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Just one touch part 1
I don't know how much it has been since we are married ,seeing hatred in family members eyes it seems like yesterday but seeing how it's bitween me and Arnav like its have been long time.yeah i know I call him Arnav obviously in my mind.
I should hate him logically ,I should but the thing is I can't bring myself to hate him ever.
I just want this time to be over quickly,it is going painfully slow but I just hope it gets over before I do something inepropreate,really I just can't lose my sanity now it is hanging on last thread.
See for everybody we are happily married so sometime we have to pretend it. only I don't know how much we are pretending.The thing is there is always undenying attraction between us .We both know that and I am the weaker and pathetically goes hyperventilating ,we both know that too.whenever we are with family he holds me like a lover,like never gonna let you go,intertwining fingers and holding by west is getting old.He does that all the time whenever situation present.He is the best at it just holding by the west he egnites wanton desire in me,now I am virgin but I know enough why it is happening and what does this mean.now I know that I am his wife that is my wright too,but i want that in return to from him the way I want him madly I want him to want me like that.but the kicker is he does want me just I don't no how much.Whenever I come to the table to drink water he is moaning my name so sensually I just want to visit that dream and see what I am doing so he is writhing on the bed with his manhood on attention I mean on full attention ,I wonder how he is able to sleep through it.It's really seems pretty uncomfortable .every time I come here and I will watch him sleeping committing to the memory .I don't know how much time I have with him,whatever it is it won't be enough.I have come long way with him,I just don't know where he is during this journey ?
I am siting by the bad just besides him.He is talking in the sleep no not talking just whispering unintelligent words and it's guttural sound so I fully don't understand .I just want to touch him for once but I know he will get up because even in sleep he knows I am sitting by him, his hand is wondering around the bed like he wants to hold it .I just need to put it on the bed and his ellution will be broken,the spell will break ,and I don't want that I just want to sit here and enjoy it while it last wanting that to be real .praying for that to happen .atleast one of us can have good sleep with good dream and that is enough for now.He is sexually experienced so he has good imagination that is why I think he is expecting something in his dream if I would know what it is I would give him in my dream .yeah I am not ashamed to admit that I want him badly,and there is nothing wrong with fantasizing about your husband.I just wish that to turn into reality.
Ok it's been hour since I am sitting here .now that he is sound sleep I can also go to bad and am bit scared of getting caught. You never know with ASR he will just get up like gost.
I am sleeping on the far end of the room.it took one rain to bring himself to call me, no to order me to sleep in the room by the bed .but by the time, I knew about his night time adventure ;so I chose furthest corner of the room .it would be difficult to sleep with that sweet murmur and grunting associated with my name knowing that am just 2 feet away from promised pleasure.
I am turning and turning around sleep doesn't come .he has got up from his bed he is going to use the bathroom change his pj and sit on the bed for while; then he would take a long cleansing breath removing it as a sigh. It happens every night not even one tiny moment changing.I fear that he may know that I am not sleeping and I have to get up early for puja so I need to try to sleep .first i need to think some of the happy thought like how it would have been if we were happily married,I would be in his bed on his chest drawing lazy circle on his chest and inciting slow burn within him.now he is aware of my attentions . He loves when I start it.He says it makes him happy to know that I am bold with him and I know what I want and don't shy to show it which is big turn on for him.
ASR
She is making that noise again .god really hates me ,I swear I know it.Her actions proves it,that god is by her side and whatever I am doing with her he will make me pay for it big amount but the thing is it's not charity toward school or temple .it's my sanity I would go insane if this keeps continue any longer.
" Arnav ,I love you."
Ok that is the sentence she murmurs in the last. after all the moaning and thrashing and after I smell her through her cotton cloth.but something has changed but what? And this is the puzzle Asr has to solve anyway it's 2:00 in the morning let work for a while and then let see if her dream make reappearance.anyway sleep won't come .
No luck she hasn't uttered single word. it's 4:00 in the morning she will wake up soon,I should go to bed so while pretending to be asleep I can gaze at her ,I can see her because she has lamp lit so that gives me a good view .while my bedside is dark so she won't be able to know that with half closed eyes I am watching her.I am not peeping Tom that is my wife afterall,so I have a full-rite to see her the way I want.she comes partially clothed from the bathroom just the sari is left .so it's not like she is indecent .it's ok ,yeah ASR it's ok .but today she is different I can feel it something is up.
She is gone from the room she kept gazing to my side sometime with admiration and sometime with fear of being caught. I know the feeling.
She is gone to puja and this room doesn't hold any interest so let's go for jog and have nice workout.
KASR
For puja everything is ready ,Payal and Jiji also has got up .so preparation for breakfast is also done nothing to do .so I go back to my room ,he went to jog I know it. He is not in the house also ,or else I would have known,is it weird to just feel how he smell ?I go to his side of bed and sniff his pillow the smell gives me tingles I want smell like him after we talk some and make love ,yeah after that I would definitly smell like him. I sniff it again trying to remember it, so later tonight it would be bit easier to think about how It would feel to hold by those arm.
I make a bed ,OP and JP can do it but this is our hub .here we are free spirit obviously in the night .I don't want anybody in this room.just him and me and our dream adventure .
He is in the house I make run for the door because I know how my body would betray me when I see him covered in sweat .
I ran INTO him ,good god now what?
ASR :are you ok ?can't u see and walk? and why screaming ?I caught you. you are not hurt.(god what is she thinking ? Is she ok ?is it because of change of night routine)
ASR : Khushi ! talk to me.
Kasr :god he is asking me something.and I am standing like moron .staring at the sweat as it is making his journey to his chin to Adam apple and than rolling on his chest.lucky sweat.I just want to kill by liking it.I Am Moron.That is official.
Anjali : What happened to Khushiji?
Anjaliji? God not now I can't bere his nearness .then it happens his hands on her shoulders he is running over her arms trying to see that she is okay.
Are kai hui gawa ,abhibhi nind me ho ka?utho khushirani !!!
Mamiji?
"Are Anjali bitiya Lagta hai uski nind nahe puri hui hai. jara unko ratko jaldi Kamarama bhejeka Padi .tabhito thik se Morning ka rasam huve.!"
That statement catches Arnav and Khushi's attention ,she is all red and flustered he pull her by shoulders and rest his hand on her West.she is goner.she knows that . seeing her tense Arnav rubs his hands on her back asking her carringly if she is ok. His action stir something within her, she sense that his touch is not pretending.he is really asking if she is ok.is she okay? No she is more confused than ever. His touch is sensual ,silky and melting her within her body.she rest her head on his shoulder unthinkingly that catches Asr off-guard he thinks this is first!!!!!what changed?he is screaming in his head.Why does she wear such deep neck blouse just to torment me? Like You haven't imagined her without cloth hypocrite!!while he tries to rub her open back she shivers and trembles plus whimpers .ASR notices all this and go stiff as board he knows what is the problem .they are on same wavelength the matter is who will make first move.he slower his movement and stop all together resting his hand on her west with lingering fingertips.
Arnav thinks why is she looking like that?is exhaustion is finally making appearance ?
Anjali:Chitey ,Khushiji let's have breakfast.
Khushi thanking all god makes her way to dining area.everybody is sited only Jiji is serving so she help her serving the food.
Arnav is thinking about his office and meetings so he is not aware when khushi place all his food on the plate.he is kind of diverting his attention and sanity into his work now that they are on the table discussion will go to social chatting to new mall and temple.he thinks same old same old.
Khushi serves to Anjali ,mamaji and Arnav .she is very aware of his presence she tries to hold her own ,making sure doesn't spill anything on her lard governor in her flustered state.just ten more minute and he will be off to his work and then she can release her breath.
He can sense she is not her usual self ,he can't stay home , he has to attend his meeting.anyway it's not gonna like he can ask what is troubling her.
He is off to work.he has left every disturbing emotion at main-gate.hei is at work where the ASR in control ,no one dares to contradict him.he is force of nature here at his best,making destiny of thousands by saying yes to random design and shutting whole office by just glare of his eyes.
He has gone to work .she keeps herself busy with mundane work.she organizing their closet .her most of the cloth is in the bag in the loft only necessary cloth is along side with his.she doesn't want to invade his privacy or place.by putting all her stuff there.she knows that she is here only for limited period .it's feel good to do something for him she knows where his stuff are even in sleep she can tell.just like she know all his mood and temper like back of the her hand.
She is putting all his shirt and jumpers by shade with their slack. That makes her happy ,to do something for him 'which he appreciate .he doesn't say that out loud but she can see in his eyes the gratitude .he tries to pretend that he doesn't know who did it but she can see that he knows very-well who did that,he can see the women's touch to his stuff.
she killed her day by chi-chat and tiding the tidy room.She would never admit but she is waiting for his arrival.Di and Jiji both are making fun of her habit.he is not staying in the office late hours like earlier.Dare she hope that he is coming home before midnight Because of her?no this are the roots of empanding pain ,she knows that so she won't try to read between the lines much.
"Di ! I am back."
K:she is in her room I will get the dinner.
A:I am not hungry.
K:okay.Her diet is killed ,she doesn't want to eat it's not like they are real couple so they will eat together,but eating without him doesn't set well with her.she goes to kitchen put all the food in freeze and made her way to their room.She knows he is watching her,but she doesn't dare to look in his direction.
She goes to bathroom for freshen up.he is in his office on his computer .that is better ,she can't face him not after seeing that how deep she feels toward him.how much hurt she is hiding .As much as that she doesn't know if she can hide her love for him.she wants to be brave and confess it,but first time she is scared of him with her feelings laying on the open .no that would mean suicide.
He can not talk about his feelings with anybody so he is writing that down as draft.or else he will explode by the pressure of the raging emotion.
she is sleeping that's good but first also or else he would hear her turning around on her makeshift bed.but everything is eery quite.he doesn't like this at all. Then he hears growling of hertummy.she didn't eat?then he knows why.and he is furious with himself.well he can't do anything now.at least he find solace that she won't be the only one sleeping empty stomach he has also skipped the dinner.He wanted to have dinner at home ,but work dragged and dragged ,by the time he arrived home it was midnight. He knows that she doesn't eat alone but never knew that fact is she won't eat without him.She cares.and with that happy thought he goes into peaceful sleep.
It's morning he is gazing at her she is late for puja .she is in rush .she is wearing same sari.but why?she has so many of them.
After finishing his routine he goes to his wardrobe and he sees that everything is organized again,then he notices that her side is mostly empty only few things are there .and he doesn't like it .he decide it's time to take her to shopping .whatever stuff she has it's what Di bought for her not he.He wants her to wear his choice of cloth.so first time in his carrier takes day off.
Anjali: Chotey can you come and sit here .
ASR: I am hungry D.,khushi let's have breakfast.
With widening eyes She stare at him .he pulls her by west and pull the chair for her. calling op to serve the food.everybody is looking at them .
Mamorama:ha ha Khilao bhai .
KASR : I will have latter on ,I will serve you .
ASR : You are not serving staff ,I have people to do it .sit with me and eat .
He is used to have full attention of everybody but today he is giving his undivided attention to Khushi and her diet.
He refill her juice and put some fruit in her plate.
K:I am full.
ASR : just give her hard stare before smirking and softening his expression .
She finishes her food obediently .after polishing her plat she dare to look at him ,and seeing the adoration in his eyes she chokes up on a breath.
He pulls her chair near him,rubbing her back and cupping her face .it's up to that stage that she is as good as sitting in his lap. Tears roll down on her cheek both of them know it's not from the choking ,it's their unconfessed love .
ASR :" let's go." says softly.
She is looking at him try to understand what does he mean by that.
ASR : Di,Nani , we are going out for a day.he says to them and giving answer to her unspoken question.
He doesn't pull her but walk besides her.she didn't ask anything.she wants to be normal by herself may be that's what she need timeout from pretending.
KSAR :" where are we going?"(she doesn't know what to make of it.their is no situation which need them together.)
ASR : "Shopping" He is waiting for her next qustion She sure will have and she will defy him .he wants her defiance it's been long. it's like his dose to make sure that she is not loosing herself in all this clusterf**k .
KASR : " Okay." she thinks it's for family member ,she can go.
He is amazed and confused why she isn't defying?it's puzzling .
ASR : "let's go "
KASR :"oh" car is parked they are at boutique.
His personal shopper comes and he is happy to see him .ASR means big business .
S:how may I help sir?
A:I am here for my wife .(looking at her bewildered expression) I want you find something elegant but stylist but with soft material ,Silk and shifone will do .some comfy and other stylist.
She cam see that he is in ASR mode and this is not the random dicision. He has made his catalog of what he wants for her.but why?that is what she has to figure out before that kiss ass fella comes with stuff .and their is only one way to make him confess it .make him angry in anger he will spill .
K:I don't want anything.
A:I know,I want to.
K:that doesn't mean I have to go through it ,I want put it on.
A:that's ok I will more than happy to do it myself.(oh f**k!!!he said that out loud moron)she is speechless ,that one is first time .she has snarky answer to all the line. He realize that his verbal filter is gone .so he doesn't say anything .putting his hand in his hair look dawn.guiltily .
K:(oh f**k!!!did he just say that ?how I wish he will remove all mine first then he can dress me .in whatever overprice dress he wants.)
She has never imagined place like this where you have your personal shop area ,but somehow it's fade with comparison with his husband sitting here.hell he runs famous fashion industry he can call the shop home .with that thought she remembers la and his marriage preparation ,and again tear is streaking dawn her chick .that was hard time but she finds this one hardest.at that time he wasn't hers now he is hers but same time he is not.
Shopper : sir will this do?
ASR : I will call you.
ASR : "Khushi ?I am sorry."
K:"hummm "she didnt paid any attention .even the cloths are here ,for exactly how long was she spaced out?
"Khushi? Are you okay?why are you crying?"
KASR : "Oh! I am fine .see I can't shop here and mostly I don't need anything . Whatever I have it's more than enough.so just let's go ,I don't have that kind of money so can spend blindly.I won't be able to pay you back.I don't have a job." he was listening patiently but when she told about money she can see Arnav transfer into ASR mode.she cringes inwardly ,waiting for his out burst. It doesn't come.
That was it .it's enough .she didn't said directly that she is with him for some period but he understood the prass today that "action speak louder than words.now he has to make sure that his action also make her understand that whatever started with 6 month contract its gonna last lifetime.and it's not like they sighed contract .Thank god for that,or else he would have been royally f**ked.so he just get up from the sofa. Calling off whole thing .again he doesn't pull her he holds her hand and start toward the car to the bank.
She is puzzled .she has tried twice but he is cool,collected and he has game plan she can read his face.he is making decision .for good or worst she doesn't know.
KASR : "bank? Why are we here?they always take so much time.can't you do whatever you want to do tomorrow ?"she is way to annoyed by his calm demeanor .
Even though she is saying this she knows from his stance he is not going alone.he is looking at her and smirking inwardly that she is so naive .she doesn't understand the power his name hold.other than her nobody would dare to say no or make him wait ,let alone disrespectful .
He opens the door for her.and hold out his hand and guide get to the entrance she is muttering something under the breath.he just chuckle it's been long time since he has seen her by herself.she is giving him glare which make him laugh loud.only she is the one who can make him laugh.even by glaring at him .
Seeing him in the door manager comes rushing to him,and ask what he can help with,Asr raise his eyebrow toward khushi. She is making face but doesn't say anything .
ASR : We are here to open an account .
M:name of the primary holder please
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ASR : Looking directly into Khushi's eyes , he says mrs.Arnav sing Raizada .Arnav smiles when he sees her frozen on the chair . She is gonna surface soon so he just ask him to come to the RM and finish all formalities with Aman.he wants to live the place before she create scene .which he much prefer take place when they are alone.
So he just gets up and ask the manager to come to the office after one hour .yeah hour should be enough for her to cool of .she giving him death glare .he doesn't miss it,he just pray she wouldn't do that publicly.
KASR : "Why are you doing this? What do you want ? Are you paying fore me to be your wife for six month?"
ASR : "Listen !and listen carefully .do not disgrade your self .I won't tolerate it.you are my wife..."
KASR : "For how long???????"
ASR : "Khushi please not now .don't defy me .I want this for my wife and you want stop me.let's go."
They are at restaurant.
KASR : " Now what?why are we here."
ASR : " Just look at her . He wants to tell her that this is their first date after marriage ,but he knows better than to utter those words ,he answer the best way he knows.he stays silent . Pull her to the hotel. And ask For private dining area.
Khushi doesn't miss the way bimbo is eyeing him ,and flaunting her asset in his face.she feels like punching her.but she doesn't because he is not looking her way he is looking at her and he is looking like he rather likes her ,like they are truly couple .so she pretend it and try to play it cool and collected.
They are sitting side by side ,that is not good close proximity in private dining area is not good at all. She is in trouble.
ASR had made up h is mind.he is gonna make move slowly ,because she is naive she acts tough but she is like porcelain doll .he has given himself one-month to make her fall in love and seduce .he can do it at home. but she will feel obliged to reciprocate his advance .he wants her to want him not to oblige .so thats why he is here .
Bimbo comes and ask him seductively if he would like anything else?
KASR : "god " (she as much just remove her cloths and offer herself on silver plater to him,I just want her head on silver plate not his model like figure)
ASR : "Khushi ! do you wanna try wine ?"
KASR : " what wine ?no way!!!"
ASR : "It's not alcohol you will like it "without asking her opinion he orders the best wine bottle for both of them ,he wants her to loosen up a bit so she want freak out when he is bit closer to her .
Their starter is here once she start eating then only she knows that how much hungry she is.
He is looking at her .he is surrounded by model ,well top model they are always so conscious about each and every calorie even la was so picky no paneer ,no butter ,but he see's the love of his life eating paneer tikka with vigor she really enjoying the food ,he remember their trip to Nanital and dhaba scene .
KASR : "Aren't you hungry???"
ASR : "yeah ,I am very ." He says that looking into her eyes which makes her blush.
Flustered he thinks it's good he ordered wine may be he will need it more than hers.so he pour into their glasses and ask her to try it .she is reluctant but he can see there is curiosity also lurking behind those eyes. so he takes one ship and hold out glass to her lips urging her to try it with his eyes which are hooded and devouring her.she move bit forward and takes a sip and close her eyes .he is mesmerized by her move ,she is wearing net sari her pallu is loose so he can see through it .it's not covering much ,he can see her nipples harden ,her labored breathing .then he looks up to her face and she is watching him staring at her cleavage mesmerised .both of their eyes are hooded looking into each other heart .they might jump each other given one moment thinking that server bimbo comes and break their spell .khushi gulps dawn whole glass of wine without any reservation.he chuckles .She glares.and they are back to their comfort zone.after two glass of wine and main course they order desert ."Linda's chocolate muse ."and that is the kicker because that is when start moaning after eating one spoon she is in full appreciation mode she moans and grins .
KASR : "you have to try this it's wonderful .open up ."
ASR : "are you sure?"
It's rhetorical but she is too naive to understand .so he open his mouth as per her command .so their are two plates but they are eating from the serving plat.bimbo is glaring at her Arnav is watching all this but he doesn't understand .it had happened before with la whenever any model will flaunt herself . la will hold his hand or hug him ,some PDA will take place ,but Khushi is not doing anything she is sitting there uneffected by server flirting with her husband .and then it's click ,she doesn't think she has any claim on him.Just because his feelings has gotten deeper for her doesn't she feels the same.
He is disappointed but doesn't show it. He pays the bill and they live the restaurant .
KASR : "where to?" She feels like she is in different universe this is the new side of Arnav she is experiencing .ASR makes appearance but it's far between .she thought they would be by their own but turn of event had taken 360 .she is falling for him hard and deep ,she is confused by his behavior he is like lover ,but why? It is so easy to deal with ASR the businessman ,but this Arnav is messing with her heart and brain .yeah don't forget your hormone.)
ASR : "AR. ".he doesn't elaborate more ,because so far it's going good he doesn't want to make her snap.god it has been always other way around people has been worried about his mood .but it's okay he cares about her ,and he wants to take care of her.so keeping his anger in check is no biggy.he is turning soft .
She doesn't ask many question ,she knows he has taken day off ,may be he wants to finish some work maybe she will meet cafe aunty while he works.
He goes directly to his office .people are watching them but no one dares to gossip.he roars for Aman on his way.this is first time he has brought her here after marriage.he can see unspoken question in employees eyes.he doesn't care.even before he sits Aman comes through the door with notepad .
Khushi goes to sit on a chair nut he move toward couch.taking her with him .he sits near to her taking her hand in between his both hand ,he doesn't even realize until Aman is staring at it ,he has never seen his boss like this with la.Arnav clears throat which brakes Aman musing.
Aman: yes sir ??
ASR : " Send Sandy to take measurement of khushi ."then he looks at her.she is looking at him trying to figure out the puzzle ASR.
He gives her sly smile he has never done this before.Looking at Aman he continues.
ASR : " ask designer to make some design for salwar, Saadi and cocktail dress."
Now she is staring at him .and he is staring back .seeing this exchange Aman lives the cabin .
Sandy turns in but her Hands are trembling .she start taking Khushi's measurement,khushi is glancing at his time by time ,oh how much she wish that he would have been the one who can take the measurement ,she doesn't know that he is thinking the same wishing the same .He would just make little adjustment he would remove all her cloth first then he would start taking the measurement .sexual tension is so thick that even sandy can feel it .seeing their heated gaze she tries to move fast but in-between ASR is giving order to take measurement for sort and Long sleeves,plunging neckline and knee length .he is daring her to contradict his decision.she to flustered to make a snarky comment.
Finally it's over and it's evening it's been hours since they are out ,and the punchline is without fighting once.
Like today is the day of all their first.
Hope you guys like it it was bugging me so badly ,so I have put it here in word.
I don't know how much it has been since we are married ,seeing hatred in family members eyes it seems like yesterday but seeing how it's bitween me and Arnav like its have been long time.yeah i know I call him Arnav obviously in my mind.
I should hate him logically ,I should but the thing is I can't bring myself to hate him ever.
I just want this time to be over quickly,it is going painfully slow but I just hope it gets over before I do something inepropreate,really I just can't lose my sanity now it is hanging on last thread.
See for everybody we are happily married so sometime we have to pretend it. only I don't know how much we are pretending.The thing is there is always undenying attraction between us .We both know that and I am the weaker and pathetically goes hyperventilating ,we both know that too.whenever we are with family he holds me like a lover,like never gonna let you go,intertwining fingers and holding by west is getting old.He does that all the time whenever situation present.He is the best at it just holding by the west he egnites wanton desire in me,now I am virgin but I know enough why it is happening and what does this mean.now I know that I am his wife that is my wright too,but i want that in return to from him the way I want him madly I want him to want me like that.but the kicker is he does want me just I don't no how much.Whenever I come to the table to drink water he is moaning my name so sensually I just want to visit that dream and see what I am doing so he is writhing on the bed with his manhood on attention I mean on full attention ,I wonder how he is able to sleep through it.It's really seems pretty uncomfortable .every time I come here and I will watch him sleeping committing to the memory .I don't know how much time I have with him,whatever it is it won't be enough.I have come long way with him,I just don't know where he is during this journey ?
I am siting by the bad just besides him.He is talking in the sleep no not talking just whispering unintelligent words and it's guttural sound so I fully don't understand .I just want to touch him for once but I know he will get up because even in sleep he knows I am sitting by him, his hand is wondering around the bed like he wants to hold it .I just need to put it on the bed and his ellution will be broken,the spell will break ,and I don't want that I just want to sit here and enjoy it while it last wanting that to be real .praying for that to happen .atleast one of us can have good sleep with good dream and that is enough for now.He is sexually experienced so he has good imagination that is why I think he is expecting something in his dream if I would know what it is I would give him in my dream .yeah I am not ashamed to admit that I want him badly,and there is nothing wrong with fantasizing about your husband.I just wish that to turn into reality.
Ok it's been hour since I am sitting here .now that he is sound sleep I can also go to bad and am bit scared of getting caught. You never know with ASR he will just get up like gost.
I am sleeping on the far end of the room.it took one rain to bring himself to call me, no to order me to sleep in the room by the bed .but by the time, I knew about his night time adventure ;so I chose furthest corner of the room .it would be difficult to sleep with that sweet murmur and grunting associated with my name knowing that am just 2 feet away from promised pleasure.
I am turning and turning around sleep doesn't come .he has got up from his bed he is going to use the bathroom change his pj and sit on the bed for while; then he would take a long cleansing breath removing it as a sigh. It happens every night not even one tiny moment changing.I fear that he may know that I am not sleeping and I have to get up early for puja so I need to try to sleep .first i need to think some of the happy thought like how it would have been if we were happily married,I would be in his bed on his chest drawing lazy circle on his chest and inciting slow burn within him.now he is aware of my attentions . He loves when I start it.He says it makes him happy to know that I am bold with him and I know what I want and don't shy to show it which is big turn on for him.
ASR
She is making that noise again .god really hates me ,I swear I know it.Her actions proves it,that god is by her side and whatever I am doing with her he will make me pay for it big amount but the thing is it's not charity toward school or temple .it's my sanity I would go insane if this keeps continue any longer.
" Arnav ,I love you."
Ok that is the sentence she murmurs in the last. after all the moaning and thrashing and after I smell her through her cotton cloth.but something has changed but what? And this is the puzzle Asr has to solve anyway it's 2:00 in the morning let work for a while and then let see if her dream make reappearance.anyway sleep won't come .
No luck she hasn't uttered single word. it's 4:00 in the morning she will wake up soon,I should go to bed so while pretending to be asleep I can gaze at her ,I can see her because she has lamp lit so that gives me a good view .while my bedside is dark so she won't be able to know that with half closed eyes I am watching her.I am not peeping Tom that is my wife afterall,so I have a full-rite to see her the way I want.she comes partially clothed from the bathroom just the sari is left .so it's not like she is indecent .it's ok ,yeah ASR it's ok .but today she is different I can feel it something is up.
She is gone from the room she kept gazing to my side sometime with admiration and sometime with fear of being caught. I know the feeling.
She is gone to puja and this room doesn't hold any interest so let's go for jog and have nice workout.
KASR
For puja everything is ready ,Payal and Jiji also has got up .so preparation for breakfast is also done nothing to do .so I go back to my room ,he went to jog I know it. He is not in the house also ,or else I would have known,is it weird to just feel how he smell ?I go to his side of bed and sniff his pillow the smell gives me tingles I want smell like him after we talk some and make love ,yeah after that I would definitly smell like him. I sniff it again trying to remember it, so later tonight it would be bit easier to think about how It would feel to hold by those arm.
I make a bed ,OP and JP can do it but this is our hub .here we are free spirit obviously in the night .I don't want anybody in this room.just him and me and our dream adventure .
He is in the house I make run for the door because I know how my body would betray me when I see him covered in sweat .
I ran INTO him ,good god now what?
ASR :are you ok ?can't u see and walk? and why screaming ?I caught you. you are not hurt.(god what is she thinking ? Is she ok ?is it because of change of night routine)
ASR : Khushi ! talk to me.
Kasr :god he is asking me something.and I am standing like moron .staring at the sweat as it is making his journey to his chin to Adam apple and than rolling on his chest.lucky sweat.I just want to kill by liking it.I Am Moron.That is official.
Anjali : What happened to Khushiji?
Anjaliji? God not now I can't bere his nearness .then it happens his hands on her shoulders he is running over her arms trying to see that she is okay.
Are kai hui gawa ,abhibhi nind me ho ka?utho khushirani !!!
Mamiji?
"Are Anjali bitiya Lagta hai uski nind nahe puri hui hai. jara unko ratko jaldi Kamarama bhejeka Padi .tabhito thik se Morning ka rasam huve.!"
That statement catches Arnav and Khushi's attention ,she is all red and flustered he pull her by shoulders and rest his hand on her West.she is goner.she knows that . seeing her tense Arnav rubs his hands on her back asking her carringly if she is ok. His action stir something within her, she sense that his touch is not pretending.he is really asking if she is ok.is she okay? No she is more confused than ever. His touch is sensual ,silky and melting her within her body.she rest her head on his shoulder unthinkingly that catches Asr off-guard he thinks this is first!!!!!what changed?he is screaming in his head.Why does she wear such deep neck blouse just to torment me? Like You haven't imagined her without cloth hypocrite!!while he tries to rub her open back she shivers and trembles plus whimpers .ASR notices all this and go stiff as board he knows what is the problem .they are on same wavelength the matter is who will make first move.he slower his movement and stop all together resting his hand on her west with lingering fingertips.
Arnav thinks why is she looking like that?is exhaustion is finally making appearance ?
Anjali:Chitey ,Khushiji let's have breakfast.
Khushi thanking all god makes her way to dining area.everybody is sited only Jiji is serving so she help her serving the food.
Arnav is thinking about his office and meetings so he is not aware when khushi place all his food on the plate.he is kind of diverting his attention and sanity into his work now that they are on the table discussion will go to social chatting to new mall and temple.he thinks same old same old.
Khushi serves to Anjali ,mamaji and Arnav .she is very aware of his presence she tries to hold her own ,making sure doesn't spill anything on her lard governor in her flustered state.just ten more minute and he will be off to his work and then she can release her breath.
He can sense she is not her usual self ,he can't stay home , he has to attend his meeting.anyway it's not gonna like he can ask what is troubling her.
He is off to work.he has left every disturbing emotion at main-gate.hei is at work where the ASR in control ,no one dares to contradict him.he is force of nature here at his best,making destiny of thousands by saying yes to random design and shutting whole office by just glare of his eyes.
He has gone to work .she keeps herself busy with mundane work.she organizing their closet .her most of the cloth is in the bag in the loft only necessary cloth is along side with his.she doesn't want to invade his privacy or place.by putting all her stuff there.she knows that she is here only for limited period .it's feel good to do something for him she knows where his stuff are even in sleep she can tell.just like she know all his mood and temper like back of the her hand.
She is putting all his shirt and jumpers by shade with their slack. That makes her happy ,to do something for him 'which he appreciate .he doesn't say that out loud but she can see in his eyes the gratitude .he tries to pretend that he doesn't know who did it but she can see that he knows very-well who did that,he can see the women's touch to his stuff.
she killed her day by chi-chat and tiding the tidy room.She would never admit but she is waiting for his arrival.Di and Jiji both are making fun of her habit.he is not staying in the office late hours like earlier.Dare she hope that he is coming home before midnight Because of her?no this are the roots of empanding pain ,she knows that so she won't try to read between the lines much.
"Di ! I am back."
K:she is in her room I will get the dinner.
A:I am not hungry.
K:okay.Her diet is killed ,she doesn't want to eat it's not like they are real couple so they will eat together,but eating without him doesn't set well with her.she goes to kitchen put all the food in freeze and made her way to their room.She knows he is watching her,but she doesn't dare to look in his direction.
She goes to bathroom for freshen up.he is in his office on his computer .that is better ,she can't face him not after seeing that how deep she feels toward him.how much hurt she is hiding .As much as that she doesn't know if she can hide her love for him.she wants to be brave and confess it,but first time she is scared of him with her feelings laying on the open .no that would mean suicide.
He can not talk about his feelings with anybody so he is writing that down as draft.or else he will explode by the pressure of the raging emotion.
she is sleeping that's good but first also or else he would hear her turning around on her makeshift bed.but everything is eery quite.he doesn't like this at all. Then he hears growling of hertummy.she didn't eat?then he knows why.and he is furious with himself.well he can't do anything now.at least he find solace that she won't be the only one sleeping empty stomach he has also skipped the dinner.He wanted to have dinner at home ,but work dragged and dragged ,by the time he arrived home it was midnight. He knows that she doesn't eat alone but never knew that fact is she won't eat without him.She cares.and with that happy thought he goes into peaceful sleep.
It's morning he is gazing at her she is late for puja .she is in rush .she is wearing same sari.but why?she has so many of them.
After finishing his routine he goes to his wardrobe and he sees that everything is organized again,then he notices that her side is mostly empty only few things are there .and he doesn't like it .he decide it's time to take her to shopping .whatever stuff she has it's what Di bought for her not he.He wants her to wear his choice of cloth.so first time in his carrier takes day off.
Anjali: Chotey can you come and sit here .
ASR: I am hungry D.,khushi let's have breakfast.
With widening eyes She stare at him .he pulls her by west and pull the chair for her. calling op to serve the food.everybody is looking at them .
Mamorama:ha ha Khilao bhai .
KASR : I will have latter on ,I will serve you .
ASR : You are not serving staff ,I have people to do it .sit with me and eat .
He is used to have full attention of everybody but today he is giving his undivided attention to Khushi and her diet.
He refill her juice and put some fruit in her plate.
K:I am full.
ASR : just give her hard stare before smirking and softening his expression .
She finishes her food obediently .after polishing her plat she dare to look at him ,and seeing the adoration in his eyes she chokes up on a breath.
He pulls her chair near him,rubbing her back and cupping her face .it's up to that stage that she is as good as sitting in his lap. Tears roll down on her cheek both of them know it's not from the choking ,it's their unconfessed love .
ASR :" let's go." says softly.
She is looking at him try to understand what does he mean by that.
ASR : Di,Nani , we are going out for a day.he says to them and giving answer to her unspoken question.
He doesn't pull her but walk besides her.she didn't ask anything.she wants to be normal by herself may be that's what she need timeout from pretending.
KSAR :" where are we going?"(she doesn't know what to make of it.their is no situation which need them together.)
ASR : "Shopping" He is waiting for her next qustion She sure will have and she will defy him .he wants her defiance it's been long. it's like his dose to make sure that she is not loosing herself in all this clusterf**k .
KASR : " Okay." she thinks it's for family member ,she can go.
He is amazed and confused why she isn't defying?it's puzzling .
ASR : "let's go "
KASR :"oh" car is parked they are at boutique.
His personal shopper comes and he is happy to see him .ASR means big business .
S:how may I help sir?
A:I am here for my wife .(looking at her bewildered expression) I want you find something elegant but stylist but with soft material ,Silk and shifone will do .some comfy and other stylist.
She cam see that he is in ASR mode and this is not the random dicision. He has made his catalog of what he wants for her.but why?that is what she has to figure out before that kiss ass fella comes with stuff .and their is only one way to make him confess it .make him angry in anger he will spill .
K:I don't want anything.
A:I know,I want to.
K:that doesn't mean I have to go through it ,I want put it on.
A:that's ok I will more than happy to do it myself.(oh f**k!!!he said that out loud moron)she is speechless ,that one is first time .she has snarky answer to all the line. He realize that his verbal filter is gone .so he doesn't say anything .putting his hand in his hair look dawn.guiltily .
K:(oh f**k!!!did he just say that ?how I wish he will remove all mine first then he can dress me .in whatever overprice dress he wants.)
She has never imagined place like this where you have your personal shop area ,but somehow it's fade with comparison with his husband sitting here.hell he runs famous fashion industry he can call the shop home .with that thought she remembers la and his marriage preparation ,and again tear is streaking dawn her chick .that was hard time but she finds this one hardest.at that time he wasn't hers now he is hers but same time he is not.
Shopper : sir will this do?
ASR : I will call you.
ASR : "Khushi ?I am sorry."
K:"hummm "she didnt paid any attention .even the cloths are here ,for exactly how long was she spaced out?
"Khushi? Are you okay?why are you crying?"
KASR : "Oh! I am fine .see I can't shop here and mostly I don't need anything . Whatever I have it's more than enough.so just let's go ,I don't have that kind of money so can spend blindly.I won't be able to pay you back.I don't have a job." he was listening patiently but when she told about money she can see Arnav transfer into ASR mode.she cringes inwardly ,waiting for his out burst. It doesn't come.
That was it .it's enough .she didn't said directly that she is with him for some period but he understood the prass today that "action speak louder than words.now he has to make sure that his action also make her understand that whatever started with 6 month contract its gonna last lifetime.and it's not like they sighed contract .Thank god for that,or else he would have been royally f**ked.so he just get up from the sofa. Calling off whole thing .again he doesn't pull her he holds her hand and start toward the car to the bank.
She is puzzled .she has tried twice but he is cool,collected and he has game plan she can read his face.he is making decision .for good or worst she doesn't know.
KASR : "bank? Why are we here?they always take so much time.can't you do whatever you want to do tomorrow ?"she is way to annoyed by his calm demeanor .
Even though she is saying this she knows from his stance he is not going alone.he is looking at her and smirking inwardly that she is so naive .she doesn't understand the power his name hold.other than her nobody would dare to say no or make him wait ,let alone disrespectful .
He opens the door for her.and hold out his hand and guide get to the entrance she is muttering something under the breath.he just chuckle it's been long time since he has seen her by herself.she is giving him glare which make him laugh loud.only she is the one who can make him laugh.even by glaring at him .
Seeing him in the door manager comes rushing to him,and ask what he can help with,Asr raise his eyebrow toward khushi. She is making face but doesn't say anything .
ASR : We are here to open an account .
M:name of the primary holder please
?
ASR : Looking directly into Khushi's eyes , he says mrs.Arnav sing Raizada .Arnav smiles when he sees her frozen on the chair . She is gonna surface soon so he just ask him to come to the RM and finish all formalities with Aman.he wants to live the place before she create scene .which he much prefer take place when they are alone.
So he just gets up and ask the manager to come to the office after one hour .yeah hour should be enough for her to cool of .she giving him death glare .he doesn't miss it,he just pray she wouldn't do that publicly.
KASR : "Why are you doing this? What do you want ? Are you paying fore me to be your wife for six month?"
ASR : "Listen !and listen carefully .do not disgrade your self .I won't tolerate it.you are my wife..."
KASR : "For how long???????"
ASR : "Khushi please not now .don't defy me .I want this for my wife and you want stop me.let's go."
They are at restaurant.
KASR : " Now what?why are we here."
ASR : " Just look at her . He wants to tell her that this is their first date after marriage ,but he knows better than to utter those words ,he answer the best way he knows.he stays silent . Pull her to the hotel. And ask For private dining area.
Khushi doesn't miss the way bimbo is eyeing him ,and flaunting her asset in his face.she feels like punching her.but she doesn't because he is not looking her way he is looking at her and he is looking like he rather likes her ,like they are truly couple .so she pretend it and try to play it cool and collected.
They are sitting side by side ,that is not good close proximity in private dining area is not good at all. She is in trouble.
ASR had made up h is mind.he is gonna make move slowly ,because she is naive she acts tough but she is like porcelain doll .he has given himself one-month to make her fall in love and seduce .he can do it at home. but she will feel obliged to reciprocate his advance .he wants her to want him not to oblige .so thats why he is here .
Bimbo comes and ask him seductively if he would like anything else?
KASR : "god " (she as much just remove her cloths and offer herself on silver plater to him,I just want her head on silver plate not his model like figure)
ASR : "Khushi ! do you wanna try wine ?"
KASR : " what wine ?no way!!!"
ASR : "It's not alcohol you will like it "without asking her opinion he orders the best wine bottle for both of them ,he wants her to loosen up a bit so she want freak out when he is bit closer to her .
Their starter is here once she start eating then only she knows that how much hungry she is.
He is looking at her .he is surrounded by model ,well top model they are always so conscious about each and every calorie even la was so picky no paneer ,no butter ,but he see's the love of his life eating paneer tikka with vigor she really enjoying the food ,he remember their trip to Nanital and dhaba scene .
KASR : "Aren't you hungry???"
ASR : "yeah ,I am very ." He says that looking into her eyes which makes her blush.
Flustered he thinks it's good he ordered wine may be he will need it more than hers.so he pour into their glasses and ask her to try it .she is reluctant but he can see there is curiosity also lurking behind those eyes. so he takes one ship and hold out glass to her lips urging her to try it with his eyes which are hooded and devouring her.she move bit forward and takes a sip and close her eyes .he is mesmerized by her move ,she is wearing net sari her pallu is loose so he can see through it .it's not covering much ,he can see her nipples harden ,her labored breathing .then he looks up to her face and she is watching him staring at her cleavage mesmerised .both of their eyes are hooded looking into each other heart .they might jump each other given one moment thinking that server bimbo comes and break their spell .khushi gulps dawn whole glass of wine without any reservation.he chuckles .She glares.and they are back to their comfort zone.after two glass of wine and main course they order desert ."Linda's chocolate muse ."and that is the kicker because that is when start moaning after eating one spoon she is in full appreciation mode she moans and grins .
KASR : "you have to try this it's wonderful .open up ."
ASR : "are you sure?"
It's rhetorical but she is too naive to understand .so he open his mouth as per her command .so their are two plates but they are eating from the serving plat.bimbo is glaring at her Arnav is watching all this but he doesn't understand .it had happened before with la whenever any model will flaunt herself . la will hold his hand or hug him ,some PDA will take place ,but Khushi is not doing anything she is sitting there uneffected by server flirting with her husband .and then it's click ,she doesn't think she has any claim on him.Just because his feelings has gotten deeper for her doesn't she feels the same.
He is disappointed but doesn't show it. He pays the bill and they live the restaurant .
KASR : "where to?" She feels like she is in different universe this is the new side of Arnav she is experiencing .ASR makes appearance but it's far between .she thought they would be by their own but turn of event had taken 360 .she is falling for him hard and deep ,she is confused by his behavior he is like lover ,but why? It is so easy to deal with ASR the businessman ,but this Arnav is messing with her heart and brain .yeah don't forget your hormone.)
ASR : "AR. ".he doesn't elaborate more ,because so far it's going good he doesn't want to make her snap.god it has been always other way around people has been worried about his mood .but it's okay he cares about her ,and he wants to take care of her.so keeping his anger in check is no biggy.he is turning soft .
She doesn't ask many question ,she knows he has taken day off ,may be he wants to finish some work maybe she will meet cafe aunty while he works.
He goes directly to his office .people are watching them but no one dares to gossip.he roars for Aman on his way.this is first time he has brought her here after marriage.he can see unspoken question in employees eyes.he doesn't care.even before he sits Aman comes through the door with notepad .
Khushi goes to sit on a chair nut he move toward couch.taking her with him .he sits near to her taking her hand in between his both hand ,he doesn't even realize until Aman is staring at it ,he has never seen his boss like this with la.Arnav clears throat which brakes Aman musing.
Aman: yes sir ??
ASR : " Send Sandy to take measurement of khushi ."then he looks at her.she is looking at him trying to figure out the puzzle ASR.
He gives her sly smile he has never done this before.Looking at Aman he continues.
ASR : " ask designer to make some design for salwar, Saadi and cocktail dress."
Now she is staring at him .and he is staring back .seeing this exchange Aman lives the cabin .
Sandy turns in but her Hands are trembling .she start taking Khushi's measurement,khushi is glancing at his time by time ,oh how much she wish that he would have been the one who can take the measurement ,she doesn't know that he is thinking the same wishing the same .He would just make little adjustment he would remove all her cloth first then he would start taking the measurement .sexual tension is so thick that even sandy can feel it .seeing their heated gaze she tries to move fast but in-between ASR is giving order to take measurement for sort and Long sleeves,plunging neckline and knee length .he is daring her to contradict his decision.she to flustered to make a snarky comment.
Finally it's over and it's evening it's been hours since they are out ,and the punchline is without fighting once.
Like today is the day of all their first.
Hope you guys like it it was bugging me so badly ,so I have put it here in word.
Anupamaa
Kabhi Neem Neem Kabhi Shahad Shahad
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