Le ke Pehla pehla pyaar,
Aur Saras ka Dulaar,
Pehli baarish
Ya phir Boondon ki saazish
Isliye toh kaha hai
uss paar utarne ki umeed bohot kam hai,
Kashti bhi puraani hai aur toofan ko bhi aana hai!!!
*Sigh*
As I said in my last post on Saras, that although they both have come a full circle..something has fundamentally changed between them!!! Today it was Kumud..silent...waiting...
The moment she came inside the house..she was Saras epitome...burning inside..could not share what happened with her sisters..and the moment he entered (Waise what an entry!! so much dhansoo it was that the dirty shirt of yesterday's mud sling fight suddenly cleaned itselfšš)
You have to love how he resists just token..but gives in...he was not the same Saras who kept everything inside..he had just ventilated out...physically on the random goons...and it was obvious that he was on a high adrenaline!!!
The way she takes over silently...the way she approaches the incident, full of trepidations ...that it was because of her...and you have to love how Saras doesnot blame her or her dressing...he says it simply..it was due to a man who was bad...(I wish that males all over the country get this psychology ..that any offence against the women's dignity is not because of her dressing or anything..but because the man was wrong!! )
And she tries to calm him..but then he s ays it...OUT LOUD...Mujhe Farak padta hai!! ...And she, who has time and again fallen into this silken trap of his...is very much afraid to tread the same path again..but risk she does..and she asks..."Why"...you can see the fear reflected on her face.. the fear of rejection ..the fear of heartbreak..and you can see that this time it is not her pride but her heart at stake!!

You know this was the turning point...the way she asked but did not press...she got involved in his wounds when he did not answer...and it was this selflessness of hers..putting him before her own insecurities, her own pride, her own self...it was this which made him decide...you can actually see the change in his expression...from trying to hide his feelings..to being totally open about it...

The small blink of his eyes and the change of expression..from being so much in awe with the woman who cared for a loner like him..to the understand that she is the one who has changed him...fundamentally...that now his fear was hers...the fear of rejection...and still she found in that big heart of hers to care for him..of putting himself before herself...which no one had ever done for him...since his mother atleast...

In the next post