Part 35
He didn't know what would be the consequences of this but he was desperately waiting for her reaction
Carefully, he gauged her expressions. There was a hint of confusion in her face and then that confusion turned into fear. He raised himself to create distance between them.
He has been dreading this reaction from her. She was always herself with him and never cared or got conscious about her actions or words. Somewhere deep, he liked this thing about their relationship but now this new revelation could change the way she behaved with him.
He lifted himself more and sat beside her as he witnessed that fear turning into a shock. She had clearly understood his each word. He raised his hand to cup her face but then stopped, fearing she might get intimidated.
Khushi kept gaping at him a while as her mind processed his words.
What does he mean?She thought in confusion as his words started to make sense to her.
It means that this is the exact relationship between a man and woman. But why didn't anyone tell me? She could feel a slight, fear building inside her since this concept was totally new to understand.
It means this was what Misha has been trying to tell me. It means she was right from the start. It means that only I was oblivious to this side till now. She thought and her face grew red and she realized Arnav had lifted himself from her.
She had realized her femininity for the first time and then her own words started to play in her mind when she had asked Arnav all sort of embarrassing questions and how patiently he had replied her.
Then suddenly she felt another unknown feeling that she has never experienced before and now she felt shy. For the first time, she realized what kind of a relationship she was actually going to share with him. She turned around and hid her face in her palms.
There was a new realization of her own femininity, she was a woman and only she possessed the power to satisfy her lover both physically and as well as emotionally.
I knew he loves me but I never realized the depth of his love. She thought and then words of Misha started to make sense.
The way her boyfriend had kissed her and the way he had given her a mark that she called the love bite.
And she told me that they leave you, if you don't let them do it. But for Arnav, it was always my happiness first. He loved me to the extent that his physical need never let him do something that would scare me off. Despite knowing my feelings for him, he refrained himself.
True love is a sacred flame
That burns eternally,
And none can dim its special glow
Or change its destiny.
True love speaks in tender tones
And hears with gentle ear,
True love gives with open heart
And true love conquers fear.
True love makes no harsh demands
It neither rules nor binds,
And true love holds with gentle hands
The hearts that it entwines.
(By Helen Steiner Rice)
She knew their relationship was much more than that. It was not ony restricted to physical thing but even then she didn't want him to sacrifice anything because of her lack of knowledge.
She was lost in her thoughts when she heard his panic filled voice.
"Are you alright?" He asked her, breaking her reverie.
Even now, he is thinking if I am fine. She thought but couldn't find the courage to turn around and face him.
He waited for and then again asked her.
"Are you ok?"
She nodded slightly in yes and then she felt him moving from the bed. Without giving a second thought, she whipped around and hugged him tightly. hindering him to move away from her.
"I love you, I love you more than anything, please, don't go. Stay with me," She told him again and again as she clung to him tightly.
"Did I frighten you?" He patted her back.
"No, how can I be, when you are with me?
He made her lie down on the bed comfortably.
"Khushi," She looked away sensing his gaze on her.
"Can you please do one thing for me? I don't want you to hesitate or feel shy because of this thing. I am the same Arnav whom you loved and you are the same Khushi whom I love insanely. You can still ask me anything you want. Ok?"
She blinked her eyes and looked at him and then nodded her head with a smile.
He was about to leave when her voice struck his ear.
"Arnav, is it painful?" She asked with the same innocence and Arnav froze in his tracks.
Oh and here I was getting worried that she would be scared. She is ready with her rapid fire round. He cursed under his breath.
It was better when I didn't ask her and now with this new knowledge she would have hundreds of more questions ready for me and how the hell am I going to explain her all this. He smiled and looked at her meaningfully.
"You will know yourself, very soon." He told her and her heart skipped a beat at his blatant words.
Her face turned pink and his heartbeat rose when he realized his own words.
Unwillingly, he got up from the bed and made his way towards the door. But strangely, he couldn't move fast. He could feel a strong magnetic pull towards her.
He stopped in mid of the room. May be there was some hope in his subconscious that she would stop him. But then he gathered all the strength and took one step when he felt her cold lips pressing on his back.
"Khushi," He groaned and closed his eyes as she brushed her lips lightly all over his back muscles barely touching his skin.
One naive and simple touch of my seductress is enough to turn me on. He thought and jerked her to bring her face to face.
But he saw something in her eyes that he has never seen before.
This faint stun that just passed through her eyes and the way she blushed and lowered her eyes. Was it all real?
Unable to bear his questioning eyes she hugged him tightly to hide herself in him. Their hearts were throbbing against each other
"Arnav," She uttered helplessly.
"Do you know what you are asking for?" He asked urgently to be certain.
Even a second spent in wait for her one answer seemed like an eternity.
Slowly, she raised her head and without meeting his eyes nodded her head in yes.
Is she saying it just to please me? Or the desire in her is as strong as mine? He questioned himself.
"Look into my eyes." He placed his hand under her chin and lifted it up. But the moment their eyes got locked, he forgot everything because the passion in her eyes was more potent than he had expected.
His pulse quickened as he leaned down to inhale her fragrance and then carried her in his arms and started to walk without breaking their eye contact.
He sat on the bed and placed her in his lap. She clutched his hair tightly as he placed his hungry lips on her neck. He started kissing her with vigor and she moaned his name. Within few minutes, she lost track of everything and whimpered as he laid her on the bed.
"I Love you," He assured her as his hands went towards her zip at the back of her dress.
Today he couldn't find any reason to stop himself, especially when she was demanding the same thing. He brushed his fingers on her back and she arched her back. He removed her shirt from her shoulder and started too trail her lips on them.
She scratched his back in response and he nibbled her skin driving her crazier and leaving his marks on her. There was strange bliss in that sweet pain.
He moved his hands to unhook single barrier that was hindering him to access her back fully.
"Please promise me you would never leave me." She asked him in those moments of passion.
"Not until I am alive." He answered her back.
"I would be always there for you. I would always love you." He told her lovingly and then the brutal reality hit him hard and he closed his eyes.
"I can't do this. I can't do this to her. How can I forget she don't know my motive of coming here?
I can't deceive her and keep her in dark anymore when our relationship is no more same as earlier. I will have to tell her the truth.
His sudden withdrawal left her thunderstruck. She opened her eyes that were hazy and blur with desire.
"Khushi I can't take this relationship to the next level."
She looked him in confusion
"I have to tell you something."
He said. 
Cricket
Udne Ki Aasha
Geet - Hui Sabse Parayee
