Part 1:
Present:
1st may,2013
Dear dairy,
I I brokeup with him… I broke the most precious relation of my
life…
Today I didn't lose him I lost myself..
Bt u knw na it was required for him… he deserves a much better
life than this… struggling with me in my problems and
insecurities. He was always happily there for me bt till whn did
my problems affect him his career…
I heard hw sir used to scold him for mistakes from past few
months.,,it was just because he was thinking abt my health…
No I couldn't let any of my problems affect his life and career.. I
had to let him go..
I knw it must have pained him beyond limits.. bt its good for him..
Please god take care of him on my behalf..he must be broken..he
must be hurt and he dnt have any one to support him and share
his pains..
Today I m the poorest person on this earth.. I lost my only family,
I most my first and last love ,,,
Today I lost my reason to live..
She was crying , sobbing hating her self for the hurting the person
she loved the most in this world….
Yes he became his world within few days of their working
period..he was a person she always wanted to be with.. she
remembered those dreams abt future abt their house, car, kids,
family…
He went to her room.. rubbed her hands on the side of the bed
where he used to sleep… to feel him.. hw sweetly he used hold her
in his arms and she used to cuddle into him like a baby,.
She went to the cupboard took out an only t-shirt he had left by
mistake… she wore it to feel him holding her in his warm arms..
No wonder hw stressed and tired she would be bt his arms wound
around her she would forget all of them… just feel his arms as the
safest place in the world…
She roamed in her house.. and place gave her the realisation that
yes u r again alone..all alone in this big house..
Somewhere far place in a small room…
A guy….he was red in anger and crying his heart out hurting
himself with anything and everthing that came to him….
Why kyon kyon tumne hamara rishta thoda…?? I knw u r lying ur
reasons are nt valid… ek baar mujhse kaho hum milkar har
problem ka samna karenge….
Janta hoon ki tum bhi udas ho ro rahi hogi na bohot phir kyon
dur kar diya mujhe khudse ,,,, mein toh majbur hoon tumse
vaada joh kiya tha ki kabhi bhi kisi bhi baat ke liye force nahi
karunga…
toh mein nahi karunga.. tumhare liye khudko strong banaunga…
I promise to become a stranger to u… bt I wont be able to love
smeone else than u..its my incapability I couldn't make u trust
on my love…
I love u
always loved u and
will always love u…
hope u all like it...wating for comments
Shiv Shakti
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