"Your accusations are getting contradictory day by day Shehshah! You are angry at me for reasons that I don't understand and I apologized without knowing my sin. You insulted me in public, I face humiliation that not any Begum, Rani and wife would tolerate. I tried to reconcile and solve whatever it is that are drifting us apart, I thought you are important and you are hurt, angry and I can't see that. I thought we share something, though I don't understand what is it, for the sake of what we shared I thought I should fix this, until you get back to your initial avatar!"
Sobs wrecked her body, Jalal stood immobile in shock. He had never seen her crying like this. She was always proud and strong.
Defeated, "How you could you bring the dead between us?" she implored.
"You win! You win! That is what you always want right to defeat me? I am not going to defend myself! As you have made your judgement, I will be waiting for the punishment! Pranam!"
She turned to leave, upon reaching the entrance she turned to look at him, "I was right you didn't know what you were doing that night because if you meant anything you said you wouldn't mistrust me now! Don't ever say that you trust me because that would be a lie and lying doesn't suit the great Shehshah!"
Chapter 2
Another OS of mine
The Beginning
https://www.indiaforums.com/forum/jodha-akbar/3832436/ja-a-beginning-os
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