Smitar's OS 2: Finding Khushi Part 8 Pg121(Mar 15) - Page 16

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Originally posted by: angeldream14

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he is spineless

cnt say wht he feels

Smita,😊

Here is my interpretation for Part 4.

When Arnav walked into the house, followed by Akash, the ladies of his house had gathered in the living room awaiting their return. As Akash joined them, Arnav started towards his room. He heard his Nani call out to him. Her tone gave him the indication that he was going to be hammered and his sister would join forces with her. Nani was livid. Schooling his face to be expressionless, he asked his Nani to shoot out. She told him that Ms. Kasyap had left the house for good. He nodded and let her know that he was aware of it. His sister took it from there and said that Lavanya told them that both, he and Lavanya had decided that they were not suited. Arnav concurred with it. Nani who was wise to Arnav's ways said she will not buy that it was a mutual decision. She pointed out that it must be he who decided and Ms. Kasyap was left high and dry. Wasn't that the truth? Arnav once again agreed with her and said that he told her that they were not made for each other and living together would only be making their lives totally miserable. After thinking she too had come to the same conclusion. Anjali who was listening panted that Lavanya loved him. Arnav brushed her claim aside and told her that Lavanya doesn't know him well and whatever she had seen of him were not really heart-warming. When Anjali shouted that he loved Lavanya, he disagreed but conceded that he liked her and that remained so even now. Hearing his explanation Nani and Anjali were furious. He continued to say that he had thought it was better to stop before the engagement itself rather than get engaged, married and head towards divorce. Nani and Anjali were left stumped by his logical explanation, but Mami concurred. When she said while marrying it should be willingly done, Nani told her bitterly, that should have been thought about earlier and not after bringing Ms. Kasyap and announcing his engagement publicly. Mami argued for Arnav saying, Ms. Kasyap herself was going back to London, and Arnav was immersed in work as usual. Using a 'muhawre' she reiterated that when the concerned parties were fine with their decision of whom was they really worried about.

Arnav though trying to work in his room had not been successful. His mind was filled with the images of Khushi. The expression of pain and betrayal in Khushi's eyes as she stood in his garden overlooking the living room while he announced his intention to marry Lavanya Kashyap was piercing him. The image of the pain-filled eyes of Khushi while he was spewing insults on her in front of her house. The image of her eyes that was cold enough to send chill to his bones declaring that she was beyond his reach. The expression in her eyes condemning him for the lack of guts to face his emotions and feelings towards her, but instead resorting to take refuge behind Lavanya. These images were flashing before him and pricking and piecing him, as though in vengeance were not giving him any respite. He was really riled up. Whatever he did would neither satisfy him nor subside his anger. In his frustration he knocked the laptop off the table on to the carpeted floor and started pacing in the room like a caged lion. His head was pounding with questions. Why couldn't he get her image out of his mind? Why were her words ringing in his ears? Why couldn't he stay away from her? Without getting any answers, dissatisfied, he grabbed his car keys and rushed out.

Mami, Di and Nani watched him heading out like every night. He was not even aware of their presence. A worried Nani sighed and said, when will her Chotte find his peace? He works hard in the daytime and drives around most of the night! Anjali wanted to know why was he so upset and asked her Nani. The hawkeyed Mami told her that it was surely not due to Ms. Kasyap. She asked her son Akash was there any girl he liked in the office? Akash told them that Arnav never spoke to any girl and even if he did it was to shout. Though Nani and Anjali sighed giving up the probe, Mami declared this was a mystery worth investigating.

Meanwhile Arnav drove rapidly to Laxmi Nagar to begin his daily vigilance at night. Stretching his neck he had a good peek at the front door of Khushi's house. Through the open door, golden light was filtering out. He could see the furniture and the idol of Devi Maiyya. As he was observing, her Buaji came out and bellowed her to come home for dinner. The answering call came from Happy Singh's garage that she would be coming. When Buaji threatened to feed her dinner to the dogs if she was not immediately obeyed, Khushi asked for a minutes time. Soon she was rushing towards the house with hands covered in grease. She opened the latch of the gate by pushing with elbow. Looking at her dirty hand Buaji admonished her and asked how she will be able to eat with such dirty hands. With a giggle, Khushi asked her to feed, like she used to do while they were kids. Buaji glared at her audacity, but Arnav smiled.

When Khushi told her aunt that it was not dirt but grease, she was asked whether she was playing with it. She told Buaji using medical jargon, that Happyji and she were operating on a car. And the grease is like a blood in man. Pulling her by the ear and admonishing, Buaji took Khushi towards the cot in the yard and made her sit on it. Sitting next to Khushi she began to feed her while Payal brought out three steaming cups of tea. All three began talking and laughing while Arnav watched them. Whenever Khushi smiled, a smile would appear on his face too. Watching her he would fill his head and heart with her images. Once she was fed to heart's content, Buaji and Payal went inside. Khushi who was smiling till then let go of the mask. The moonlight enhanced her paleness giving a ghost like appearance to her. Arnav gulped at the lump of pain that he felt knowing that he was the source of pain in her.She looked at the stars as though seeking warmth and solace from its light. When Buaji called she went in and Arnav who was watching her bedroom from his car knew that once the lights were out she would come to the window and spend most of her night looking at the stars. This was what she used to do and watching her was what he did daily. Being a stickler to routine, she came to stand by the window. Hugging herself, with a slight hunched up shoulders he could clearly see a drop of glistening pearl from her eyes slide down the soft and smooth cheek.

Arnav who witnessed her controlled grief felt frustrated. He wanted her to be back at RM. He wanted her to come back to him. That was the only feasible solution. That was the only acceptable solution and anything other than that was not acceptable!

In this update we see that Arnav though he himself inflicted the wound on Khushi being haunted by her distress. He is unable to bear the coldness that had seeped into her otherwise warm, friendly eyes, a result of his action.

Khushi though pretends to be the usual, happy go lucky and Happiness personified in front of others, lets her hair down only when alone. She gives a vent to the distress only at night, while standing in front of her window. Watching the stars with eyes pooled with tears, she seeks solace from the stars that she believes to be her late parents.

This action of Khushi is daily observed by Arnav who too undergoes pain knowing that it was his actions that caused it.

Hence it is WORMWOOD a term that describes the painful experience or distress an action causes.

"You can't make someone feel good about themselves until you feel good about yourself" ~Robin S. Sharma

That's it from me. Hope you enjoy it!