~Part 34~
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He removed her dupata and hugged her to warm her up. She opened her eyes as she felt soothing warmness engulfing her body.
"Arnav," His name felt like a moan from her lips. He bent down and placed his lips on her forehead.
"I am here with you," He assured her.
"What if something would have happened to you?" She asked devastatingly.
"Shh, there is no need to worry now. I am with you. You just go to sleep." He patted her head.
"No, I would not let you go."
She kissed his face madly out of fear. But after sometime she started breathing heavy as her kisses became more intense and slow. He realized the desire flaring in her. With so much love in their heart, this urge to feel each other was bound to be accelerated.
She closed her eyes and placed her hands on his shoulder expecting him to kiss her. He looked at her flushed face filled with anticipation.
Few days back, I was trying to maintain the distance from you because I knew I won't be able to control if you are with me. But that dreadful awareness that I had to undergo today and the feeling I had, when I thought I have lost you forever, has erased every other thing inside me. I thought it would be difficult to control with you but now it seems so trivial as compared to the pain that I went through at that time.
Now I am sure that I would never loose myself, no matter how close we are because I have gone through the pain of losing you and now the pain that I had to endure to control myself seems so insignificant.
But it's not right to come close to each other physically now. Not because I fear that I may lose myself, but because you do not really know what exactly is the relationship between a man and a woman. First you need to know and then it would be mutual consent to take this relationship to any level. He thought as he got up from the bed.
She opened her eyes when she felt him moving away. This distance was something that was unbearable for her. She failed to understand reason of his withdrawal. But instinctively, the feeling of rejection was prominent than any other feeling.
He looked at her to find so many questions in those innocent eyes. There was pain of rejection, there was uncertainty, and her eyes were accusing him.
"No, I can't put you through any sort of pain." He told her but those words felt deaf on her ears.
"Then why?" She asked him with tears in her eyes.
"Khushi, It's not like that. You don't know anything and I don't want you to regret anything later. I want the distance, until you really know everything." He told her affectionately.
"You are just making up excuses. I know everything. And if I don't know anything why don't you just enlighten me? You promised that you will tell me everything and if you really love me, then what is stopping you? Why don't you tell me what I am unaware of?" She was not ready for any sort of excuses.
"You only admitted that you love me because you had pity on me when you saw me in that condition." Her hurt was visible in her words. Though she knew it was not the reason, yet she said those words in anger.
He knew he was the reason behind her doubts. She didn't know anything but he wanted it to be him who would tell her about this. He didn't want her to know from anyone else.
But I wanted to wait for some time to tell you. I don't want to scare you and already you went through so much. But there is no option left but to tell you. He thought.
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"I have to tell you, but how?" He muttered as his feet moved towards her.
He sat beside her but she turned her face to other side pouting innocently showing her anger.
In lamhon ke daaman mein
Pakiza se riste hain
Koi kalma mohabat ka
Dohrate farishte hain
He entwined his fingers in her hand
Their fingers seemed to fit together in just the right way, effortlessly clasped, like perfect complements.
He smiled looking at the little child woman in front of him. He moved closer to her and whispered huskily in her ear.
"Do you remember you asked me what is se*x once?"
She nodded her head still looking away from him. He fought for the right words. He knew it will be easy, neither for him, nor for her. He has to make her understand and that too without scaring her and embarrassing her.
"I told you that it's a relationship between a man and woman. But now you need to understand what relationship is exactly there between a man and woman."
He looked away still thinking about the way to tell her. She looked at him curiously and there was some unknown fear building inside her now.
How the hell should I tell her.? She is too innocent.
Khamosh si hai zameen hairaan sa falak hai
Ek noor hi noor sa ab aasman talak hai
(Nagmein hi nagmein hai jagti soti fizaon mein
Husn hai sari adaon mein
Ishq hai jaise hawaon mein )
He brought her hand and kissed it lightly. She shivered a little with his touch.
"What do you feel when I touch you?" He whispered again placing a kiss behind her ear.
She closed her eyes and her breathing got ragged.
How can I explain, how does it feel? She wondered.
Only his gaze was capable of creating havoc inside her. His lips always left her yearning and craving for more and after the realization that she loves him she wanted to remain in his embrace forever and ever.
"Tell me?" He commanded as his own heart was thumping rapidly.
"It feels heaven." She told him while her eyes were still closed.
"Everyone told me it is sin to be touched by a man. But it was never like a sin to be touched by you. Your touch, it always felt sacred than anything.
It may be sin for others but for me it is our sacred sin."
Kaise yeh ishq hai
Kaisa yeh khwab hai
Kaise jazbaat ka umda salab hai
(Kaise yeh ishq hai
Kaisa yeh khwab hai
Kaise jazbaat ka umda salab hai
Din badle raatein badli, baathein badli
Jeene ke aandaz hi badlein hai)
"But," She continued.
"what?" He asked.
"Arnav, tell me what is this desire? What is this need? This naked want? I want you to touch me. I want you to kiss me and when you do that even then it feels as if that thirst had not been satiated.
As if I want more than that but I can't understand what exactly I want." She gripped his fingers more tightly
"Do you know?"
He nodded his head.
"Please tell me why? It's so difficult to bear it. Please," She asked him.
"Even the solution won't be easy to bear." He muttered.
In lamhon ke daaman mein
Pakiza se riste hain
Koi kalma mohabat ka
Dohrate farishte hain
Their eyes were locked intimately. Hunger and demand for each other was visible in eyes of both of them
"Arnav," His name felt like a moan from her lips. He bent down and placed his hungry lips on her neck. He started placing kissed all over her neck and she closed her eyes feeling the sensation that was coursing through her entire body.
"Do you know why was I maintaining the distance, till now?" He said while placing kisses on her neck and she tried to understand him since her mind was getting hazy with the desire.
"I feared that I may lose myself and do something more than just kissing you." She clutched his hair tightly and her mind tried to make sense of the words uttered by him.
"The relationship between a man and woman is more than just kissing each other. You don't get satisfied because you desire more than this and it's not being fulfilled."
Samay ne yeh kya kiya
Badal di hai kaya
Tumhe mene paa liye
Mujhe tumne paya
Mile dekho aise hai hum
ke do sur ho jaise madham
koi jyada na koi kaam
Kise aag mein
Ke prem aag mein
Jalte dono hi the tan bhi hai Arnav bhi
Arnav bhi hai tan bhi
Tan bhi hai Arnav bhi
Arnav bhi hai tan bhi
On its own accord, her face tilted up and his lips took hers in long and bruising passion. Urgency quickened in her breast as her lips parted to receive his questing tongue.
He kissed her like there was no tomorrow and she responded back with an equal fervor.
He left her lips after a soul searing kiss and then traced his nose on her cheeks and trailed it downward on her jaw.
"For others it may be called s*x but for us it would be making love."
"Arnav," She opened her question filled eyes in an attempt to make sense of his words.
"To make love to you, I will have to do more than just to kiss you."
"For that I had to.." He ate his words and observed her for a brief moment.
"For that I will have to take off your clothes. For that, there would be no hindrance or barrier between us."
He laid her on the bed and came on top of her and kissed her forehead to assure her.
She felt her heart would burst. He pressed his body on her in different way. Pressing him harder on her, she could feel his hardness pressing on her.
Mere khwaabon ke is gulistaan mein
Tumse hi tum bahar chai hai
Phoolon mein rang mere the lekin
In mein khusboon tumhi se aaye hai
[(Kyon hai yeh arzoo
Kyon hai yeh zustzu
Kyon dil bechain hai
Kyon dil betaab hai ) ----2
Din badle raatein badli baatien badli
Jeene ke andaaz hi badle hain ] 'chorous
In lamhon ke daaman mein
Pakiza se riste hain
Koi kalma mohabat ka
Dohrate farishte hain
"For that I have to be in you.." He pressed his hardness further and waited for her to understand what he actually meant.
She froze as she looked at him and then tried to make sense of the way he was on her and his words. And then reality started to dawn upon her.
He kissed her forehead and squeezed her hand to calm her. But now he didn't know what her reaction would be. He could see hint of fear in her eyes.
Would she actually understand what I meant? And would this new understanding scare her or. Will she go away from me? He didn't know what would be the consequences of this but he was waiting desperately for her reaction
Khamosh si hai zameen hairaan sa falak hai
Ek noor hi noor sa ab aasman talak hai
(Nagmein hi nagmein hai jagti soti fizaon mein
Husn hai sari adaon mein
Ishq hai jaise hawaon mein
Ishq hai jaise hawaon mein'
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