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Okay. So I do not want to say anything about any of my ramblings about what Soumya went through , because it just brings up personal bad memories which i would not want to dwell on like an idiot .Teehee :) , which is the reason why i did not analyze yesterdays episode. Anyway .
I just want to continue where i started about Sarah . I am beginning to love her , she is exactly who I thought she was . No she is not the rich annoying "bitchy" person everyone thinks and gossips about her to be , there has always been a very broken , insecure , sensitive and understanding girl inside who is so hurt , so numb to ever get that girl out. I always said , no matter how much of drama she loves to brew up , she has that basic respect for every single person around her , whether it was Abigail around her , or whether it was Soumya . It touched me how much of a girl and the sensitivity of the basic skin of a girl is inside her...It really hurt me and spiked up some horrible memories when Sarah told Karan that you do not know how does it feel when a girl gets touched like that without her permission by a man . And she is right , nobody can feel that feeling for those few seconds which make it probably your longest moment in your entire life . You're made of ice those few moments. You're not living for those few moments.You're just thawed ice. Sarah just explained it so well , I don't know if she went through something like that as well , but there are just too many scars inside that girl .Far too many bruises , far too many experiences , far too much emotional baggage and thus the " I am the bitch and don't mess with me" mask. And I love that. I love the way she teases Soumya to be the girl she was when she just stepped into Mumbai.This girl has been through so much...an innocent carefree fun loving person with full of love and that got taken advantage of till another identity inside her was not born which everyone observe and judge her as now :)
Karan , About him I think I did say that nothing is pretty when the man who teaches us new lessons everyday ,about such sensitive issues of impulse and aggression when Karan himself has a lot of aggression issues and that was attacked on today , on how Karan is a man who is trying to find the man he wants to be . Who wants to rectify his mistakes and learn a new thing about himself everyday. An effort is the most sincere thing if it is consistent , and I see that in Karan. Hopefully the light will win inside the dark :).
And the Sarah - Karan precap , well we are nobody to judge . They are confiding into one another and being each others pillars after the complicacies they have faced so whatever is blooming , hopefully no one will get hurt :)
Anupamaa
