I know this is far-fetched, wishful thinking and I really don't see this happening but it would be wonderful to see Asad using his rational mind to contemplate and reason out with himself about the whole fiasco of the blood sample.
I blamed her, yet again! Ignoring the pain her eyes oozed, ignoring the jab in my heart, I yet again blamed her for a pretty weird situation. I mean, who in the right mind shall collect chicken's blood to replace it with Tanu's blood sample? Why would she do that when she herself took the pain of collecting Tanveer's blood? What have you been thinking Asad? What are you doing? My mind threw a series of rational questions, while I conveniently pushed them away without even deliberating on it!
Don't you know? It was a taunt... a mockery that my own conscious was making of me! I was turning a blind eye towards the obvious. Ammi can see it... Nazma can see it... And I, I am turning away from it. Am I not acting like a fool... a royal jerk! Hurting her more on the pretext of saving her from a doomed life with me? But is that what seems to be happening? Am I not breaking her layer by layer in the process? Can I deny the feelings that float in her eyes, reflecting her bruised soul every time she looks up at me?
But to my defense, I have asked her multiple times... giving her opportunity to walk out if she want to, didn't I? Oh wow! Calling the shots from behind her back, came the retort! I asked her if she wanted this to be real or if she wanted to marry me? It's she who denied and stayed back accepting to be the part of this drama, Asad said out aloud, as if reminding himself. So? you could have easily denied it too instead of using the alibi of Ammi's sickness. You want her to open up, speak her heart while you would continue to act like a mute and keep throwing the farce engagement crap on her face! Be honest Asad, you want her to deny coz you don't have the courage to say no! You can't say yes because your insecurities won't allow you to do that and in the process you are hurting the one person you wish to save from all the hurt the most... She needs you Asad, as much as you need her, the inner voice reasoned.
And with that, there was a perfect silence; the inner voice retraced back... answers to all dilemmas laid out in open. A life of eternal bliss on one hand beckoned while on the other hand a life of haunting solitude stood threateningly waiting for the choice to be made.
This isn't that difficult... Why am I being so stubborn and hellbent on ruining my only chance at happiness? Should I not embrace life for once by taking this chance? Determination set in and a smile that came to rest on his lips was indication that his heart had won. Tomorrow morning, the farce and pretenses would end and a new relationship would begun. I'll bare my heart to you Zoya and then it would be the beginning of us!
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