But unfortunately today as I watched Rashi scream and the others help her instead of feeling sorry for her, I felt sorry for everyone around. Her pain looked so false and my heart tells me she deserves it so much that I am appalled myself. I was so sure that I will feel atleast a small percent of pity that this girl is suffering but Rashi made me feel worse for the people associated with her than for herself.. I thought why and here is my rant on why..
- Her initial scream had no effect because I had just watched her smiling and running to the fan to give Kokila the same fate as herself.
- The glee in her eyes to see another's pain turned to pain for her own and Rashi became a patient.. All her family, the ones she wanted to harm included helped her and she was making it difficult for them. I agree that Chilli in the eyes is too painful. Gopi knows and I see her concern.
But just when I wanted to pity Rashi now, her smirking face at Gopi when she screamed with similar pain comes to the front... I pitied Gopi than Rashi today..😕
- As the others tried comforting her I saw a whining patient who wallowed in self pity. If for one second she had thought - "God, is this what I wanted for Kakiji?" I would have pitied and sympathized with her.
- Her tears at Meethi's comments. Should I have pitied her for that? I could not. The minute Meethi said what she did about Chilli's blinding people, I see Aham's face at Rashi's comment that Gopi may never walk again. I see the loving husband who bore the pain that day and apologized to his wife but I see the cruelty behind her remark and I wonder...
- When she told Gopi that Gopi does not realize what she is going through - I really wanted to pity her and I would have if she just for once thought back to the day she gave the same pain to Gopi. Gopi does know what she is going through. She did that to Gopi herself. And then I think about all the times she never did what she preached Gopi.. I remember the smirks.I cannot pity her..
- When Gopi gave her the needed support siting how she herself got well after the accident and I saw Rashi in tears again, I still could not pity her.. I can see her telling Gopi that other's are burdened with work because of Gopi and I remember Gopi not even asking to be helped when she is in pain. I see Rashi taking advantage of that fact and using it for her own benefit and then I see her here in self pity.. Why would I pity her.. I pity Gopi ...
- When I heard her request Gopi to pray for her why could I not pity her? Because behind those words I see the selfishness of the request. If for one second Rashi had thanked Gopi then maybe I would have felt something. But no.. I see the girl thinking that 2 prayers are better than one especially if the one is the 'gawar' Gopi.. I cannot pity her..
- When I heard her reject he juice categorically like Gopi is her servant, I want to swat her on the head and tell her to shut up.. She does not deserve what other's are doing for her and she should be grateful..
I cannot pity her plight nor can I feel her pain.. Rashi was pampered today by all.. I felt more pity for these people who consider her their family than for her.. Even in pain, surrounded by concerned members she wanted to call her mom and complain. If she had wanted to call her mom out of that need of every child to find solace in a mother, then I would have understood. But Rashi wanted to blame and she blames her mother..
So I feel no pity and I am not concerned that I may sound hard hearted.. For I think Rashi deserves no pity from anyone..