FF-Obsession,chapter29 and next thread-pg150,7oct. - Page 50

Why did you write that poem???"He asked breaking the silence in his drawing room.

"Which poem???"She scowled at accusing tone of maan.

"last one which made my wife kill herself???"

"what???"Kavita's mouth was agape in astonishment."Pari committed suicide???" she asked realizing that she had not asked yet how pari actually died.

"yes..She did" His face was again shifted towards window looking outside.

"Look maan...there are already many things which i am trying to digest since i have met you few hours ago, so please stop giving more shocks.."

"You have given me biggest shock of my life.."his tone was agitated."or i should say biggest grief of my life.."

"Stop accusing me"She yelled now"If i had known about all this,i would never have let pari read my poems.."

"Sorry "He said meekly realizing his mistake.He was in a situation where everybody was at fault without making any mistake.

"Its ok..but don't tell me any of my poem made her commit suicide.."

"Kavita,you seem a calm and composed person to me,how a fight with your boyfriend made you think about committing suicide???He asked,once again perturbing her privacy.

"I never thought about committing suicide,maan' She replied with confusion written all over her face.

"Ohh..but I thought poems are inspired from poet's inner emotions or situations faced in daily life.."He smirked..

"Yes its true..and its true for every person who is a little able to write. She paused before talking further..I can't specifically tell you maan what inspires me to write.It can be my personal emotions like happiness or anger.It can be some scene from movie i liked.It can be any character or any situation from my favorite TV show.Sometimes a small talk with a stranger can make me write a poem.. like that poem about pregnancy.It was result of my pep talk with a pregnant co-passenger on my way to office.."

Tell me what made you write a poem about "committing suicide"..It was inspired from any tv show or your fight with your boy friend evoked such feeling in you??? Maan asked as he saw confusion appearing in her eyes once again..

I don't know what are you talking about Maan??I have not written any such poem..She answered in an annoyed tone before questioning him agian.,"You have read my last chat with pari..tell me did i ever mention about committing suicide.???

"No.."Confusion was now evident on his face.."So you have not written any such poem,kavita??"

"First show me which poem you are talking about,maan"..

He immediately opened that "entropy" page on facebook and showed her the words which was responsible for his sabotaged life..

Its time to kill it

Its time to end it..

Only way left for this

is to finish myself with it,,!!!

So with you in my heart

I am ending my story..

I know i am killing two lives

but for fighting more

i am too weary!!!

Knife does not prick any more my flesh

when memory of pain and fear in your eyes covers my conscience..

Sight of blood dripping from my wrists does not panic me

when memory of your smiling face,fills my heart with joyance..!!!!

Believe me

I did not betray...

you will understand some day

that it was the only way..!!!!!!!

Tell me kavita..you wrote this poem???

Her eyes were wide with shock.."No..i never wrote this...never ever.."

"But it was posted by "entropy entropy",kavita..."

"I can see that but believe me..this is not my poem...these are not my words.,even i have not written any poem recently.My last poem was "something big in his head"..After that i have not sent any poem to pari.Though i wanted to write a poem after that fight with my boyfriend just to release my frustration but i could not write it due to official work load..

"Then who wrote this???"he questioned her.

"I don't know..neither i wrote this,nor i posted it on that facebook page...I am not sure whether you will believe me or not..but i even don't know password of that account, Pari had made "entropy entropy" and i never bothered about asking the password since i never felt the need to use it..."She did not know why but she felt the need to give explanations to him.

"who wrote this then???"he whispered...!!!!and silence once again consumed the air. Maan was looking outside the window with million one question revolving in his mind whereas kavita was busy reading the poem.

"Maan..you read this "ps" below the poem???"She asked suddenly which broke maan's reverie.

"What ps??"he asked with furrowed brows while coming towards her.

Kavita showed her the laptop.There was a "post script" below the poem which he might have missed that day in panic. It stated-

"ps-dedicated to a special friend of mine"...

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