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Today I went out with my family, I took my laptop along with me. I was studying in the car when I decided to take a break. I went back to watch the September of 2012 party episode and other old episodes.
You all don't know my reason for attachment to the show, unless I've already shared it in the past. I don't know. But long story short, the show managed to pull me out of my depression. It may sound cheesy, but it's true. The show and forums combined distracted me so much that I didn't have time to think negative thoughts. This is when I began spending a lot of my time on the forums, which some of you may remember. I mean, the negative thoughts were replaced with RishBala thoughts. It especially started distracting me from the party episode. I literally fell in love with RK's character and adored Madhu! So that's why the show holds a special place in my heart and always will. As bad as it sounds, it's true. And that's also been a reason I want to meet DVD in person to thank them in person for literally saving my life without knowing it indirectly (yes my depression was that bad).
I know in the past few months I had been posting controversial posts. Some against RK, some against Madhu, some against the show, some against the CVs (I don't take back the ones against the CVs.) Just want to apologize for that. I'll try to go back to 'Positive Pritt' after today...try (when I'm not so busy after surgery in a few weeks).
So when I was watching old episodes today, I got mad at myself. I nearly put myself to tears for hating on the show and characters that literally saved my life.
So I was all cheery when I got home and was like "I'm going to start watching the show again and I'm just going to accept anything and everything they throw at us because I love DVD/RishBala."
And then I get onto the forums and find audition videos. Mkay, I figured it was just another character that won't be of much importance. Then I go on to watch one complete audition video, that of Ankita Sharma to be exact. And near the end I was on the verge of tears. I went to check all the other girls (not watching the complete videos since they were all basically the same) and couldn't believe it.
I know we were all asking for a separation but the sounds of the audition just made me so upset.
RK, loving a new girl? Wedding talks? RK hating Madhu's love? RK not loving Madhu anymore?
When I asked for a separation, I wanted one where RishBala missed each other, not one where another girl entered RK's life in such a way.
The audition video seems to be dialogues from a far in the future episode since the girl mentions how RK loves her now and how it's Madhu's fault for not taking care of her husband and basically how RK's moved on.
I'm so sad right now.
I had high hopes today until now.
I need cheering up. Someone make me happy about this.
I know my nickname used to be 'Positive Pritt'...but I can't come up with anything positive anymore.
I need to know something good that might come out of this. Please?
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Mangal Lakshmi
